I look at the rest of my weight as a hindrence that I have to get rid of. No more struggling, its just a matter of time before it comes off. Every day goes my and I plan exactly what I'm going to eat and in what portions. Sweets and sugary treats don't tempt me, I look at them and look at myself and realize that sugar is the foe that's kept me from my goals. It took a long time to realize it, but I finally have seen it for what it is.
I am having trouble sticking to a exercise routine. This is nothing unusual for me. I have highs and lows with exercise. When I do follow through with exercise I feel great. Its just a matter of time before I hit another high.
Watched "The Notebook" last night for the first time. Couldn't believe the emotional impact. Surprisingly DH watched with me. I hadn't saw him cry since my Dad passed away. I felt so close to him. He held me all night telling me how much he loved me. It was amazing. The movie showed me that life is too short not to live it to your fullest. I'm so thankful that I'm sharing my life with my soulmate and best friend. Some people never have that in their lives.
I'm in the frame of mind now that I can't believe how I allowed myself to struggle with the rest of this weight. I don't know how it happened but I got the kick in the pants that I needed! I feel different...I feel powerful, positive, and best of all...in-control.
Last night after getting home from evening service at church, it was late (about 9:00 p.m.), we had stopped at my MIL's to drop off her Mother's Day gift. I had only eaten 14 points throughout the day and wasn't hungry at all. I grabbed some baked Lay's and ate some and then a cheese-stick. To get a few more points in, I ate some almonds. It was like it was a struggle to make myself eat. Before I would have whined that I could never stick with 24 pts., it wasn't enough!
After struggling so long, I wonder if God has given me the strength to accomplish this or...have I finally been obedient and He had answered this prayer for me a long time ago. Either way, it feels wonderful not to be under the bondage of overeating.
I couldn't hardly wait to weigh in this morning. I knew I had a good loss because I cheated and weighed yesterday! Another 3 lb. loss! I can't believe it! Its like my body doesn't want to be this heavy anymore.
I had got down to 172 right before my Dad died two years ago, but gained back about 20 lbs. and was had hovered at 190 for 3.5 years. I've finally got sick of "spinning my wheels" and decided to stop the self-sabotage and now I'm ready to get to goal!
Can't Describe How Good It Feels to Have My Groove Back!
I've not been OP this many days in a row since 2002! I've amazed myself that I've finally buckled down and accomplished some goals that I've set for myself. I'm not even tempted to overeat anymore. I'm planning exactly what I'm going to eat, how much I'm going to eat and my workouts that I'm going to do. I feel perfectly in control.
Motivation comes naturally to those who are consistent!! The being consistent is the tough part--not the motivation.
I'm really feeling like I'm in a good groove now with weight loss. I'm planning, exercising and best of all NOT making excuses why I can't lose more weight and get to my goal.
Before this current attempt, I've hovered around the 190 mark for three and a half years. I ate some good food during that time, but definitely not worth giving up my goals for. Now I feel it was all for nothing. I want to maintain at about 160 lbs. which is perfectly doable, I've just got to want to DO it, which I do now.
There were times in the past 3.5 years that I felt like I might as well accept that I'm going to be 190 or even gain some of the weight I had lost back. I did really well during the week and then when the weekends came, I started making excuses. In my opinion when you start making excuses due to events, holidays, parties, etc. you're in BIG trouble. No event is worth giving up your goals for. There are ways to plan around them if you set your mind to do so. Nothing is going to stop me-my goals are finally taking precedence over gluttony.
Its just a matter of time now before I get to my goal now...not if.
It sure feels good to know you're going to stay in control. No matter what life throws at me I can handle it, with God's strength of course. When things get rough for me, all I have to do is lean on Him.
I feel completely satisfied with my daily points. I'm not snacking in-between meals and drinking lots of water.
I've realized over my weight loss journey that I eat when I'm *happy *sad *bored *stressed *completely satisfied *and any other time I can think of. I've psychoanalyzed myself and I really believe I just like food and like to eat. Its not my mother's fault, or heredity's fault. Yes, I developed bad habits in addition to my fondness for food such as not being active, eating high fat and sugary food, and ate larger portions than I should. After a lifetime of eating, its definitely hard to change those habits, but not impossible.
I want to be one of those *results not typical* people!
I just realized when I was taking my daily vitamin this morning...since I've been off of sugar I've not taken anything for a headache. Now, usually I take something for a slight headache every other day or so and I rotate between Tylenol, Motrin or aspirin. Do you think maybe sugar had been causing my headaches? If not, the coincidence is amazing.
I didn't get up to workout this morning...which means I'll have to forego my after-church nap this evening and do something. I really need to get a good cardio workout in. I may go for a walk at the school track while DH and DDs are napping.
Woke up very early (hubby had to work, so I got up) and had my weigh-in. OMG--I'm 185.4! I lost 3.6 lbs. this week. Unbelievable! Sure wish I could consistently lose 3 lbs. every week. Getting off of sugar has really kicked it in high gear for me. If I have to give up sugar to get to my goal I definitely will! I've also cut my processed carbs this week too.
I'm going to have some more coffee and then exercise, probably a Turbo Jam Cardio Party. Then I've GOT to mop my kitchen floor.
I've read a lot of good blogs this morning, very inspiring. So glad I found this site!
Even though my weekend was kind of crappy and my official WI isn't until tomorrow I decided to hop on the scale this morning "just to see". I was surprised to see that I was down 1.4 lbs. Maybe getting off of sugar had something to do with it.
I'm now needing to lose LESS than 30 lbs. to get to my goal. It really is unbelievable. I really feel as though I can achieve everything I want in life. You hear people say, "I'll do ANYTHING to be thin!" Well if that was true they would. You've got to put up or shut up in my opinion. Don't let the food conquer your dreams. Permanent weight loss or "results not typical" is achievable and, I'm going to prove it!!
Yesterday was day #3 without ANY sugar and I'm feeling pretty good and the cravings are already gone. I went grocery shopping after work and when my DD wanted McDonalds I didn't even get anything. Now, McDonalds doesn't tempt me because I would rather have one of their salads or a grilled chicken sandwich anyway. But, I didn't get anything. I didn't eat anything until about 7:30 p.m. which for me is unheard of!
I really read labels while shopping and couldn't believe the cereal that I allow my children to eat. I'm actually buying sugar in a box! I was horrified. They love boiled eggs, toast, milk & juice--I'm going to have to push that stuff more. They only eat breakfast here at home on the weekends so it wouldn't be hard.
Yesterday was the 2-year anniversary of my Dad's death and it was pretty emotional for me. I took time to remember some special memories, cried a little and felt better after remembering the positives. Sometimes I unconsciously pick up the phone to call him and realize I can't--that's the worst. I saw a display of Father's Day cards out at the Dollar Store, browsed through a couple and the harsh reality of him being gone finally hit me.
