I was reading Ugly Betty's blog -- her latest post really hit home.
I am so guilty of having the same strategy when it comes to changing, weight loss, etc. Always it's 'tomorrow' -- but when tomorrow is finally here. I tell myself.... tomorrow. It's such a horrible cycle.
I also tell myself that I'm just meant to be this way... and I know it's not true. My drug of choice is food. I had an interesting night Sun when I was in the middle of a cookie-binge (read my post on the WalMart junk.. uggh ) when I put a cookie back in the plastic tray and said "Jen -- you don's have to eat this. Just because you bought it doesn't mean it has to be consumed"
It was such a foreign feeling.
It's crazy how addicted to food I am. My therapist wants me to go to Overeaters Anonymous, but I don't. It's like entering that room scares the *)(%^*% out of me.
Well today is the 'tomorrow' I referred to yesteday. Do I do something with it, or do I let the opportunity pass?
Posted By: zenjen
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06/05/2007 14:56
Today
We are always getting ready to live but never living. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
I'm addicted to food, too. I know it's a problem. I hope you find your mojo and start today.
I'm considering OA as well. I went a few times a long time ago, but was still struggling to get sober. There's no way I could stay sober without people around me who have years of maintained sobriety. Every time I see someone receive a 20 year or 30 year or whatever year token I am reminded that if they can do it. I can do it.
My experience of food addiction is exactly the same as the other addictions for me. I am addicted. I know it's hard for us to accept but there are alot of studies that show that the same brain chemistry that is involved in a cocaine addiction or alcohol addiction is the same brain chemistry that's involved in food addiction. You're not a bad person because you struggle with this and you are not alone.
I completely understand the anxieties about going. Once you meet people who understand exactly what you're going through that anxiety will fade. Because they've all had the same struggle.
hi! i stumbled across your blog - and I have the same binge problems. As much as I don't want to, I do. It's terrible and I often feel hopeless and helpless. But with time and dedication will come results. And remember - it's not always three steps forward, sometimes it's two steps forward, one step back. But that's still one step forward!
i tend to eat when im bored and it can be overcome!!
TODAY ZENJEN...TODAY IS YESTERDAYS TOMORROW !! tomorrow will never come because it will always be today!!! take advantage of the time and kick it into HIGH gear!!!
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06/06/2007 20:41
It's so hard isn't it?
if there were an easy answer than no one would be overweight. Maybe OA would be what will work for you or maybe it'll just be another notch in your weight loss attempt "belt". I don't know what's right or wrong for me either. I'm so confused and scared that the answer may never come. All I know is that I am the only one who can do this no matter what program I'm on.
I think that this web site is a good supportive place to start :)
