Hoping vs. Doing

My yoga studio opened in it's NEW location last night, 15 minutes closer to my house! So, now I do not have an excuse NOT to go!  I have never felt SO weak in my life.  Wow, I have lost alot of muscle mass.

Schedule is: 

Mon/Wed - 630 pm - 800 pm
Sat/Sun - 1100 am - 1215 pm

The owner of the studio commented on how much weight I had lost since she'd seen me last (tells you how long it's been since i last went to yoga!).  I heard myself tell her, "yup, and I hope to lose 10 more" ......  :|

Wait... wait... wait... I HOPE to lose 10 more??!?!?  There is NO hope, there is only I WILL lose 10 more.  Wow.  I couldn't believe I heard those words come out of my mouth.

During your weight loss journey, remove words that are PASSIVE such as hope, wish, etc from your vocabulary and replace them with words that define ACTION:  will, am losing, etc.

Wow.  Self, get back on track.

Happy Thursday, ladies!

not bad

GAIN - 4 pounds!

Well, almost.  The kicker?  Just over the weekend!  So, what gave me almost FOUR pounds in 3 days?

Friday -

After work Snack:
LARGE (did i really need large, wouldn't small have sufficed?), Hot Fudge Sundae (100 degree weather, I DESERVED it, right!?!?)

Dinner:
Leftover Chipotle (this is normal though, it was the snack that was abnormal)

Saturday -

Dinner:
Two pieces of pizza and two hot wings (again, somewhat normal to have this once a week)

Sunday -

Lunch:  Two pieces of pizza and two hot wings(not so normal, generally if we do pizza, we do it on Sunday, which means I eat it once)

So!  All of this conspired to make the scales almost FOUR POUNDS heavier today.  Official weigh-in isn't till Friday though, so.....  we shall see what normal eating the rest of the week produces.

Chosen.  Choices.  Choose.  Wisely.

meh

OMG!  on a side note.  I heard on the radio this morning that some company is going to start making PLUS sizes for CHILDREN as young as THREE!!!!  Seriously?  WTF?  Is the US THAT screwed up that our three year olds are over weight?!?!? 

We seriously need to teach America how to eat.  I know this is one of the many reasons I never had kids.  If I can't even feed myself in a proper manner, how in the world would I ever expect to be able to feed a child in a proper manner?  More importantly, TEACH a child how to eat properly?

We have a HUGE problem in the US and other parts of the world I'm sure, and I honestly don't know how to go about fixing it.  How do we fix it?  We of all people are aware of the problem, what can we do to help solve it?

grrrrr

Happy Monday, ladies.

Addictions - Letting go

I am an addict.  I possess the uncanny ability to "get addicted" to just about anything.  I have in the past been addicted to many different things (not in order):

1.  Exercise
2.  Weighing myself (up to 6 times a day)
3.  Cigarettes
4.  Drugs
5.  Food

Currently, I am addicted to playing a video game and I want to stop, but I can't seem to do it.  Much like drugs or alcohol, playing my video game started out as a social outlet, but now it is pure habit. 

The nature of the addiction is such that you can't ween yourself off, per se, as for me, it's an "all or nothing" type of addiction.  I either need to play the game, play it well, to the best of my ability, or not at all.  "Going casual" isn't really an option for me or my ego concerning the game.  Although, I just made a switch towards "more casual."

Perhaps it's an issue not so much with addiction as it is with "letting go".  I have a hard time with endings, as well.  I don't do endings very well or gracefully.  My endings generally involve drama whether self-inflicted or otherwise.

I think the real problem is without my addictions, my life is rather empty.  In my series of choices, I chose not to have kids.  I was afraid of changing my life as I knew it, forever.  Selfish, perhaps.  They say those of us without kids, who choose to not have kids, are selfish, self-centered, yada yada.

Since I chose this life for myself, I guess all I have are my addictions to make me feel less empty, so now I need to choose another, healthy, addiction.  Should probably get back to being addicted to exercise, at least that was good for me and only mildly annoying to others in the form of me getting cranky when I didn't exercise.

Ramblings for Friday.  How does one let go?  Have a great weekend, ladies!

Cravings

Choose Wisely

Life is a series of choices.  Choose wisely.

My sister's favorite saying.  Beginning to be one of my favorite as well.  More later perhaps, or perhaps not.  :)

GAIN!

"I got it honest."  What does that mean exactly?  Well, of the last 6 weeks, 3 were spent away from home eating total garbage. (read, i CHOSE to eat garbage, justified it, really, bad bad bad, there is NO justification for choosing poorly) I may see more, and if I do, "I got it honest."

Good to be home for a while.

Security codes

Security codes for commenting on folk's blogs is driving me NUTSO.  I basically can't comment on anyone's posts.

Ideas?  Cause I don't get it.

Day 5 - SSC

So, today is day 5, and (knock on wood) not smoking has been relatively easy, or course, this is in part due to a nasty cold I started feeling Thursday night of Day 1.  Being sick all weekend, the LAST thing on my mind was smoking.  I was coughing, sneezing, and aching enough I really didn't want one.

The thing I worry about the most is nicotine is an appetite suppressant, and while I still wear the patch, I'm sure it's suppressing my appetite, but what happens in 10 weeks when I stop?  Oh well, I shouldn't be worrying that far into the future!  Right?!?  One day at a time.  :)

Happy Monday, ladies!

Day 1 - Stop Smoking Campaign

So, today is the first day of the rest of my life - SMOKE FREE!  I'm doing it.  I don't care if the SO is doing it or not (although, he says he is, I'm not holding my breath, and I really need to give him space to do it).  But I REALLY need him to quit too, it'll be SO much easier not having our life revolve around smoking. 

Here are my reasons to quit smoking:

1.  My dad is entering the late stages of emphysema, and I do NOT want to be like him when I am his age (20 ish years to go)

2.  Save money - ($150 ish a month)

3.  Smell better

4.  Teeth look better

5.  Better heart/lung function

6.  Better breath

7.  Um... any other ideas?  :)

So, losing weight was easier with you folks, hopefully I can get some support with the no smoking thing.  :)

Happy Thursday!