Firmly, by the scruff of it's neck and get it done. Stop whingeing / whining and sinking into the food and saying "to hell with it".
WW WI - gained 1/2lb
Which of course brings me 3 weeks in a row of gains. Bringing my total for June so far ... PLUS 4.5lbs.
So, in a vague attempt to get my life back in order, certain things need to change this week...
1. Better sleep
2. Better food
3. Better exercise
The main one being the "better sleep", as without that, the rest of it all goes to pot.
I had a better night last night, I slept solidly from midnight to 5am ... and then off/on until 08:30. Consequently I feel almost human today.
Yesterday was exhausting and I felt like a total zombie throughout it, but never mind, that was yesterday and today is here and now.
Plans for the day, let's see:
Foodwise ... currently it's 12:37pm and DH is having a business meeting downstairs of which I don't want to be part .. but means access to kitchen has been denied, LOL ... so I'm up to:
1 cup of hot water and lemon juice
Water
2 x coffee with s/s milk
There are some WW chocolate bars behind me and if he doesn't take them out for lunch soon ... they will be consumed, LOL!
But my actual plan looks like this:
Porridge, fruit puree and fat free yoghurt
Chicken & vegetable risotto
Exercise wise:
Currently in the pre-gym slump of "can't be bothered", but I am determined to go today, as I know that once I have a few sessions back under my belt, I will regain my enthusiasm for it, but currently flagging!
So, gym-wise .. I am DEFINITELY going at 17:00, leaving DH to pick up DD and cook dinner ... by which time I may be back to eat it, LOL!
GCQMom slightly depressed me (sorry!) by one comment ..... 3 days until the end of June ... and 1/2 way through the year. OMG!
I am currently sitting at the same weight I was LAST November!
So, I guess in order to give myself something, I need to "stick with the programme" this week and knock some of this poundage on the head ....
My aim is quite simple really ... I want to be 9 stone .... 5.5lbs .. not hard now is it?
Oh hip hip hurrah .... and grocery shopping at that!
The things that make me happy are quite simple at times, LOL!
Menu plan has been written for the week.
Slept badly .... can't decide if I have hayfever and a cold or just plain hayfever. I think it's the latter, although the antihistamine doesn't seem to have helped much this morning. DD's cold seems to be breaking :)
Put on a freshly laundered pair of size 10 jeans, the legs are a little snug ... now I don't know if that's as a direct result of the gym yesterday or I'm fat or what .... but my scales are reading 9st 2.75lbs today (so, I'm not tempting fate by moving them or getting back on them, LOL!)
I was planning on going for a run today, but I don't think it's going to happen timewise. That and my gym kit needs a wash! Tomorrow is unlikely too ... but I shall be going on Friday evening.
Tomorrow we're going on a picnic ... I do hope that the weather is better than today .. it's pouring down. That's not going to be much fun. Send some sunny and warm vibes please .....
Right, time to pack my bags, collect my DD and go shopping. I'm guessing that she'll weasel a biscuit and a "magazine" out of me, LOL! Disney Princesses by any chance?!?
Sorry, a totally dry posting, just a record of my gym activity this evening.
Attitude pre-going: Hmm, I could just leave it for today
Attitude during: This is too hot, but glad I came
Attitude after: Knackered but happy!
First off ... 2 mile run ... totally sucked, but I finished it. It was way too hot for me in there tonight, so if I'm going for a run tomorrow .... outside would be a lot better. (Pace: 11:04) (Calories: 186)
Chest Press: 15kg (2 sets / 15 reps)
Vertical Traction: 15kg (2 sets / 15 reps) (Easy ... need to up it next time)
Bike: 12 mins / Level 3: 4.46km (Calories: 63)
Name of thing which I can't remember: 25kg (3 sets / 12 reps)
DD is at playgroup / school today ... last time I'll get a day to myself until September .. and then of course I'll get it every Tues/Wed, so I'm not wishing my time away.
Anyway, back to the point .... I have the day to myself (well, almost ... if only I could get DH out of the house for the day!)
1. The car has been collected for a service (overdue since Dec, oops!)
2. Beds have been stripped, and 1st load of washing is on
3. Coffee is sitting next to me being drunk :)
4. Sort out some tomato plants for my friend
5. Paint the back door
and
6. Shhhh ... attempt to make my DD a "Cinders" rags dress ... this should make me laugh .... I'm petrified, I don't make clothing, I've no idea how ... but my DD is adamant I should make her one, so I thought I'd attempt to surprise her .. and if it all goes horribly wrong it can buried w/o her seeing, LOL!
Oh diet blog .. I remember:
Food yesterday was patchy, I was tired and scavenging .. I made some delicious bread from a different blend of flour .. so um, 3 thick slices, buttered with marmalade got consumed by magic .... v.yummy though :)
Weight this morning: 9st 3lbs
Food plan for the day:
Coffee
Porridge, fruit puree, yoghurt
Dinner .... the last of the freezer dip (I hope!) .... will be a kind of beef stroganoff with rice and carrots, I think ;)
Exercise ... I was planning on going to the gym today, instead I'm going to go at dinner time, otherwise I'll lose my precious time "alone" today :)
Hayfever ... sucks majorly.
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Edited to say: my scales are haunted, damned things ... so, apparently I now weigh somewhere between 9st 2lbs and 9st 8lbs .... anyone got a skip for them to be lobbed into .. and of course the 9st 2lbs, was like a "wow" and the 9st 8lb, was like a "what's the point, I may as well go and eat anything/everything I can find" ..... hmmm .....
Self destructive tendencies ... a few jelly beans here, a few there ... a slice of bread and butter here, a bacon and egg buttie there ...
Enough is enough ...
Weight this morning: 9st 4.25lbs
The idea you dolt head is to reduce the number on the scale, not increase them. D'uh!
I did go for my run yesterday though, I did go to the gym, it had rained all night and then the wind was blowing so strongly, that I decided a run in the wind was not the way I wanted to re-introduce myself to the outdoors.
Pace was slower: 10 mins. I did 2 miles.
My knee is a little achey so I'm going to keep an eye (and an ice pack!) on that. It's taken a long while for that to heal, I don't want to hurt it again.
Today is a REST day and tomorrow I shall be going to the gym to do a) a run and b) a workout as DD will be at nursery/school and I will have the time. Or if I don't go in the day ... I will go in the evening. Either way tomorrow will be a full workout and run and I'm looking forward to that!
Food wise is still challenging, as I truly am digging through the freezer, to the point that I managed to empty our smaller freezer for defrosting and still have a 6th of the chest freezer empty!
Tonight's dinner is going to be canneloni with a tomato/basil sauce, topped with a cheese sauce. That is if the 6' mouse hasn't polished off the cheese !! He has been warned.
And thought that today would be the day she went for a run outside ... oh ok, so it's done nothing but rain and wind all day.
I've even brought my washing in off the line in a vain attempt to change the course of nature. It's not working!
Consequently I haven't been for a run today ...especially not helped by the fact that my gym kit was soaking wet, LOL ...
Tomorrow, however is another day and I shall be going to the gym for a 2mile run, come hell or high water.
DH can do the childcare for an hour whilst I do this. I'm not going to use him as an excuse. It can be done, and it will be. So, whilst he does the lunch run, I shall do the treadmill run, LOL!
Foodwise today has been patchy, I've just been grazing ... so let's do a recap for the moment whilst I wait for DH to cook dinner ;)
Lemon juice with hot water
Coffee with s/s milk x 3
Water x 1ltre
Cheese, ham & pineapple on toast x 2 rounds
Bit of ham
Bit of cheese
Slice of bread and butter
1 x Ryvita with butter
Handful of jelly beans, cos they were there ...
A couple of mouthfuls of pasta and sauce, leftover from DD's dinner
And dinner will be a steak sandwich.
Weight today: horrendous, not ready to face up to it.
And of course, psychologically I feel better for it. Now I just need to keep the momentum up, or rather create the momentum!
I only went for a 2 mile run today rather than a run and a workout as bluntly I squeezed it into my lunch hour and also I wanted to start back gently.
It's been 2mths really since I did some proper exercise, so back to basics for me I think.
Today I did 2miles in 19:48, so what's that? Pace: 9:54 .... happy with that. I did have to slow down (oh ok, walk) on 3 occasions I think, but I did it, and that's the main thing.
The gym was horribly stuffy and hot today. The problem with having no aircon and the slightest hint of sun with a tin roof to boot!
Dependant on the weather, I'm going to attempt another 2 miles, but this time ... outside. It's been too long, I've been putting it off since March! When I did my knee in ....
Oh and we (the family) have our photo's in the local rag today ... I may try and scan them in later or something ....
Right, time for a shower and to cook dinner .... have a fun Friday evening :)
.... oh and RaspberryCordial ...... is going to the gym ... you've read it here first :)
So I'm rapidly running out of excuses not to go to the gym at some point today!
I have my new trainers (running shoes) on, only bought back in May and not yet been used. Shame on me! My new sports bra in which I'm sure I can breathe ..... ! I do however, desperately need some new trackies as a safety pin to hold them up is not a good look, LOL!
The diced pork is out of the freezer for dinner tonight. We shall be having some kind of pork and black eyed pea casserole with new potatoes, carrots & peas.
Breakfast was HM muesli and s/s milk
Caffeine intake so far ... 2 cups with s/s milk
Bottle of water sitting on my desk.
I am going to get back into this, I am, I am, I am!
The 4th of July ... to get to my goal weight of 9st. That's 2wks.
But more importantly in that 2wks, I am going to get myself back to the gym and I am going to get my larder replenished. Simple aims, simple aims.
Last night I ended up sitting at a table with another couple, and the topic turned to the female and her weight loss aims, where she said that she wanted to lose 2stone by August. Me, I've managed 2lbs since December, LOL! And then it turned to the fact that I "help out" at WW and her partner exclaimed "you, weight watchers ... but you don't need to" .... that was a good moment, LOL .
This week will result in a weight gain, whilst I'm not ecstatic about that (oddly enough!), equally I know damned well why, and hell life is only lived once. But as from tomorrow morning, I am going to have a good week and find some focus. Wonder which hedge it's lurking under ... hmmmm.
So, what challenges do I have in the following week ? Only one .. and on WW WI day .... an outing with playgroup which involves a full blown picnic and ice cream / cake galore. However, it is a challenge and not an excuse, and one which I shall prevail over. So ner!!!
For now though it's time for caffeine and a shower ... have a good day folks.
I am so bored of being on a diet. Call it a lifestyle change if you want ... I call it BORING!
What I do know however, is that I don't want to gain it all back so if it's got to be boring, I guess it's got to be boring.
It would, however, help if just perhaps I'd had time to go grocery shopping, plan the meals for the week or find the gym .. or all of the above.
I am still running on "freezer surprise" .. the lack of surprise is that I'm running out of ingredients to make food, and resorting to takeaways. Especially if DH is meant to be making dinner.
I think we've had 3 in the past week and we're out tonight for a curry. A night I really don't want to go out, the food is going to be poor, the company "passable" (all in a good cause though), and the night before WW. Yeh, right, that's going to be a success story NOT!
Oh and to add insult to injury I made DD some flapjacks for her lunchbox, yeh right ... so just for her, right? I can kid you and say that they were highly nutritious, and in some ways they were (sunflower seeds, sesame seeds, chopped apricots, sultanas, oatflakes) and in others totally "fattening" (1/2lb butter, golden syrup, brown sugar) ..... but OMG .. delish!
So, I'm going to keep feeling blah until I can get my life together and do some replenishing of our "larder".
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