Im Scared..
Damn the weekend and Damn Boyfriends..
In 5 days I rapidly lost 5 lbs on my atkins/low carb regimen.. I have noticed above all how my eating habits have immensely changed..
One I do not eat nearly as much anymore.. I found myself last night sitting with a subway salad... Bored and not really interested to eat it fast but i enjoyed it slowly over about 30 mins time..
Two, I went grocery shopping today and did not buy anything for myself outside of my diet..but i did buy a few things to spice mine up such as frozen already cooked roast beef and chicken and also about 6 lbs total of fresh ground turkey.. which i like to eat cooked up either plain with cheese and a small amount of ranch dressing or throw it in a salad..
Now what i am scared about.. gah i know this is going to sound stupid but, My boyfriend and i went out to eat tonight.. at an italian restraunt.. i was very proud i did not touch the bread, i ordered the salad, and the antipasto appetizer.. my meal dish..stuffed round steak.. stuffed with breading and cheese, topped with a thin marinera sauce..
So the breading inside the stuffing has got me worried that maybe i screwed up on my Low carb Diet..
Although in the past I have had my days at the chinese buffet (on my diet still) where i would avoid all pastas, rices and sugars, but i would have the chicken and pork with breading and i never gained weight from those days.. so i am keeping my fingers crossed.
My boyfriend has also stepped up to help me watch the fat intake i am taking in aside from my carbs.. he promised to help me and I stopped taking it personal and started accepting the fact that it is pretty damn cool that he wants to be involved.. although he jokingly said he has set my goal weight to 150 (before i finally revealed my weight to the first BF EVER) then he proceeded to tell me that if i stayed the way i am now, he would still love me forever, but the reason he is encouraging me is for my health.. not just physical but mental health, because he has seen how my weight mentally takes a toll on me.. he said he wants me to get better.. and so do i!!
So my first goal is the 25lbs by xmas.. but ultimately id like to get about 50 lbs off and go from there... last time i got stuck at 220.. but i refused to exercise like a fool.. so this time when i finally hit 220 i am going to start working out and get my butt down to 200 and like i said.... Take it from there.
This blogging really really has helped me.. even if no one is reading.. i like the fact that i have a friend to turn to.. and getting these thoughts out of my mind and into reality helps me also get my weight loss PLAN out of my mind... And Into REALITY!!
So far so Good so it seems
Although my friend called me today and said guess what i am on a new diet, i was like WHOA so am i.. and i asked how long and she said 4 days. I was like oh wow, i have been on mine for 5 days. She said she lost 11 lbs and i was like WTF??
She said she is eating one bowl of sooup a day and chewing a lot of gum.. well i for one know that depriving yourself of meals is Dangerous.. and not having variety is Also dangerous.. it spells Potential Failure to me.. So I am not going to get Too jealous. Because I have known her for about 12 years now and her little diet kicks last At most a month lol! Damnit I should be more supportive.