01/26/2006 10:03
Feeling A bit Renewed.
Last couple of days I haven't given up, I've just slluffed (is there such a word?) off. I haven't walked but I've kept my eating under control and ~1400-1600 calories, I just haven't kept track of it my my spreadsheet like I've done since november. I filled them out best I could today though because last night when I got up, I finally weighed under 300 lbs!! I was at 299.6 It was such a nice thing to see that on the scale! I also had my monthly wight / blood pressure check. and also my bi-monthly meeting with my doctor to check on how I'm doing and any side effects / concerns etc. On the doc's scale I wieghed 302. So officially lost 91 in 6 months. My doctor and her nurses were all happy and supportive and impressed, and after meeting with the Doctor and talking I feel better and more focused again. I know I still have a long ways to go but I'm doing well and its me that's doing it, I just have to keep doing it!
01/23/2006 23:39
Fighting a Battle
If this is rambling sorry, just need to let it out. Ever since I started losing weight, I've been battling with myself to stick with it. For the most part it's been easy, but these last couple weeks have been hard. I've slipped and almost fallen off the wagon, I'm holding on by the edge and I'm going insane. I still haven't dropped below 300.0 yet. Over the last week I've weighed, 300.0 to 301.6 and my eating has also gone in and out of control. I've been eating too much and I notice it and then not eatting anything or very little rest of day.. I think that's what has let me maintain the 300.0 but not gain / lose any either. I am really trying to stay focused but its hard. I've done so well up until this point, and I don't want to lose what i've done, so that keeps me going, but then I see that I have so far still to go and I'm just so tried and fed up with it. I haven't walked but once or twice in the last couple weeks and I feel bad about that too. I don't want to go back to the way I was living and eating, so I'm going to hold on tight and try and pull myself back up on the wagon again. I'll post how it goes this week.
01/19/2006 23:59
Thursday
Went walking Thursday after class. I only walked for 2 miles though, but at least got started back up. I just hope I can keep the momentum going.. Also I'm getting so close to the 300 mark... I'm getting impatient. Yesterday I was at 300.8 and then tonight when I got up I was at 300.4.. .argh! so close but yet so far to go.. I can't remember the last time I weighed less than 300... After high school I avoided scales like the plague.. I am going to guess though it was sometime ago... Maybe at the end of highschool that I hit 300.. Last time I remember weighing before starting this journey was 275 and that was in highschool... Even though my weight wont be officially below 300 until I weigh at the doctors, at least mine will say it and I can say that I've hit a major goal.
01/18/2006 00:15
Wed Catch up
Well this last weekend, I kinda of slacked off. I kept up on the diet part (though I did increase my calories by 600 calories a couple of days...) I didn't go walking though. I don't have an excuse I just wasn't feeling up to it. I've been kinda in a blah mood and find it hard to be motiviated. College starts later this morning and I am looking forward to it. I hope with this new college start I can get back into the walking habbit. Its been one full week since I last went walking.. On Sunday when I woke up was at 301.8 and then Tue night I weighed when I got up and was 301.8 still... argh! Probably has to do with increase in calories over the weekend. I'm on track to be back down to 1200-1400 calories today and I think I got it back under control. I just don't want it to slip and lose control and back into my old habbits. I can tell over these last couple days when eating extra, I just didn't feel good.. Though I didn't fall far off the wagon, I still fell. So I'm getting myself picked up and dusted off and jumping back on.
01/13/2006 21:32
Thur and Fri
Well last couple days have been crazy.. Thursday I walked, but it was at the store. I needed my phen refilled and that took an hour.. so I walked around and around the store while waiting for it. Friday I went to go walk but the weather was against me. I'm still too big to zip up my coat, and Friday the temperature was35ish but had constant winds of 15-20 with gusts upto 35 so the wind chill was in the 20's... I tried to walk but froze. I didn't goto the mall as I went home cause wasn't feeling well. Tonight just woke up, I feel better, so I might go walk Sat morning instead to make up for the lax thursday and the non existant friday...Just depends how I feel after I get off work. Waking up, I'm down to 302 which is 91 lbs.... though when I get something to eat, I'll go back up to 85-85 down probably...
01/10/2006 17:46
Tuesday
Snow and sleet today, didn't stop me from walking though. I went to the mall and walked about an hour, not quite, so I would guess 2.5 miles today. Yesterday went to bed early and didnt' eat dinner, was 700 calories short for the day... Maybe it will get me over this hump. Ever since I hit 80 lbs lost, my progrress has slowed down. Hopefully this will kick it back in gear. Crossing my fingers..
01/09/2006 14:08
Monday
I did it. I went walking today for an hour. I didn't want to, but I did. I'm glad I did go. Kinda in a foul mood today ( so I'm off to bed for now, hopefully when I get up tonight, I'll be in a better mood. I walked 3 miles.
01/09/2006 00:46
Thur and Fri
Went walking last week on Thursday for 1 hour (3 miles) on Friday i had a bad cramp in my leg and it was freezing out, so I went to the mall and waked around it a couple of times... was an easy walk due to leg cramp.... So hopefully this week i can get 3 miles a day 4 times :) I weighed myself tonight for the Big Loser Weight loss game on the Phen forums and I'm down to 305.6lbs.. a total of 3.6 lbs from last sunday and a total of 87.4lbs lost from start
01/05/2006 21:20
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to me. Today for my birthday I went walking, to the doctors office to weigh and see my mom. On the doctors scale, I've lost 83lbs and on mine here at home, I've lost 85.. Today's walk was not to fun though as it was 35 degress with a nasty wind from the north, about froze, but completed 3 miles :) Hopefully will be able to do another 3 miles Friday. Getting close to 300lbs. Tonight when I woke up, jumped on the scale and 306.... so close can't wait, will hopefully hit 300 next week and that will be a major mile stone as I can't remember ever weighing less than 300 except for back in high school and even then I was a big guy...
01/03/2006 18:27
Monday and Tuesday
Both Monday and Tuesday went walking 3 miles each day! I am wanting to get to 1 hour walking 5 days a week this year.. Not sure if going to start this week or maybe next month.. Depends. I walked for 1 hour both Monday and today and I'm pooped. I might do 4 times a week until Feb to get my body used to it and then try and increase my walking. I guess it depends on how I feel tomorrow. Stopped by the doctor's today to weigh and 83 lbs lost!
