today, as all free days are, was wonderful. i got to eat whatever i was craving with no guilt. =)
for breakfast i had 2 bowls of cereal.
lunch chicken parmesean with a side of fettucini alfredo and a few bites of lemon cake,
and for dinner a chicken sandwich with french fries
then me and some friends went to a coffeehouse and i had a few bites of chocolate cake and i got a vanilla chai
then i had a few bites of ice cream
its weird. when i'm not on free day i think "on free day i'll eat this and this and this" and even though i did eat way more than i normally do, i still stopped when i was full. i've learned that its NOT worth over eating just to taste some good food for a few seconds. i didn't finish anything i ordered....my stomach must be shrinking. (which is wonderful)
anyway i went to get new running shoes today...really needed them! i was starting to get turf toe from my others. i went to the store i went to last time to get the shoes. they watch you run and then put you in a few shoes that will work with your pronation and you can test different ones out. they also can put you on a treadmill and record your feet while you run and slow it down to show you where you're throwing your weight. pretty cool.
this is what i chose =) i love them.
so....i have been thinking about signing up for a half-marathon. it scares me to sign up and pay the deposit right NOW because i'm doing good to run 3 miles right now.. i know training will definitely be involved regardless but i'd like to be at a place where i'm running 3 miles consistently with no difficulty before i attempt training for a 13.1 mile run. anyway being a runner is something i've always wanted to do. and i do consider myself a runner....just not long distance yet.
i'm excited to get back on my normal eating plan. i didn't look forward to this free day as much as i have in the past...i think its because i feel like CRAP on free days from all the sugary junk. amazing to think that a lot of what i eat on free day is what i used to eat pretty much every day. just not all in one day....
okay. periods throw everything off. i hate them. i was planning on going running this morning. woke up and had started and now i'm cramping like crazy. i thanked God that i don't work fridays and i'm getting to lay on a heating pad and watch friends.
anyway, a friend and i had scheduled on like wednesday to have lunch at 1 today. some stuff came up and she had to eat before. the thing is that she didn't message me until 1215. i had already taken a shower and started getting ready so it was a little frustrating because i'm definitely not running after i've already gotten cleaned up for the day....
BUT i did make a healthy sandwich with applesauce on the side and water to drink which is much healthier than what i would have gotten if we had gone to eat. so i am thankful for that =)
if you guys like french toast you should try the body for life recipe. it really is good!
3 TBS vanilla protein powder
1/2 c egg substitute
1/4 tsp cinammon
2 pieces whole wheat bread
1/4 c sugar free syrup
fills ya up! i love the eating for life cook book.
now if i could just feel ok enough to get up and start some laundry.....soon, soon. =)
today went pretty well. i didn't cheat at all and i worked out upper body after work...hardly any water. i don't know what my deal is with that! i just don't like it....i know its important though and i should focus on drinking more of it.
okay...i'm so tired of some things in my life! i live with one of my best friends from high school and she has been on again off again with a guy for several years. i hear alllll about their problems and i just feel like she always has something negative to say...when she wasn't with him she was so happy and we had a great time just hanging out. the other day i had a bad day and she wasn't home so i told her i needed to talk and she said ok but didn't come home for 3 hours ( i was asleep when she got home). the next day she texted and asked what i wanted to talk about. its very frustrating to feel like you're just absorbing negativity and can't vent about anything in your own life....
also, i hate wondering if i'll ever get married. i dated a guy for about 2 years and ever since then i pretty much am guarded with every guy. i've dated several guys but i always find something wrong with them unless they break up with me first...if i knew for sure i'd get married i would be a lot more relaxed. i am 23 and although i don't think i'm the prettiest girl in the entire world i don't think i'm ugly. people (patients usually) always say "oh you'll definitely get married" "you're so pretty! i can't believe you're not married already" etc...and when they find out i'm not married its always the classic "oh don't worry...you still have time" so when do you suddenly not have time? there's always TIME i just don't want it to be when i'm 72 in a rocking chair.
i feel like i'm trying to give all my worries to God but am i REALLY? i feel like i used to have a lot more faith in Him. i definitely used to spend more time reading my Bible and praying...i don't know whats happened.
on a more positive note tomorrow is FRIDAY and i'm soo thankful. this week has gone by so fast and after tomorrow is saturday which equals free day...my favorite =)
I have been on Body for. Life for 7 weeks now. Overall its going REALLY well. i've lost probably 5 lbs or so? but i feel stronger and healthier. I just thought this would be a good way to keep track daily of progress and hopefully have some encouragement/advice along the way. =)
This morning I did interval running. from 4.1 to 6.1 and finishing up at 7.5 for one minute.
Overall i ate pretty well I think. I did have chips & cheesedip at lunch but i didn't finish my sandwich. i'm not saying that cancels it out at all i know i shouldn't have had the chips and cheesedip. Also i had some TCBY frozen yogurt with sugar free chocolate chips. My biggest struggle is with sweets. I need to save those all for free day. I also need to work on drinking more water. Honestly, i'm proud of myself for keeping up with the program for so long and not giving up.
I do wish I had someone to keep me accountable but I need to be accountable to myself. Just another person would really help..
ANYWAY i finally got my dvd player set up so i can watch FRIENDS! yay =)
well i don't have much time because i'm about to go back to work
just wanted to say i'm still doing good! i ran a mile last night...i could have gone longer but i REALLY had to pee haha...then i did eliptical for 20 minutes
its funny how things other people do can affect your day..but i'm working on not letting that happen!
i did soo good yesterday! i was proud. no cheating...and i did the eliptical for 20 minutes @ level 9 at an incline of 11 then did weights for about 15 minutes.
i am getting bummed because my running partner has a "guy friend" (i think he's probably more...) and is going running with him now...and i went with them once and just wasn't comfortable with him so now i've lost my running friend. i'm still going to the gym though and i ate pretty good today. i did have one cookie but not that big of a deal.
i've been pushing water. i do drink diet cokes some but definitely not as much as before and i drink water a LOT more than i used to.
some days i just want to move to a big city far away and start new. new friends, new job, new city...i think it'd be so fun. i've only been here a year so i will probably give it another year before i'd do that. plus, i'm not sure where i'd go.
well, my scale ran out of batteries...and i was surprisingly relieved! i concentrate too much on the NUMBER sometimes rather than how my clothes are fitting/inches. i mean, numbers are good to kind of see progress, but if you're gaining muscle, sometimes numbers aren't going to reflect progress accurately. (my friend stepped on my scale yesterday and asked if it was right. i said "i don't know...maybe a couple pounds heavy....i hope anyway!" and he said "..you think there's any way its like 23 pounds heavy?" haha)
anyway! it always amazes me how much periods can affect me. i just retain so much water and eat so much...and start freaking out because i've gained so much. then it all just comes off. i mean, i wish MORE would come off...but...at least i haven't gained what i thought.
today went pretty well. we did get chili's catered for lunch but i ordered the carribean salad (SOOO good) on romaine lettuce with fat free honey mustard. we also got cookies delivered and i did have most of one...but normally i probably would have had 2.
going to bootcamp @ the gym tonight! always kicks my butt
i've realized how much planning relates to success.
its easier to say no to a cookie when you've brought an option (even though that option might be a protein bar and totally NOT what you would prefer..)
and its also interesting to me how good it feels to eat healthy foods and NOT eat junky foods. not just the way your body feels but how you feel like a strong person. and it seems that saying no just a few times can make you say no later on because you've already put so much into it, so why screw it up?
its not that i think being thinner/toned will MAKE me happier. i do believe i will be more confident though. and that is a definite plus.
i always do better with losing weight when i have friends to motivate and encourage me...but the friends i have seem to stick with it for a while then drop off...and i honestly think i wouldn't if i had someone else to stick with it for more than oh...2 weeks?
which is why this website might be an amazing asset.
i just don't really know how to meet people on here...maybe that will be something i can work on. =)
after moving home and starting a new job and having a house with no internet....i kinda got off track with writing in here but it seemed to help before so i'm gonna try it again!
i started body for life and have noticed better muscle tone so i've actually GAINED a few pounds which is discouraging...
the most motivational thing happened to me last night. i tried on a bridesmaids dress that i'll be wearing at the end of next month...and it wouldn't zip all the way up!! soo scary. i am about to start my period and my boobs always swell up a LOT...but i know i've gotta lose weight. i'm tired of just wishing i'd stick with it.
i'm back!! i've been really busy over the last month. i turned 22 and graduated college! it was just too much to try to keep up with this. i've maintained my weight if not lost a pound or 2. i'm not really sure but i will be keeping up with this more consistently for sure!
this is what i chose =) i love them. 