One thing is for sure, I am NOT an emotional eater, I am many things, but not an emotional eater. Which as today has panned out, is probably a good thing!
Firstly, apologies for being MIA "yet again", my life is so not in gear right now.
Last week saw me at work, yet again, and of course going out for dinner, eating too much, coming home .. eating too much, yada yada, you know the one.
Weight this week, yes, well, tbh I'm not too sure, I mean I've weighed and laughed, but it's not registering.
Thursday will re-focus the brain (maybe!)
In the meantime let's flip back a week or so ... our Wedding anniversary w/e .. the one where I cracked my tooth .. ffwd .. I got the tooth "filled" ... and a day later it gave out again.
My dentist had warned me that if it went, then there would be little that he could do and I *stupidly* presumed that would mean a crown, so as I was at work DH made me another apptm't .... but on the proviso I had to 'phone this morning and check with the dentist as to what type of apptm't I needed (timewise) ...
The (stupid) receptionist with that tact of a dinosaur (they did die out, right?!) ... broke it to me "gently" ... that no .... I would need an extraction and the 10 minute apptm't I had would suffice !!!!!!
I was not happy, in bits, destraught, oh you name it .... then told DH he would have to accompany me as it may totally wipe me out ...
Off we trot .. and in fact, my dentist has shoved some pin in and attempted to fix it .. so fingers crossed ... and no anaesthesia required, but still left me very woosy (shock mainly) ...
An hour later ... the 'phone rings, it's DD's school .. she's cut her head, could we come over ..... now, bearing in mind that she was attempting to swing the lead this morning "I have a cold, I don't want to share it .. so I should have the day off" .. this is a girl who's been to school FIVE weeks, give me strength!!! ... I went with a box of Disney plasters and some Calpol (kiddie paracetomol (Tylenol?)) ....
However, one glimpse through the reception window, kinda gave me a clue, a sticky plaster was just not going to cut the mustard on this one ....
Freshly laundered jeans, just post the w/e is not a good place for me to be!! They're feeling just a little snug, let's say.
The scales are 9st 7.25lbs, which is not horrendous.
The good news is, however, I think, I've procrastinated long enough on the exercise front, so tomorrow, I go and show my face at the gym, endure the mocking sounds, and pay some dosh and get myself back into a routine.
With Winter almost here (they say it's Autumn, I'm frozen) .... I need to do something pro-active, otherwise I will, literally, curl up in front of the fire and hibernate for the duration .... preferably with a large mug of cocoa and some choccie biscuits .....
I also, have my Christmas do to go to, which is mid-Dec., which gives me a goal to aim for ... my legs and arms need to be in shape.
I haven't tracked this week, so much for good intentions.
Today, I've eaten:
Coffee x 3 with s/s milk Porridge with f/f yoghurt and fruit compote Slice of thinly cut toast with butter and marmite Dinner will be bangers, beans and mash ... soul food !
Didn't sleep well last night, due to DH's snoring .... he's going to have to do something about it ... or I will !! I am not good when sleep deprived. Really not good!
Yesterday was a long day in the end, and mainly my feet ache. Why oh why did I choose to wear heels for a trip to the city with a lot of walking? Never mind, I'm sure my feet will forgive me eventually.
Weight this morning: 9st 7.25lbs ... post-Chinese morning. So, we'll see what it says another day.
Not much to say currently, dieting not a major focus in my life, neither is eating excessively, just trundling along. DH's birthday is today, so this w/e is going to be a bit "bloated" on the food front, potentially. However, as from Monday, I want to put some focus into it. Yes, I know, I know, I keep saying this.
I have, however, "promised" to keep a tracker this week, as long as my mother does. So, I guess I have to! Perhaps, having to admit to a bar of chocolate here, a cake there, a bacon & egg buttie over there, may just help!
OMG, another month almost gone. Which will bring me to one of the most busy months .... culminating in DD's birthday and starting with DH's birthday.
I won't be going to WW this week, nor next week due to work circumstances. I may go to the Wednesday morning session next week, but certainly not tomorrow, as tomorrow I get the joys of having my tooth glued back together :(
I pretty much feel like I'm treading water with this weight loss / gain thing, and that's just fine for the moment. I do need to get back to the exercise, but again, I'm not beating myself up about it. It's starting to get too cold, brrrr.
I don't have a lost to say about dieting at the moment. I do know I was in work yesterday and some people were looking fatter and fatter and more tired. My boss even admitted to eating on the run and eating for "comfort" as he was so short on time and energy.
But, it's all about choices isn't it. No one made him eat the spicy bean burger (it's veggie, so it's ok, right?!) as opposed to the HM carrot and coriander soup which was on offer. No one made him drink the can of full sugar "soda" as opposed to a bottle of water .... and no one made me eat the sausage & bacon bap as opposed to the bowl of insipid looking porridge either!!!
But, it was good, truly :)
We have to be aware of what putting certain foods into our systems is going to do to us. If we're tired and run down, a bar of chocolate may seem like a great idea to give us a mental boost, but it sure as hell isn't going to give our bodies what it needs to keep us going.
Says she who has just eaten a slice of cake for brunch.
But, I have equally laid in bed slobbing all morning to catch up on some needed "me time" energy restoring time.
Mind you, it's now 12:45 I really feel like I ought to be doing something worthwhile to justify my not working today ... but do you know what, just for once, I'm going to let the house sort itself out ..... sign off from here and read another chapter of my book.
Don't worry, I will crawl out of my pit by 2pm, shower and go and look like a well composed responsible parent who has been busy saving the world or being important. Ha ha.
Zed42 is a loser ... but not as much as EP would have you believe!
I lost 1.5lbs, bringing me to that glorious weight of 9st 6.5lbs, and not the 9st 6lbs that EP would like me to believe, hey ho. A rounding error methinks.
In which case, as 9st6lbs is nearer to 9st than 10st ... it must mean I've reached my "dream" weight of 9st ... woo hoo!!!! Champers all round then!
Oh darn, you mean it was in fact a dream .... hey ho.
Right, tomorrow's plan:
07:30 crawl out of pit and sign on to work, try and do some admin 08:30 drive to school 09:00 sit in Church and look dutiful awaiting DD's first "Harvest Festival" 10:00 hopefully ... get to work 12:00 all too much ... time for lunch with the girls 13:00 rush back again and look busy 17:00 ... guess I'll be working late tonight
B - nothing (apart from the old lemon juice / water thing and perhaps some caffeine) L - something ..... poached eggs on toast, something of that ilk D - grilled pork chops with a mustard crust, new potatoes, carrots & broccoli
That a date has a particular significance, yet for the life of you, you can't think what? Well, I've just looked at the Post Date "Sep 25" and that feeling has arisen. Hmmm ... suspect it's someone in my pasts birthday (school wise I'm thinking, but who knows!)
Anyways ..... my ma sent me her WI results and DH weighed this morning, and I've measured him too, LOL.
Me, well, I've got on the scales and then got off them again ... no idea what kind of weight it is, bearing in mind my water intake yesterday was pathetic. It looked nice though (9st 5.5lbs) ... let's just see what transpires by this evening. Which reminds me .... where is that water bottle .... hmmm .... right, that's better, one slug down a litre to go, LOL.
I have absolutely no idea. I also have no idea of my weight currently. Yes, I'm a total scale whore, but I'm hiding from them.
On Monday due to having run out of clean jeans in a size 10, I put on the 12's ... they were baggy but comfortable .... and oh so tempting to put myself back into them permanently.
I did a whole load of washing and ironing and today I'm back into my 10's ... they're snug and not so comfortable. My mental attitude is different .... I need to get rid of the excess.
As I've stated previously ... I'm on maintenance for these few weeks and then going to get back to it. However, somehow in the midst of all this, I've gained the responsibility for my mother and her weight .. or at least the responsibility for her having to be accountable to me. I'm not quite so comfortable with this ... and then of course my DH decided to join in to.
So, she is quitting her Monthly Pass at WW .. because she hadn't been for 4wks and was paying anyway .... she told me that WW wasn't working ... erm ... more to the point ... she a) wasn't following WW and b) didn't like the leader (am there .. know the feeling!)
However, she has lost a stone in the past year ... and she's happy with this .. but still needs to lose another 2 stone.
Slowly, slowly, catchee monkey is what I've told her ....
But ... I've also told her .. I want her results and reasons each Wednesday ... not some "ah well, y'know" answer....
So, I suppose I ought to be a role model of sorts ...
DH also needs to lose about 1.5stone .... I wonder if I taped his mouth shut he could do it by Christmas ;)
Add to that, I need (want) to lose some weight (until tomorrow I have no idea how much) to be at 9st ... Christmas would be wonderful.
I also must must must find the sodding gym ... it's a small town, it must be there somewhere ... I had managed to make it a routine, so easily we slip.
Today's food:
Coffee x 3 with s/s milk LJ with hot water No water ... forgot ... sigh Cider .. forsaking the wine for cider this week and cutting back in general Hot chocolate with s/s milk and light spray cream with marshmallows 3 HM blueberry muffins ... in the interests of H&S you understand ;) HM Seafood risotto .. with my DD's favourite .. baby octopusses (oh ok, so they're squid ... but she thinks they're octopusses!), mussels, prawns, and fully blown squid strips
Did I mention I broke a tooth on Saturday morning, it was all so wrong ... I had a hangover ... we were going away for the w/e, so I was looking for a quick fix .. I had a glass of lemon cordial with soda water for the sugar fizz effect, then reached for the G&B's butterscotch chocolate ... and cracked my tooth in half ....
Well, that made for a romantic w/e away, LOL ... with in my dentist's words "so you and DH played dentists and nurses then" ... *blush* .... so, next week I get to go and suffer the "fun" of having it all sorted.
I'm prattling, I'm going .... ciao for now .. and J-i-L ... don't forget your knickers !!!
It's Monday, we've done nothing but eat and drink for days. My weight reflected that this morning, when I briefly got on the scales, and rapidly retreated from them.
My stomach is flabby My waist on my jeans is not loose I need to put my butt into gear, but I'm hungry.
Foodwise today:
Coffee with s/s milk x 2 Porridge with f/f yoghurt & fruit compote (not enough porridge) 1 rice cake with low fat Philly Water .. some I'm hungry .... I think, at least, I want food. Dunno what I even want though.
Food plan for the week is actually written (bar Sunday) ... hurrah.
M - Veggie pasta (basically pasta with plenty of veggies thrown in with a tomato sauce), might do garlic bread with that. T - Seafood risotto W - Slow cooked lamb with apricots & almonds with cous cous Th - Chinese, but maybe curry, the Chinese was way too salty last week F - Pork chops, new potatoes and veggies S - Sausage & butterbean casserole S - maybe HM fish pie?
Oh and it's our Wedding Anniversary today ... plans for celebrating today? None .... we did that this w/e.
The sky is grim and grey today, sigh ... yesterday was a beautiful sunny day, I had such high hopes that today was going to be the same ... but nope, instead I have 3 loads of washing languishing on the line, with not even a breeze to chivvy them along. Hey ho.
On the up-side .. .DH and I went shopping this w/e for clothes, and actually bought some! A minor miracle ;) And a new handbag too :) I think it's the most money I've spent on a handbag ... so far, LOL
First of two, no doubt. And no doubt either a maintain, or small gain to report this evening.
The sky is actually BLUE, a very pale blue, but BLUE nontheless. Trust me, that's a great improvement. It's also darned cold. But, it's BLUE!
Menu plan has still not magically made it's way into my life. Yesterday I made a rather nice (if I say so myself!) cherry tomato and bacon quiche/flan. So, that's what we had for dinner with new potatoes, mange tout and carrots.
Tonight will be Chinese Tomorrow, fish pie I think, if I can persuade DH to peel the spuds (it just bores me way too much!) Sat .... out for our Wedding anniversary, so the world's my lobster! Sun ... out still ... but do need to work something out as I will be back just in time to have sorted dinner out for DD and my ma. Mon ... is our actual Wedding anniversary, so ought to do something nice mealwise. Hmmm ... Tues .. is too far away for me to contemplate!
Yesterday I also replenished the bread supplies and made some rolls too :) And made a whole load of lentil and bacon soup, which is now languishing nicely in the freezer :)
One of our friends made a comment at the w/e ..... which made us laugh .... "there's no fear of going hungry when I come to stay is there!"
OMG, my DD being at school and me working part time, has proven great today.
I have actually done so much (non-dietwise). I've actually gotten to the bottom of my overflowing intray, it's been majorly bugging me. Now it's just a few bills to pay and I'll be square :)
I've also been doing the cleaning a little "fly lady" like for the past few days, and it's starting to make a real difference, which is making me feel happier too :)
I just need to get the food thing sorted.
I haven't yet done the meal plan ... it WILL be done tomorrow, it will, it will, it will.
I actually took a nap earlier this evening, it's made me feel more human too :)
Right, so food today, for the purpose of being honest:
LJ & hot water 2 x Coffee with s/s milk Porridge, fruit compote and fat free yoghurt Tortilla wrap with refried beans, cheese and salsa 3 x mini brioche (6.75pts) HM spaghetti bolognaise plus parmesan Water ... not enough Pint of lemon "juice" and soda water 1/2pts of s/s milk Glass of wine .... oh sod it, I'll have another.
Exercise is still severely missing in my life. I'm going to get our wedding anniversary, DH's birthday and DD's birthday out of the way ... and then in NOVEMBER (yes, I know that's 6wks away) I am going to start to sort that bit out.
Now, do I mesg DH to get him to refill my glass, or should I reach over and do it myself ;)
