I want to be a loser

Lane Bryant left a message on my machine last week that they were having a big sale this weekend.  I really would like some new shirts since I know it will be awhile before I move to a smaller size.  But I told myself – no shopping this week unless you lose at least 2 pounds.  I worked really hard – did not stray from my plan at all and worked out 4x this week.  Went to JC and I had lost 1.4 pounds.  When Hannah, my JC consultant, asked me how I felt, I told her “I am &&$*#@@ pissed off!!  How come when I stray from the plan I lose more weight?  So needless to say, Lane Bryant lost money this week.  Later that day my family and I went to eat Mexican for my sister’s b-day.  We had about an hour wait and my sister bought me this huge margarita.  I hated to be rude but I told her there was no way in hell I was going to waste calories on a drink!!!!  So I ate some chicken in corn tortillas.  Also had some chips and salsa.  They were so good!!  Then we went back to my mom’s place for cake.  My other sister and I made this huge cake Friday night for my older sister.  It was a chocolate Boston crème pie cake.  Layers of chocolate cake with vanilla pudding filling.  We spent 4 hours making and decorating this cake – I was going to have a piece.  So I had a small piece or maybe a medium piece.  More likely a medium piece.  IT WAS SO GOOD!!! 

So I am going to do my thing this week and follow the plan.  If I lose more weight this Saturday – with eating that cake – I am going to scream.  I am also trying out different workout DVDs.  I am using some walking ones as well as the Biggest Loser one.  I also tried a Richard Simmons DVD (I can’t believe I am actually admitting it).  Richard kicked my butt!  The workout also confirmed that I have no rhythm – how depressing.  If anyone knows any other workout tapes that a beginner with no rhythm can do that works you out really well – please let me know.  I want to break up the monotony. 

Still trying to be a loser…….