I've been lurking and reading a lot. I've not been in the right frame of mind to actually blog, apparently.
Lots of stuff on currently and feeling a bit overwhelmed by it all, combined with a trip into work on Monday, which has left me all a bit flat and worn out.
This week, I'm going to be up at least the 2lbs I was down last week, and perhaps another one to go with it.
Yes, it pisses me off, but I've only got myself to "blame" and I'm not going to do that, I'm feeling blah enough as it is.
I think I'm coming down with a cold as well. Hrmph.
The weather here is same old, same old .... WET and chilly.
I sit here in mid-August with socks and a cardi on with a fleece blanket over my shoulders like some old woman in the deepest of winters. And this is Summer?
Even if I wanted to put the heating on I couldn't. DH cut through the gas pipe last week .....
This coming week will not see a loss either, at best a maintain.
Thurs - Chinese
Frid - no excuse
Sat - Pizza Hut as a "treat" for DD as she's having a blood test, dinner probably out too
Sun - Friend over to stay .. too much food, too much booze
Mon - Bank Hols
Tues - no excuse
Wed - day trip to London with DD and DH, her 1st time ... eek!
Exercise ... yes, well, first it was too hot, now it's too cold.
My aim is that when DD starts school, I will get my life into some kind of order .. 2 more weeks!!!
For now, I'm going to go and blow my nose, take some cold relief and carry on feeling sorry for myself.
Finally .... she loses something. Yes folks ... I'm down 2lbs ... hoo flaming rah!
Amazing what not drinking so much wine can do for you eh. That and a stomach bug which puts you totally off the whole idea of anything much.
So, ok, this brings me to "needing" (oh ok .. wanting) to lose 4lbs in 4wks ... totally achievable, whether I do will be another issue, but a goal worth aiming for!
Mealplans for the week:
Tonight .. Chinese & wine (no surprise there then!)
Friday ... baked sticky chicken drumsticks with veggie cous cous
Sat ... salmon with fennel & potato mash
Sun ... roast lamb with apricots, roast tatties & veggies
Mon .. lamb curry with rice
Tues ... herb & cheese omelette
Wed ... broccoli & cauliflower cannelonni
Challenge of the week .... I am at work on the Monday (ie driving to work and back .. blah) which always throws me for six and involves bad choices
Challenge 2 of the week .... DD has her pre-school jab on Tuesday and I will be taking her out for lunch after it to take her mind off the whole nasty experience.
But, as I've stated before ... "Challenges not obstacles" ... and the aim of the week ... maintain or lose 1/2 to 1 lb .... would be happy with either result. Having done this game for 21mths, I know my patterns of loss and they're not going to be great guns next week ... but a maintain or small loss would do nicely.
Oh and here's something which is TMI .. I had my eyebrows waxed this afternoon and I think I have a trapped hair, I've got a pimple coming up on my brow .... yuk, yuk.
Morning all ... firstly I'm sorry if I "misled" anyone, certainly not intentional. The biscuits I made the other day ... were ... FULL ... of butter, gluten and sugar .... but please don't blame me for your weight gains if you ate too many of them ;)
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Right, ironing all done and put away, hurrah.
I did have the munchies last night, but I restrained myself to one of the "hobnobs" we'd made earlier in the day, and that satisfied me, amazingly!
I know I didn't drink enough water yesterday. Ok, fact, the only water I actually drank was in coffee's and wine.
Weight this morning: 9st 2.5lbs ... so, whilst this "may" be a morning weight and potentially a dehydrated weight, I can't see me gaining 3.5lbs by this evening's WI ... so I'm hoping to check back in tonight and report a loss!
Yes, I know that you, Shelley, have no sympathy (or rather empathy!) with this feeling, but bear with me .... I've done an hour, and now I'm bored.
So, what have I achieved today ...
Hmm .... got up and showered (an achievement in it's own right, yes!?)
Managed to get myself and DD to the nurse's apptmt on time, for them to run 20mins late, hrmph. Never mind. Done now, not to be repeated .. for another 2wks.
Wobbled around the supermarket for some milk (no caffeine at this pt .. no milk!) and bumped into a fellow WW'er ... boy was I glad at how my trolley looked (2 bottles of organic s/s milk, bottles of oj for DD, and organic cheese ....).
It's always funny when I go to our local store as it's a small town and I clerk at the local WW mtg, people on their journey to goal always try and take a peak into my trolley to see if it's low spread / low fat WW fare, and it's normally ... wine / beer / butter / flour ... LOL.
And of course, I always surreptiously look in theirs (diet soda .... pizza .... ready meals galore) ... and then listen to why they didn't lose weight this week, although they followed the diet to the word.
Sorry ... tangent.
Came home and made lunch (HM soup with HM bread and butter) ... I felt pleased as yesterday I took the time to make some soup made with a load of pulses, garlic, butter, olive oil, carrots, shallots, veg stock .... total pts 11 .... portions .. 8 .... very filling and very delicious ... so, what's that .. 1.5pts per portion ... bring it on.
The beans and pulses included .. pearl barley, kidney beans, black eyed peas, red lentils, green peas and other stuff ...
Spices included .. ground cumin, ground coriander, fennel seeds ...
It gave a warm, spicy effect ... delish :)
Then in organised mode (y'know the one where I asked DH to soak some different beans and get the pork out of the freezer last night) .. I then proceeded to put together a pork and bean casserole and shoved it in the slow cooker (crockpot?) and DD and I went out for the afternoon to a friends' house ...
Where in continuing theme of feeling organised, she'dinformed me that she had no snacks in the house for the kids ... so I took the weighed ingredients for some hobnobs (biscuits / cookies) and we rustled those up for the kids ... who ate them with relish (as did we ;) ).
Trust me, going out to the supermarket for biscuits would a) been more hassle and b) not as much fun as seeing the kids eating truly scrumptious, "healthy" biscuits.
Came home to a pre-prepped dinner .... which made for a much less stressworthy end to the day :)
DH still not home .. so I've told him I'm going out to buy a dog and feed his dinner to it .... alternatively, I've portioned it up and it's in the fridge ... but heck he doesn't know that ;)
So, for 10 mins work, I've made 5 loads of meals .... I can take that.
Exercise ... none. 5132 steps racked up somewhere. Baby B held for many hours and I made him giggle loads, so that has to be something right? But I just couldn't feed him, no matter how much he tried to claw at my breast for a letdown .. he was truly out of luck on that one, LOL.
A good day, truly .... but it's now 22:32, DH still not home ... ironing not done and glass empty .. so time to put all this to rights ...
Oh and BTW .. weight this morning: 9st 3.5lbs ... LOL .. who knows, but damn, I should've gone to that WW mtg this morning and had it recorded ;)
TatumsMom put in a request for some homemade bread earlier ... so just for you ... here you go:
And just so that no-one else feels left out, here's some biscuits for you all ... but I can't guarantee .. low fat, no gluten, no sugar ..... I can guarantee that they're scrummy (according to my 2 main food tasters .. DH & DD!)
Instead I took DD on her first "public" bus trip and then we went to see "Kung Fu Panda", complete with popcorn.
I mean, c'mon, how could I take her to her first BIG cinema experience and not do popcorn, LOL!
She got a bit scared (too dark, too big), but we rode with the punches and came out singing :)
Then, of course, I thought it was a good idea to ring DH and get him to meet us for lunch ... so my food today .. so far:
Coffee .. 2 slugs of
Water .... 1ltre (1/2 still, 1/2 sparkling)
Popcorn .... about a tonne ;) Sweet of course :)
2 rounds of poached egg on wholemeal toast
And now ... a coffee to recover .....
Oh and weight this morning: 9st 4.5lbs.
I've changed my mindset a little, and it's a bit odd ... I've kinda entered into the idea of "maintenance" .. no, I don't mean complacency and therefore weight creeping back up, I mean "maintenance". I mean, eating "normally" and not depriving myself, whilst at the same time, applying portion control. We'll see how it goes.
And then of course, I still need to get my aris in gear and lose 6lbs in um, 5wks .....
For now though, I'd best go and see how DD is getting on with building her traintrack, and get some bread made .... we are completely OUT!
Well, we went to my M-i-L's on Saturday, after DH and I going out for lunch (steak and onion baguette, complete with steak chips), I actually left a couple of the chips ... which is definitely a change from a yr or so ago, admittedly only a couple, but a couple nontheless.
Dinner was a full roast beef dinner complete with yorkshire puds, roast potatoes and loadsa veg (I ate too much meat, but on the whole "ok"), and then there was pud .. rhubarb crumble and custard ...
But .... then the evening came, and my M-i-L has been "struggling" with her weight since her mother died (2yrs ago this month) and consequently is good at attempting to sabotage others efforts, and I, the muppet, let her ... a little .... she had a box of chocs she wanted to get rid of .. well, DH and I helped her ... it gave me a complete sugar buzz, which was weird, I've never felt like that before, well not from sugar anyway.
I'd planned in the morning to just have a light breakfast of cereal ... but she'd cooked bacon & egg butties .... I managed to escape with just the "one round", but DH "had" to eat two ... whilst she didn't eat any, hrmph.
Off to visit a friend and her "new" baby (9wks) .... escaped that with just a coffee.
Lunch was en route home .... bacon & brie sandwich and a cappucino.
Came home, did DD some pasta,deciding to eat later for myself.
Got DD to bed, lay on our bed, and had the most horrendous stomach cramps, decided that I must be hungry, or at least needed something to settle it ... so decided as I'd had a heavy breakfast ... to have porridge for dinner, LOL ... at least it was something "comforting", well, I've spent the rest of the night with an uncomfortable stomach, not ill per se, but not well ..... not a good night's sleep to be had for me.
It'll pass, but not good.
Weight this morning, not sure, not yet dressed (the advantages of working from home, huh!) .... right, on that note, time to have a shower, find some more porridge and water... I'm sticking with plain and simple today I feel.
No idea what to do for dinner, meal plan has not yet magically materialised by itself, weird that!
I was hoping for the gym today, no way .... I think I'll go tomorrow evening.
without DD. We're off to stay at M-i-L's tomorrow and on Sunday we will bring my chickadee home again.
It's been odd her not being here, but liberating too. Wouldn't want it all the time though.
So, WW last night, recorded a MAINTAIN for me. Which all things considering, I'll take it.
This morning, post curry and wine, my weight is recording at 9st 5.25lbs. We'll see.
So, will this be the week that see a loss? Oh who knows. I don't.
Plenty of excuses / reasons as per normal. But could just be a "big girl" and make self-sacrificial choices now couldn't I. But do I want to .. certainly not enough, do I.
Do I actually want to stay at/around 9st 5.5lbs? Is that my maintainable and practical sustainable weight? So, far I've been this weight for 8.5mths. Maybe this is my weight.
From my earliest memories of "dieting" I've never been what I want to be, I've always had that-one-goal-too-far mentality. The earliest aims were to be 8st 7lbs (119lbs or rather 54kg (118.8)), the closest I ever got was about 56kg (123lbs) .... the final elusive lbs eh!
So, now I'm 132lbs wanting to be 126lbs, but when (if) I get there, will I then want to push it and go for the 119lbs ? Will I ever be happy with the number on the scales?
It's a love/hate relationship I have with them!
What plans for this week then? Need to have a plan!
Friday - more painting
Saturday - lunch out with DH, dinner at M-i-L's
Sunday - breakfast at M-i-L's (special k), lunch out en famille somewhere, dinner .... hmmm, I need to plan a low-maintenance quick dinner ... perhaps pasta
Mon - back to work and dentists.
Tues - DD and I chilling out, grocery shopping (evening - gym)
Wed - DD and I chilling out
Thurs - day of reckoning (DH & I - walk at lunchtime)
Frankly, I'll go for another week of maintaining, but with adding in some exercise.
It seems to me that I have something happening every week, which in my mind tells me that I won't be able to lose weight ..... not good enough.
Right, enough of my ramblings ... if I'm to lose 6lbs by Sept 14th, I'm just going to have to "change" something ... more exercise, less booze, less snackage ... something.
But, do I want to .. no, not really, I just want to wake up and be thin. Ain't gonna happen though is it!!!
DH has now completely removed the floor boards in the room, and we have received delivery of the new shiny floor joists ... go on, guess .... what we're doing today! LOL.
Food yesterday could've been a disaster, but it wasn't.
LJ & hot water
Coffee
Brunch - porridge, f/f yoghurt, hm compote
Coffee
Water
Coffee plus 2 hm biscuits
Then it got to 5ish and DH came downstairs on the prowl for a "snack" and a "what are we doing for dinner", including the ominous cop out option of a takeaway. I thought I wasn't feeling hungry, but then noticed I was feeling a little "short" (a bit like GCQMum to Jay!) ..... which for me normally is indicative of low blood sugar .. ie go on girl eat something before you completely snap at him .. especially as he had entered into the illogical blood sugar mess of his own. Which if we both don't tackle normally ends up in a pointless argument ....
Well 2 bowls of pasta later ... we were both happy!!
He went for some disgusting combination which I refused to go near .. and even he thought it wasn't so good when made (trust me .. tuna and basil pesto with fusilli is NOT a good look!). I had leftover chilli and pasta ... protein and carbs .. that'll do, LOL.
In the late evening (11ish) I did get the munchies .... but I had a bowl of cereal, and not a high fat, high salt option :)
Weight this morning: 9st 4.25lbs. Yes thankyou I'll take that!
Right, I'm off to gloss paint some windows and use some polyfilla too ... oh I know how to live don't ! ;)
