Argh!

Where is the point we lose control? Why do we have to fight every day in order to lose weight when so many out there are able to eat whatever they want? I am so tired of being fat.. it is all i can think about when i am not hungry, and when i am hungry i just think about how good it feels to eat. Then i feel fat and guilty after eating.. no matter what it is.

Sure i did the whole endulgance thing during the holidays.. but the holidays are over and i still find myself Wanting all the Bad stuff. Last night I wrote the word FAT on my arm.. hoping that everytime i want to eat i will see it and think before i eat.. but I am kidding myself.. Nothing is working.. A few years back I had all the determination in the world, but now i find myself needlessly gaining weight and not wanting to exit in this body anymore..

hey now

don't beat yourself up so much. Maybe try making one small goal every day. Or joining a group like WW for the support network they provide. You can do this!

Here's my theory

If you weren't determined to lose the weight you would not be here blogging about it!! You have the motivation inside you, we all do!!

Its not fair

That some people never have to struggle with weight.  I also think to myself that I wish everyone knew how it felt to have to live your life trying to lose weight and watch what you eat.  In the end though, we are bound to be stronger because we are not going to let it beat us!

be serene

be serene dear , you seem to be so sweet ...don't  punish yourself ,  I've only losen some weight when I calmed myself, I remember I began with writing my daily weight  all the mornings on a wall caledar, I put it on the kitchen's door, always I could see it, and, important, I wrote my weight everyday, but I was no more angry with myself, if I'd eaten I wrote the increase the morning after, if when I had losing something in weight  I was happy, if I had some kilos more I cuddled myself, I only thought like Rossella O'Hara in Gone with the wind : <...tomorrow is another day>