I have got to get rid of the easy meals that are loaded with calories. I did great all day had nice breakfast small snack lite lunch small snack was to tired to cook so we had a plate of easy to fix nachos. Not good at all loaded with calories.Portion control went out the window . Tomorrow while I am in a good state of mind (always in morning) I will be cleaning cabinets.

I just got home its nighttime and I am blogging to keep the voices away. I going to try real hard to start listening to my skinny self somewhere buried in years and years of silence the depth of which I can't even comprehend. Tomorrow I start walking and tomorrow I start planning what I eat well before I eat it.

My dream has become a nightmare. It happens every night. I will be sitting there minding my own business when the voices start. Its the same thing everynight. Night after night. First it is a faint inaudible sound then the sound increases to the point of distraction calling me to the kitchen the cabinets the refrigerator.I look and look listening to the voices trying to shut them out. With my mouth wide open I put the voices in and its quiet for a time then they start again over and over throughout the night till I am to tired to hear the voices Then I sleep a restless sleep to tired to work the next morning. They say that if you hear voices your crazy. I don't want to be crazy any longer I want to be NORMAL I want this nightmare to end.