If this is rambling sorry, just need to let it out. Ever since I started losing weight, I've been battling with myself to stick with it. For the most part it's been easy, but these last couple weeks have been hard. I've slipped and almost fallen off the wagon, I'm holding on by the edge and I'm going insane. I still haven't dropped below 300.0 yet. Over the last week I've weighed, 300.0 to 301.6 and my eating has also gone in and out of control. I've been eating too much and I notice it and then not eatting anything or very little rest of day.. I think that's what has let me maintain the 300.0 but not gain / lose any either. I am really trying to stay focused but its hard. I've done so well up until this point, and I don't want to lose what i've done, so that keeps me going, but then I see that I have so far still to go and I'm just so tried and fed up with it. I haven't walked but once or twice in the last couple weeks and I feel bad about that too. I don't want to go back to the way I was living and eating, so I'm going to hold on tight and try and pull myself back up on the wagon again. I'll post how it goes this week.
Posted By: Yruc
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01/26/2006 10:21
I think this is how our setpoints get moved up
It's almost like our body's have their own psychosis...ya know? That 300 mark is a sticking point for you - your body just doesn't seem to be cooperating. Then your mind starts to repeat all those old tapes of 'give up', 'you'll never do this', 'look how far you have to go'. Self-doubt. I hate this stuff. But look back over what you've done. It. is. amazing. You have already lost the weight of my 11 year old! Your knees and back are no longer carrying that around. Your heart and lungs are already feeling relief in this. You may not know it, but the quality of your sleep has probably improved. (Do you have sleep apnea?) You have done an amazing thing. Don't fall into the trap of doubt. So you've eaten differently in the past few weeks - it does not mean you are destined to eat that way forever. So you haven't exercised as much as you think you should have - doesn't mean anything other than you haven't exercised as much as you feel you should've.
Maybe you're bored with the walking routine or route. Maybe your body needed to take a few weeks off. If nothing else, this may have tricked your metabolism enough so that when you start eating like you mean to, your body will burn fat even better.
Please do not let this get you down. You are in control of this, even if you don't feel like it sometimes, and as hard as it is, you have already proven you have what it takes to do it.
Thank you for your comments. It does help. I think I am a bit bored with my walking routine and eating routine. Though today I went to the doctors for my monthly weight blood pressure check (and it also this time I met with the doctor (i only met with her every 2 months to check on progress)) and I feel better and more motivated again. Last night after I got up I weighed 299.6!! Was so glad to see that number not be 300 . Though after eating / drinking all night (work nights) and the difference in the Doc's scale, I weighed at 302. Which is 91lbs lost in 6 months!! Talking with doctor and nurses everyone is happy for me and very supportive. I feel much better and feel like I'm getting my control back..
