Had a small scare at the doctor's office this morning--which, in retrospect, is kind of funny...
I had to make a quick run in for an appt. (GIRL issues) and, as they always do, they weighed me at the beginning of my appointment.
Imagine my shock when (even with my shoes off) their scale read 205.1, when my scale at home had told me I was at 201.4 this morning. (Uhm, oh yeah, BTW: Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
So, now I'm sitting in the room, waiting for the doctor to come in and completely stewing over the difference. I mean, a pound or two, okay; but four pounds?!?!?!
And then, like a sudden ray of sunshine through the clouds, a mental break-through: DUH!!! Your clothes added two pounds, silly. You noticed it yourself when you got dressed!!! <sheepish grin>
Still not thrilled that their scale had me up two pounds over what mine says, but it's certainly better than the four pound difference that had nearly sent me over the edge a moment before! :-)
Wow. Who knew that I would actually be happy to see the scale read in the 202s??? (Like so many others, I really can't wait until I *leave* the 200s altogether!)
Of course, considering that my TOM is due early next week, it may take a little longer than I'd like to accomplish that.
Also very happy that I managed to take a walk yesterday evening. Did a circuit of my neighborhood which, alas, took significantly less time than I thought it would (only 15 minutes). Guess I'll eventually either need to add another loop, or come back in and do some time on my lonely recumbent bike.
But, hey! At least I got those 15 minutes in. Something to build on...
So, for whatever reason I'm finding it really difficult to think in terms of setting mini-goals--ones to help me along the way to my overall weight loss goal.
I mean, I have a "College Housemate Reunion" coming up at the end of February, and *certainly* I want to have a bunch of this weight off by then but, basically, I guess I'm just happy to lose whatever is possible by then, in a healthy way, as opposed to setting any kind of deadline I might not make and then being completely unhappy with myself about it.
Similarly, I've read--in various and sundry places--that, as you meet various milestones, you should treat yourself to little rewards (some people buy new, smaller articles of clothing; one woman bought herself a charm bracelet and is adding a new charm for every 5 pounds she loses); but, for whatever reason, I'm finding it difficult to come up with anything I'd want to reward myself with. Now, really, should that really be so hard??? To come up with something I'd like to buy myself? I do it all the time in my birthday month. (Yes, you read that right: my birthday month!) Maybe that's my problem... I spent most of September buying myself stuff, so--at the moment--there's nothing left that I want.)
In any case, what I actually find myself thinking is more in terms of the things I'm looking forward to, like:
·Having some of my current clothes fit a bit more loosely.
·Being able to wear the birthday ring I bought for myself in 2006--which stopped fitting after I'd put on an additional 15 pounds.
·Having my boobs shrink back down somewhat (it seems like ¼ of my added weight went there! Ugh!).
·Being able to fit back into a Size 12 (who knew that that would make me happy?) and, eventually, a Size 10.
·Being able to wear some of the Size 10 pants/capris I've kept in my closet for 5 years(!).
So, those are my things to look forward to. Now I just have to work to make it happen!
Yay! In my first week of dieting I've dropped 3.5 pounds!
Now, I recognize that most of that is probably a drop in water weight, since I've been eating more fiber and roughage, and drinking even more water than I did before.
But, still!
I'm keeping a copy of the JC Planned Menu posted on my fridge as a guide to what I should be eating (and NOT eating) each day--especially helpful for getting in all my milk/dairy servings, as I've never been a huge milk drinker. OTOH, rediscovering a liking for yogurt.
I really feel like that's been helpful, having that menu up there as my guide. Plus, with as many 'snacks' as is built into the schedule, I never seem to feel super hungry or over-full.
As I mentioned in my first post, my other thing right now is to track how many steps I take each day and to work to increase that number. Started wearing a pedometer last Thursday and was shocked by the initial results. MUCH lower, currently, than I would have thought. BUT, at least it shows me the degree to which I need to improve in that area.
A shout-out to the first couple commenters in my new journal. Thanks for the encouragement and for stopping by to say 'hi'!
Ironic that, considering I don't even like "Star Wars", a Yoda line would end up becoming my daily motivational phrase: "Do or Not Do. There is no 'try'." Well, I suppose it actually ends up being ironic in an Alannis Morrissette kind of way.
I read another phrase recently that I liked too: "Don't lose faith. Just lose weight."
It's really time.
I've had so many starts and stops. So many times that I said, "Okay, this will be the week I get started", and I just never did.
I promised myself that if I ever hit 200 lbs. I would get serious. And I didn't.
Even when I finally had to break down and buy some clothes in Size 14 (a fact I consider completely unacceptable), I didn't get started.
Not sure what has me finally getting my rear in gear. I guess all those unacceptables kept adding up to the point that I'm finally realizing I can't keep putting it off. (Well, that and I don't want to end up with 'cankles'.)
I seriously investigated joining Jenny Craig (I felt like I could really use the structure and accountability), but when I re-examined my finances, I just didn't see a way to make that happen at this point.
So, I figure I'll re-create the program as best I can on my own: Lots more vegetables, fruit, and milk servings than I have *ever* consumed on a daily basis before; limit my calories; and start setting some goals in terms of increasing the daily number of steps I take (serious improvement needed on this), as well as adding in toning and other exercise.
Right now, I'll focus on the food and steps part. I figure I can look to add in the additional exercise in the not-too-distant future.
So, goals: I want to make it back to a Size 10. I did it once before when I did the Weight Watchers Online thing, and I'm determined to do it again. If I get any further down, that'd be gravy.
Weight-wise, I'd like to get down to the low 140s. 146 would be okay, but no higher.Once I make it to that weight-level, I can re-evaluate and see whether I want to work to go any lower.
Okay. There. Gauntlet thrown down. Time to meet the challenge.
