Last night I dreamt that I had made a pan of brownies for work and just had a 1x1 piece to sample them. Mmmm they were good. Then I proceeded to convince myself that I had enough ingredients to make another pan... and that this whole pan could be mine. I ate the whole flipping pan.
I woke up this morning with the usual junk food mental hangover -- it took me about 1 min to realize THAT WAS ONLY A DREAM!!!!!!! And when I got up this morning... I dunno. I had more spring in my step.
It's crazy what an influence and addition food has in my life.
I ate out lunch yesterday - chinese. I was of course apprehensive... almost like I'm going to drive myself off track and into another binge.... but it didn't happen AGAIN. I ate til I was full and let the rest sit there with my napkin over it. I figured in the presence of others I wouldn't remove my napkin to eat more. LOL
I know that it's most likely I'll lapse into a binge at some point, but I'm really happy with myself for how I've dealt with eating situations.... hoping that when I do binge... these posts will bring me out of it knowing that I DO in fact have the strength to gain control over bad eating situations.
-thanks to everyone who's left comments to my posts. If not for all your encouragement and feedback, I would not have the motivation to keep going. I feel so supported here.
Posted By: zenjen
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06/12/2007 12:14
Dreams
Since starting this diet I have also had food dreams. The mind is a powerful thing!!
I am so proud of you for doing so well eating out yesterday. Eating until you are full and then stopping is a huge step!! Great job!
That is so awesome that you were able to stop when you were full at lunch... I admire that! Sometimes it's so easy for me to get sidetracked and devour the whole thing! That's a HUGE step, and you should be proud! PS... i love this site too, and i think it's really what's keeping me focused on my main goals. seeing everyone else go through their struggles and reading about their success makes me feel like I can do it too. Keep up the great work! :)
no i cant say that i have had any, but obsession? yes definitly with my points. they are my points and i want to eat them all up with no help! my 2.5 year old likes to sit with me when i eat and try to eat with me...only sometimes i think to myself - why am i letting him do this? yes it is an apple, and it is good for him, but it is my apple - i am loosing out on valuable food here that i have already calculated to be x points....greedy? oh yea! but i get over it.
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06/12/2007 23:15
Don't you love that feeling...
...when you realize that you didn't really eat all that stuff? I've had lots of "cheat" dreams. I guess our anxieties and obsessions work their way into our subconscious one way or the other.
As for binging--it isn't always that bad. I actually schedule binges...that way I reduce my feelings of deprivation. The fact that they are scheduled helps alleviate guilt/stress (and the related eating!), and doesn't make me feel out of control. The trick is to do it rarely enough that you still lose weight overall. I have gone on several vacations over the 2.5 years I have been on Jenny Craig. I gained like 10 lbs each time. It just took me that much longer, and I didn't regret one bite. I am close to a maintenance phase. I plan to eat the 1500 cal. plan 6 days a week...and eat whatever I want the 7th day. We'll see if that works...
Anyhow, you know yourself...learn what works for you through trial and error. You'll get there eventually!
