should I give up or should I keep chasing pavement

omg this is hard. The cafteria has nothing healthy! and im getting sick of just hitting up the salad bar! yesturday they had a horrible dinner so I went up to my room and had a healthy choice tv dinner called cafe steamer. I hope it was ok. it was 250 cal. However last night I had rice cakes with reduced fat PB and a banana. Thats not that bad right?

ive just been soo busy trainning mon-fri 8am to about 9pm that i havent had time to work out and im stressing over my weight and not the job which i should be. errr. I havent even had time to like sit down and count calories. I dunno what to do! I need help!!!

Cant wish away....but you can pray

Good morning friends. Sorry its been so long. But I finally moved back and starting trainning with my job. Well its hot as H-E- double hockey sticks here and that has put a hold on the working out. Also Iam just way to busy with trainning and everything. Last night was my first night in the cafeteria. Well I decided to go with a salad, with beans on it, and carrots and some zucinni on the side. Since the main meal was burritos. Ya no. I thought I did good until I realized there was no fat free dressing. So i did my best and  put as little Italian as I could. Later i got hungry soooo I had some raw nut mix, grapes, and a pear. I hope that was ok and Imsure it was. They had a Bday party last night and had all this stuff....I didnt touch the cake and was proud of myself.

I have a scale here but its not that good, and honestly I dont really wanna get on until I get settled into my new place and begin working out again. So we shall see, now i gotta go run errands.

And I just dont know.........????

Well I weighed myself yet agian this morning....I evny those of you who weigh only once a week, I cant do that. .....130.3...so I reached my mini goal of weighing 130 before thursday. Thank goodness. However now Im even extra nervous. Ill be moving in and starting trainning soon, cafeteria food. I dont know how Iam going to be able to do this! In the cafeteria theres french fries, hamburgers, pizza, and who else knows. Im so nervous temptation will hit. And its not like I cant eat, dinner I eat there too, and I HAVE to eat. How am I going to make a good choice when I look over and all my friends are eating that. And on top of that I have no idea how the "good" stuff like chicken or whatever is going to be prepared. There could be tons of Sodium in whatever sauce or anything and its not like I can wash it off.

Im so incredably nervous. Its not fair!. Tommrow I move in and am leaving at 5am. Then out to dinner, then the next morning breakfast. Why cant students my age eat what I do! ERRRRRRR. Im trying and suceeding and I dont want this to ruin me. Im finally at 130 and I want to keep loosing. But with trainning, work, school,new boyfriend, how am I going to excersise???

Any tips from busy working women?? How do you guys do it with kids and work and finding time to eat well and work out. Im only 20 yrs old and feel like one of you lol. Im so scared for this year, not about class but about my weight. I feel like the anxiety is coming back all over again

shall it stay? or am I doomed!!!!

So woke up this morning, not wanting to go to work at all. After dragging my butt outta bed I finally got up and got going. Then the question, to weigh myself or not. After finally deciding to, I got on. 131.3.....finally...thats all i could say. It feels like forever since I got out of the 32's. As you can tell I was getting very annoyed. If I can loose 1.3 by thursday morning it would be my goal, to be at 130 by the time I go back to school.

Alot of people have been wondering why Im trying to loose weight, saying Im in a "healthy" weight range. To me thats just not true. I have been as low as 124 before and if I dont see myself near there, I consider myself over weight. Iam a very emotional person when it comes to my weight. I was overweight all of middle school and part highschool. I lost 30 lbs in school with WW then it creeped up back at college. I worry constantly about what I put in my mouth, so much its driven me to anxiety attacks and now medication.

The werid thing is I duno if I lost cause my period is finally over, or if its cause I got so frustrated I cut calories alittle more. hmmm...not sure. Been working out for an hour. Watched the news last night and it said that a new study shows women who wanna loose weight need to work out for 55 mins. Well I do and hour everyday at the gym. Hopefully I can keep that up with school and my job. Doubt it but any kind of excersise will help. Im o nervous, not about the new job, but about the new cafeteria food

About to just break down

Up .7. I just dont understand. I worked out for over an hour, had more than 1000 cal like everyone mentioned and I went up. Im stuck on 132 and can seem to move from it! I wanted to be at 130 by the time I went back on thursday. Looks like thats not going to happen.

Im getting so unbeleivably frustrated with this. Why all of a sudden has the Phen just stoped doing its job? What am I supposed to do? work out more? work out less? eat more? eat less? I dont get it! why is this so hard! Ive given up so much, soda, bad carbs, Im making a change but my body wont budge!

AH!!!!!

Only down point 3 today! why why why? well i didnt get  to work our yesturday...only for 30 mins, but I did good eating! had dinner and later some fruit and yogurt. I just dont understand why Im not loosing as much as before. Today I'll do my big work out at the gym....1 hour. But Im nervous tonight we are having enchiladas. I make it with turkey meat but nervous about the calories in the tortillas and all.

I just wanna be at 130!!!

why is this so hard? why why why!!!!

Iam so Unbelieveably frustrated! Yesturday went out to lunch with mom, had a salad with my own fat free dressing. Then didnt eat again till like 5 hours later. I think thats where I went wrong cause after dinner I was still way hungry. So i made the right decsions on fruit, salt-free nuts and some yogurt. And for once like my mom and people have been telling me I had more than 1000 cal. Well i gained 1.3!!! Im so mad, and upset I just broke down.

Why is this so hard for me? How is it that girls can literally eat whatever they want and still look tiny! I want to be happy with myself, i want to put something on in the morning and feel happy and beautiful in it, I can honestly say I hate the way I look and I thought these pills were supposed to help with my freak outs

. I finally got down to 131 and then get back up again. On top pf that I wont be able to work out today cause of work. If I cant eat around 1000 cal without gainning weight how am I supposed to be able to get back at school? I want to be 120 so freakin bad but just seem to cant get there. Today Im not eatting bread and guna stay under 100.  

Good morning starshine

Good morning my fellow dieters.....

Todays my day off (Nanny) and I thought I would sleep in. Well I forgot to UN-set my alarm and I was awaken around 9:30. So since I was already pretty much awake I decided to just get up and go to the gym early for once. Usual I go after work around 6/7 but today I went right when I got up and would take my Phen after, hope thats ok.  Worked out for an hour and burned 500 cal. It felt pretty good.

Weighed in at 131.4! pretty good. I hope to be under 130 by the end of the weekend! and Im still on my period too which is good. (about the weight not being cranky ha) Today mom and I are going to Applbees and Im getting the Weight Watchers Salad thats only 250 cal and and a side of steamed broccali! For breakfast I decided to treat myself and had a light wheat english muffin  it was only 100 cal but I hope it doesnt mess me up cause that was the first bread Ive had in over a week,.

Im getting nervous about going back to school and back to the caferteria food in the dorms. AHHH I dont wanna gain anything back and its going to suck cause I wont be making my own food. Im super nervous. ANd I wont have my gym either. So ill have to start running....which I hate...but I gotta do.

Well good luck to everyone out there. You can do. ANyone have any good recipes I can steal? something sweet and low cal is aways nice

Reese99

Hold your head high, heavy heart

So I woke up with my monthly suprise this morning. After contemplating whether to weigh myself or not, I said what the hell and did anyways.

132.7! wow I was shocked. Even though its only .3 down its still a loss and I usually weigh heavyer when Im on my period. So Im really really hoping that I can loose 2 pounds this weekend. Once I hit around 127ish or whatever I think Im only guna start taking a half of the Phen. Does that sound ok? I dont really know much about stopping the pill, any help? 

Im still eating under 1000 cal and dont know how to change it. Last night I did a hour of cardio at the gym and burned a good 500 cal. Then for dessert I have a huge bowl of watermelon so that bumped me up to 1000 cal. So i guess thats good. I think each day Im slowly going to add in more food. Today Im only guna do one carb-my corn at dinner. And tommro have 2. Everyother day Im going to allow myself to have bread.

Then tommrow I think Im guna have alittle more protein. Im counting calories while still doing my LA weightloss as well but only have 2 servings of protein...I think I need more, as well as dairy.

Today for work im taking the kids to the pool. Being a nanny can be hard, esp with all the junk food they keep in the house but i do my best. So to get in a swim suit or not, that is the question.

Hope everyone has a good day and keep up the good work. The struggle to become happy with yourself is a hard one, keep your head up high, you can do it.

Reese99 xoxox

Enjoy being a girl?

So I woke up this morning with food on my mind. No because I was hungry, but because I dont know what to eat! The past days Ive been eating the same veggies and no carbs. So this week Im slowly going to add in bread/carbs but good ones and only one serving. But i need ideas of what to eat. Any suggestions?

I weighed in this morning at 133. Down .8, not much but i guess something. Im nervouse about going back to school in 2 weeks. We all know college food isnt the best so I wanted to loose as much as I could.

I skipped the gym yesturday because I was just to tired after work. But today Im going to go for my hour of cardio and tommrow do weights. My period is going to start wed/thur so I hope to see a bigger loss after that. Sometimes being a women can suck.

I need to get some new jeans for school but the only size that fits right now are my 8s. My 6s are to tight and that makes me soooo mad! I wanna loose 3 pounds by this weekend? Any help on how to speed it up?

Have  a great day friends