Whether EP completely re-designed their layout, purely for my birthday ... or am I having a senile moment and it's been this way for a while?
Either way, I'm guessing it's going to take a while to get used to ... and at my age, that could be a painful experience, LOL.
This weekend ... had absolutely nothing to do with "diet" and definitely loads to do with "lifestyle" ... but not a thin one ;)
I weighed myself briefly this morning, BAN, and well, yes, let's just gloss over that for a while.
Today, I am hungry, I think that's probably to do with the amount I've eaten this weekend has made my stomach bigger and needs more food. Well, I don't know ... but I am hungry today.
So far:
1 x lemon juice with hot water 1 x coffee with s/s milk 1 x bowl of porridge with fat free yoghurt and fruit compote 1 x tortilla wrap with cheese, refried beans and salsa 1 x coffee with s/s milk
No idea what to have for dinner. So I shall "let" DH decide, especially as I'm going to be out for an hour at that point, so I shall hopefully come back to something he's put together ... and tomorrow I shall sit down and write a menu plan.
As you can imagine yesterday I did "nothing", no cooking, no cleaning, no ironing, no washing ... so of course ... today I have to do catch up, LOL. Or rather, more likely to be tomorrow when I'm not working per se.
I have been a little pro-active though .. I have booked my hair to be cut tomorrow and my eyebrows to be waxed.
But then again, that's cos I haven't had my breakfast yet, so kinda unsurprising huh! I'll write this then go hunt for food.
I went out last night, I had a "reasonable" time, not a wow-factor evening, but a get off my arse and go and socialise evening. I was so uninspired about going that I contemplated not changing .. not putting on make up ... etc., etc., I didn't of course, I showered, changed and made up my face. But y'know.
This morning, I just feel wiped out, as because whilst I got back at just after 11, I then stayed up chatting to DH to way past 1. Bleurgh.
Oh and WW WI .. I maintained.
But, here's some serious advice for you all out there ... DO NOT MEASURE YOURSELF THE MORNING AFTER EATING CURRY AND DRINKING COPIOUS AMOUNTS OF WINE!
There, you've been warned. Don't tell me I haven't, cos I have.
Now ... why did no-one give ME that warning .... huh? So, I measured myself, possibly not the best idea I've ever had ..... bust is up an inch, waist is up 1.5inches, hips up 1.5inches.
However, I think I'll record it and forget it, until next month!
I need sleep, I need a clean house, I need a tidy house, I need groceries .... oh and I need to work today too. Could someone either sort everything out for me, or find me an extra 3 days please?
Food plan: haha .... leftover Chinese which DH had last night combined with leftover curry which I ended up bringing home for DH ....
Coffee .. lots of
Water ... 2 bottles, laughing at me
Snacks ... oh one of those fruity flapjacks I made, they're yummy.
Breakfast ... hmmm ..... porridge I guess, not sure how old the yoghurt is, oh dear, so off plan it's just not funny. I've got rhubarb dying in the fridge too, I was going to make compote with it, and just haven't.
Sleep, I need sleep .. I'm just not as young as I was once! Oh and I'm going to be really ancient on Sunday, LOL!
Hopefully not eh! One of the things I've been grumpy about is the fact that I sent 3 gf's an e:mail about a month ago, suggesting we went out on the 11th Sept for my birthday ... one reply I got, one ..... she said yes. I've been feeling unloved and a bit of a billy-no-mates. I refused to 'phone them or text them.
Anyways I got an e:mail from one of the other 2 yesterday, saying "oh are we still on for a meal tomorrow" ... well, hello ... NO.
Then late last night the original gf 'phoned and said that it was in her diary and whilst I was being sulky and pathetic (she didn't use those words, I did) did I still want to go out. NO
So, this morning she's 'phoned me again and persuaded me to get a life, she would book the restaurant and 'phone the other gf and that was it .. job done.
I don't know if I want to go out, I'm tired, I'm miserable, I'm grumpy, my house is a mess, I have guests for the w/e, I haven't even formed a shopping list, let alone worked out when on earth it's going to get done and by whom, a magic pixie perhaps?
Oh and I've been for a booster jab this morning, which if it's anything like DD's t'other week ... my arm is going to hurt tonight and tomorrow and the day after too.
Hrmph.
Diet ... yes, well, as stated, what diet! I did make some very nice flapjacks for DD yesterday ... I know they are nice ... a-hem ..... she has a few left, LOL.
On a Thursday I normally, eat v.little before WW WI ... well, it's 12:30 and so far I've had:
Bowl of HM muesli with s/s milk
2 x coffee with s/s milk
2 x crispbreads with butter and grated cheese
I have a bottle of water sitting here next to me ... saying "DRINK ME" ....
On the positive side:
We have booked DD's birthday venue and arranged an entertainer. Which has relieved some of the pressures for me.
Now, to work out a theme (it'd be ok if there were no boys going and the fact that DD has outrightly stated she doesn't want a Halloween theme, I mean for g*d's sake .... her birthday is 31st Oct., does she not appreciate the effort I went to, to arrange that, LOL!)
The house is slowly getting cleaner ... not by magic, but a la flylady techniques ... half an hour at a time.
So, weight this week .... up / slightly up / up / same / down / ....... overall, I'm guessing it's going to be near enough a maintain.
My jeans still fit.....
I need to get myself a focus on the exercise before Winter truly hits. I do suffer from SAD, I'm the first to recognise this. I do find that exercise does help my moods.
Part of my problem, is that I'm an all or nothing type of gal, I need to find that happy medium, or set myself some lower more achievable goals, rather than the "If I can't get to the gym 5 times per week ... I'm not going at all" mindset.
Oh and have I mentioned .... I want to buy a new outfit for our wedding anniversary w/e next week ... and yet, I've done NOTHING about it. NOTHING.
Head back in sand ...
I may not post again today with my WI results a) I may not WI and b) I'm going out for an Indian.
I've done this deprivation, counting, being responsible, exercising lark for nearly 2yrs now. I may be 2.5 stone lighter (um, 35lbs) .... but I'm bored, bored, bored.
I want to go and eat "normal" things, you know, good old fashioned fattening things and not worry about it.
Oh and by the way, to put this into context .. it's my birthday on some day this w/e .. y'know the day which my DD has been invited to a party to totally screw my day up, for her to be the mature "adult" and say .. "I don't want to go to the party, I want to celebrate with you" .. methinks I'm being a toddler. Hrmph. I am so NOT happy about the fact that she's going to a party on MY birthday, but actually I've only mentioned my discontent once, and that was mildly, truly.
I love my birthday, it's my birthday, it's the day I want to be spoiled, fed chocolates ... etc., etc., the day I day I don't have to get up, do anything and the world still revolves.
Chances are .... I have guests for the w/e who will need to be "serviced", I have a DD who has a party to go to, so I guess needs a present and a card, and I guess the house won't keep clean either.
I am on a sulk this week ... be warned.
Diet ... is NOT happening ... bollocks to it all (sorry) ...
I have to leave the house at 05:00am .... it really doesn't suit me, LOL.
It's currently 21:48 ..... but I'm watching the 1st episode of the new series of Desperate Housewives, having missed it on Wednesday. My major dilemma ... is that after this will be the next episode ... but I really ought to be asleep.
I have been so hungry today, and I've eaten anything that wasn't nailed down. My weight reflected that this evening. And no, I'm not telling! But it wasn't pretty.
Yesterday we took DD to see "Mamma Mia", we all loved it, very cheesy, but very amusing, and DD loved the music. Before that we took her to Pizza Hut, it was not a diet friendly meal, and nor did I attempt it to be. Yes, I could've eaten salad etc., but we don't often get pizza from outside the home, so we went for it :)
Today my food intake has been like this (oh dear, honesty .. best policy, or something to be put out there and a big line drawn under?)
Brunch - bacon & egg butties with bbq sauce and a cup of coffee
Snack .... cold leftover bacon
Snack 2 .... small container of "coco rocks" (nasty choc covered cereal)
Snack 3 ... another one
Dinner ... grilled lamb cutlets with boiled new potatoes, carrots & peas with mint jelly ..... followed by a jam coconut sponge which I made earlier, just because I wanted to eat something! with lashings of custard ... followed by ... another portion of pud.
Drink ... not enough water, pint of lime & soda, coffee x 3, 1 x voddie with soda and lime.
Time for bed, I'm tired and I have a long drive tomorrow.
With nothing to say .... so I'll probably waffle on incessantly for about 3hrs (you've been warned!).
WI last night scored a "maintain" at 9st 6.5lbs.
Which all goes to show that maintenance is in fact possible, LOL. Which is something I wasn't totally convinced by. But, as I've been doing it since last November, that's going some. Admittedly in that time, I've beaten myself up repeatedly for not losing the "final" 7 excess pounds which would bring me to my "dream" weight ... but on the flip side, I'm still "here" and it's all good.
Of course, in typical fashion, I still would love to lose some weight by next week, but in typical fashion, my heart is not, um, completely into it (understatement!), so I shall aim for losing weight, not really focussing and pray for a maintain.
DD started school on Tuesday and is loving it .
DD started school on Tuesday ... and I am not loving the early mornings .
I even went to sleep last night at a little after 10:30 ..... omg, this is unheard of! Still feel rubbish this morning, but that's mainly due to having a cold and therefore quality sleep was not mine to be had last night.
Tomorrow is ballet class, so another morning to get up and out, but fortuitously an hour later, hurrah!!
Also, want to take DD & DH to see Mamma Mia tomorrow, she's an Abba fiend, LOL. Not sure whether she'll enjoy the film or not, but she keeps bugging me to take her, so we will.
I suppose it's also that point in the week whereby I ought to be setting my food and exercise goals.
Well, ok, here goes .. I'm not setting any exercise ones. I feel bleurgh, I think my gym membership has expired and it's cold and raining. If pulling my duvet over my head counts as an arm rep ... count me in ;)
Food wise ... I'll be back with a meal plan later, ok?
I did make an "awesome" traybake this week ... for the British out there, it was a bit like a massive jaffa cake ... for the non-British who haven't got a clue what I'm talking about...
I made a sponge base, with apricot jam spread over it, with melted dark chocolate poured over the top of that and left to set. Then cut up into bite sized pieces :) Whilst I'm kinda suspecting that it's not "diet friendly", it has served me well as late night snacks and gotta be better than a portion of chips, surely?
Absolutely delicious .. and the best bit .... DD doesn't like it, haha ... so mine, all mine :) (Except for the 6ft mouse who seems to be nibbling away at it, although apparently ... he isn't, hmmmm ..... only 2 pieces left, shall I set a trap, LOL!)
It's September 1st ... I like September, it has my birthday and our wedding anniversary in it!
Dietwise, it's a maintaining kinda thing, although before the 14th I do want to release a couple of pounds back into the wild and not on my legs, which is where they are firmly sitting, that and my stomach!
I just don't think I'll "manage" the 6lbs. Ah well.
Last night I got all DD's uniform, washing, ironed and labelled :) Bar her shoes, which DH will do at some point today.
Last night, was an unmitigated disaster with DD complaining of earache. Sobbing hysterically ..... eventually the calpol and nurofen kicked in and to bed she went, but it was not the early to bed time I was hoping for. She woke up bouncy this morning though and has gone to nursery in her "Cinderella" dress for her last day. My baby goes to school tomorrow, OMG.
Foodwise, how have I been, oh my normal useless self!
Thurs - Indian
Fri - broccoli & caulflower cheese / bake ... which whilst tasty, just doesn't last for very long at keeping you full ..... so 1/2 portion of chips and curry sauce with DH later
Sat - out for lunch ... a very nice Aberdeen Angus beefburger (bacon and cheese) with chips and salad ... left us feeling full ... so no dinner .... until we then were hungry at 11pm .... so DH got us some starters and a portion of rice from the Indian (2 onion pakoras, 1 samosa, 1/2 ptn rice) ... hit the spot nicely.
Sun - Lunch was HM mushroom soup with pitta (ran out of bread, LOL), Dinner was HM pizza and garlic bread (guess who made bread yesterday), Supper was bread, butter and marmalade.
(Please note I am not mentioning a) my water intake nor b) my alcohol intake!)
Exercise ... was zilch. And I think my gym membership expired today.
Weight this morning: 9st 5lbs.
So, to move forward from this .... tomorrow morning we are taking DD to school (did I mention she starts school tomorrow, LOL), and then I'm going to walk home whilst DH drives home (I haven't mentioned this to him). The walk is 4 miles, so that should set me up for the morning I think. I was going to contemplate running / walking it, but I tripped over a cable t'other day and my knee is still whingeing. Also, I don't actually know what the route is going to be like, as I'm aiming to go cross country. It'll give my new walking boots a nice outing I think :)
Tomorrow evening, life permitting, I'm going to go the gym :)
Wed ... DD at school, me not working ... so to the gym I shall go :)
Thurs ... in London all day, so no gym, no exercise and probably atrocious food choices! WW in the evening, trains permitting.
My other "goal" for the week, is to get my downstairs cloakroom re-painted, I did it about 3yrs back and I don't actually like the colour scheme in there, so I've gone for a completely different one :) So, humidity levels dependant will be this evening or tomorrow.
Oh and I've got to go to the dentists this afternoon for a filling, so I'd best go and eat a hearty breakfast and have lunch too before I go.
Sorry, this is rather a long post isn't it ... if you've all fallen asleep I apologise, now wipe the drool off your chin, it's just not a pretty look ;)
Weight this week ... up ..... no surprises there. I am now 9st 6.5lbs officially (my scales say 9st 7.5lbs ..... but my mind says "nice curry" !)
But, this is the highest I want to go ... so for a week, I need to consider and oh I know, actually write a meal plan and stick to it.
My DD also starts school next week, so I'm a little "anxious" as to what she'll be having for school lunch, it's not the quality, as that's meant to be pretty good, it's the quantity she's going to eat .. she's such a slow eater, and being a "big girl" she gets to choose what she wants to eat ... which could be a disaster, but I have to "let go" at some point, so I guess I have to, to a degree, whilst ensuring that she has appropriate "snackage" both for school and after school, and a decent night time meal too.
So, from Tuesday, I shall be back to exercising (run out of excuses! ... bar the fact that I'll need to renew my gym membership)
But from today, back to food choices methinks.
Friday: Cauliflower & Broccoli cheese
Sat: Pork kebabs & veggie cous cous
Sun: HM Pizza & garlic bread
Mon: Chicken casserole
Tues: Veggie pasta bake
Wed: Quiche & new potatoes
Thurs: HM Pudding / Chinese
Fri: Fish pie
Sat: Lancashire hotpot
Sun: Chilli / rice
Of course, all of the above is subject to change, LOL
Well, here in Blighty it's been a holiday .... ie Bank Holiday Monday ... and a friend to stay ...
I never did quite get the house clean (sorry R!) .. but I just couldn't. I didn't have the time or the inclination. I did clean his room if that at all helps.
I normally lay on a proper meal when friends come to stay .. but um, I couldn't be bothered ..
So we had "spag bol" .. and very nice it was too :)
And a lot of wine .. I hereby, admit .. to falling asleep on the sofa and getting to bed finally at 6am .. today has been delicate.
My DD is severely into Lego at the moment, and "boys" given any chance are too .. so my DH and R have spent hrs this w/e playing Lego, as have I ... there is something truly relaxing about being a kid ... :)
Foodwise ... blah .. dieting .. blah
Tonight we all had Chinese due to lack of interest on cooking. She thought it was a great treat.
For now I shall go back to researching my DH's family history ... can I find something interesting? Doubt it!! But it's fun.
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