Feeling really good...again..

I'm so tired of the peaks and valleys in this weight loss journey. Like the title of my page...I want to live the life I'm supposed to! I want to quit spinning my wheels once and for all, get to goal, get my lifetime, and go from there.

I had a good day yesterday and feel back on track again. I've got so used to my weight sometimes I think "this is as good as its going to get". I have so many goals that I truly want to achieve though, my attitude is self-defeating. I want to be through with "bad" days and have a lifetime of "good" days. Its so funny that some days food has no power over me and I have no problem making the right decisions.

I need to keep praying for strength. One blogger mentioned that God had healed her from the need to overeat. I need to pray for that too.

No sugar today!

I made it through the whole day without sugar and I feel really good. I watched the Oprah show with Dr. Oz yesterday. I also really looked at some food labels today. Some girls on the WW boards mentioned the show and talked about how in reality his way of thinking is a whole lot like the Core plan....

I did the Core plan when it first came out. I really like the idea of it, but sometimes the processed WW and Lean Cuisine meals come in handy when you don't want to cook but you want to eat a healthy, in-proportion meal.

Its supposed to be different

I started this blog with all the best intentions--it was started with the intention of putting my true feelings on. Instead I have this overwhelming feeling that I HAVE to be the perfect WW'er, the cheerleader for everyone, I HAVE to have perfect days or I might as well delete the whole thing. I don't know why I have this all or nothing mentality.

I read about everyone's successes and wonder, "why can't that be me?" "Why do I have to struggle all the time?" "What is this need I have to overeat?"

I watched Oprah yesterday with Dr. Oz about a woman that was literally changed due to what she ate. She turned it around in 90 days and had lost 30 lbs. The transformation was amazing. You are what you eat!

I feel like I have got far too comfortable with myself at 190 lbs. I've been this weight for 3.5 years. I hit me this morning that although I have very high self esteem, I have got to do some fine tuning and get to the weight God wants me to be so I can be the healthiest person I can.

Mediocre weekend

Although it wasn't as good as I intended, it wasn't as horrible as it could have been. I ate some regular Doritos and a few poptarts, but when I took the girls to McDonalds I had the salad. At weak moments its hard for me to resist particular foods if they're in the house.

Thankfully I do better during the week than on the weekends. I've got a very busy day today. Oldest DD has a test at the doctor's on her kidneys--she was hospitalized a few months ago with a horrible infection and they want to do this test to see what's going on. Then youngest DD has a t-ball game this evening.

Plus, I have a mountain of clean clothes to put up in my bedroom. Don't you just hate laundry? I don't mind washing--its the putting up I hate.

Weigh-In Day--I lost 3 lbs. this week despite the pizza!

Well, since I joined this site last weekend I've lost 3 lbs. despite the run-in I had on Tues. with the Pizza Hut buffet. I'm very happy! All I have to do is keep my eye on the goal and remember to treat my body the way I should by staying within my points and exercising.

Getting ready to exercise--today is cardio day! I love to get a high calorie burn--makes me feel like I've actually accomplished something.

Can't believe

I can't believe how much support there is on this board. This is the first week on this site and I've already met so many wonderful women that I've already added to my friends' list. I can't wait to see their progress and share mine as well....

Today has been a great day, stayed OP and got some exercise in this morning. Gotta get up early exercise again, youngest DD has a t-ball game at 9 a.m. in the morning.

A wonderful morning!

I'm up enjoying the time to myself, drinking my coffee, reading blogs, and wondering what the day will have in store for me. I'm going to exercise in about 30 minutes. I took my DD's to the high school track about 6 p.m. yesterday and we walked 3 miles. I couldn't believe they kept up with me. We had the best time. I was looking forward to taking my Ipod, going by myself and just zoning out. But they wanted to go, so how could I refuse? I'm glad they went. I'm always worrying about setting an example for them and wonder if they will have the weight struggles that I've always had. It was such a beautiful day here in Tennessee, it was nice to enjoy God's beautiful scenery and weather.

Today's workout is going to be The Firm Super Sculpting. I've got so many exercise dvds that I've accumulated over the years that I usually do whatever I feel like-no set rotation. I do try to vary between cardio days and sculpting days.

Mmmm....my coffee's good this morning.

Feeling strong today

Don't you just love those days when you feel like nothing could possibly stop you from having weight-loss success? I'm having one of those days. My boss took me out for lunch and we had salad, baked potato and grilled chicken. I was completely full and didn't even want anything sweet. I felt totally in control. I'm usually already thinking about food at this time of the day too, and today its like the thought of food has little importance.

I did an exercise dvd this morning and I think that helped my frame of mind. If I'm "good" I'm really really good....LOL and when I'm bad....I'm horrid, as the children's limmerick says.

Getting ready to workout

I'm up having coffee and I've got Jillian Michaels' Shape Up Front in the dvd player. I won it from ebay about a week ago and haven't used it yet. I previewed it and it looks great. She gets on my nerves some, but I can push past that.

I still feel "heavy" from the pizza Tues. night and don't want to weigh. I know it would be over 190 again and I don't want to be depressed about it. I'll continue to stay on plan and weigh in Sat. morning as scheduled. Yesterday I had an OP day.

We took the girls to school last night to hear a motivational speaker talk about good choices (concerning drugs, self-esteem, etc.). It was amazing how his presentation was about making good choices instead of bad choices. This adult was helped by it as well.

Today I'm making good choices!!

Life after the pizza!

Today I've not even been hungry, wonder why....too many calories yesterday. I've really been drinking the water too to offset the sodium. I only had an apple for breakfast, and a WW dinner (roasted potatoes w/cheese and broccoli-4 pts.) for lunch. After work I had time to FINALLY get in the tanning bed for the first time for 10 min. Made another appt. for tomorrow. I don't want to be really brown, just tan enough where I don't have to wear pantyhose in the summer with my dresses to church.