A new start.. Again...lol (how many times have we said this)

So since my last blog I have refused to weigh myself and I am Re-starting my weghtloss battle and diet. I Will not weigh myself for 2 weeks of strict dieting, because honestly I am afraid of what the number on the scale will say. And I think that will depress me more than it did the other day when i put on a pair of my jeans and my belly was hanging over them A Lot more than it used to. So To save my own sanity, I just wont do it to myself. If I am going to be set and determined I have to "Feel" the weightloss in my clothes and in my movement.

I am trying a dose of h57 (hoodia and green tea extracts) with an 8  ounce glass of water in the morning and then a nother dose after work before dinner.. I do have a huge appetite.. but my main goal is to cut all carbs for at least 3 months (with the option of 20 grams a day)

If I did it for 2 years, why is it so hard now? What was that determination i had then, that i somehow lost? Actually, I started my diet when i met my ex fiance and ended it pretty much a month after he left me.. but now as i have mentioned before, i am about to hit my one year anniversary with the greatest man a live.. and he makes me feel beautiful and wanted every day of my life.. its me that hates me.

I found that this kind of support network was very needed last time, and i think i hide from it when i am failing.. which is probably why i havent logged in for so long, maybe because i KNow i dont weigh 244 anymore.. i am guessing i am at 260 or 255, I just feel it, and see the changes in my stomach.. luckily my gace hasnt changed much.. so i still retained Some of the weight loss i made 2 yrs ago.

Anyone else here on low carb? I am thinking about starting my morning off with some eggs and shredded cheese. Id love to meet other low/no carbers!