Didn't realize it had been so long since I posted. I've shaken things up some realizing that I'm going to have to change my thinking from "temporary" good eating to lifetime good eating and good habits. I watched Dr. Oz on Oprah and on the Discovery Health special and have ordered his new book. I really think with a combination of his way of eating and WW's Core program can lead to a lifetime of healthy eating. Can't wait to get the book!
While grocery shopping the other day, nothing went in my cart that the first 4 ingredients were (sugar, hydrogenated fat, enriched flour or high fructose corn syrup). Also Dr. Oz commented not to buy anything that per serving has over 4g of sat. fat or 4g of sugar. Reading the labels really made me realize how much junk is in the processed foods.
I'm going to focus on more fruits, vegetables, whole grains, lean meats, and fat free dairy choices. I did Core when it first came out on WW and really felt good. I was disappointed that I didn't lose weight "fast enough" and after 4-5 months switched back to flex. I really did feel great when I did core. Cutting out sugars is really priority to me anyway with type 2 diabetes on both sides of my family. You have to think about these things when you get to the ripe old agea of 37! LOL
I'm back in my morning exercise routine and its really motivating me to be better about my eating. Seems like its helping my mood and attitude too. And this has been my TOM week, so its great. I took yesterday off of work, had to take DDs and myself to the eye dr. I tried to take a nap yesterday, it was raining and couldn't. I had too much energy!
The past few days I've been thinking about how our attitudes really affect our progress. There are some negative people in my life that I give advice to that just don't see it. I know one girl told me that she was going to buy some full length mirrors and put up in her house so she could always see how fat she was. She thought that would help motivate herself, to always berrate her appearance. I believe women need to empower theirselves more. When I set my mind to something, there's no stopping me!
Last night was a great night. My girls stayed all night with their Granny and DH and I were home alone after work. Don't get me wrong I missed them, but I actually had time to watch some TV and look through catalogs. I love fall clothes..the boots, the suedes, sweaters, etc. I especially love the nailhead boots, I even found some in the JCP catalog for $39 I may treat myself with. Ultimately I would love to wear the contoured button up shirts (tucked in) with zip skirts (no elastic!) I thought about picking out an outfit maybe a size smaller than I am right now to use to motivate me to get down to my goal. Then I can always buy a new outfit in a smaller size.
I get so tired of trying to hide or camouflage my belly, my bra overhang, etc. I find myself reaching for jeans and skirts that are "too" comfortable. I have so many beautiful clothes in smaller sizes that I bought when I was about 170 lbs. I would have a whole new wardrobe if I only lost 20 lbs. and truthfully wouldn't have to buy much. 20 lbs. sounds like such a huge number though. People tell me all the time it shouldn't be hard for me because of what I've already lost. Let me tell you, the last 20-30 lbs. is definitely the hardest...that's why its been a battle of the mind for the past four years for me. I resent that I'll always have to watch what I eat, feel deprived and it will lead to a couple of days of bingeing. Instead of embracing the principles of WW, I revolt. Definitely got more to work on!
Time to exercise...today's Turbo Jam after about a 10 min. warmup on the elliptical.
I treated my body the way it should be treated yesterday. I ate limited portions and stayed perfectly in control. Right after supper, I went ahead and took a shower to get myself out of the eating mode and it worked perfectly. Then it was time to watch the Bachelor and What About Brian. I ate a few pieces of sugar free candy and drank a diet green tea, wrote in my journal, etc. It felt great. And best of all, this morning the scale was down to 191.8. Can't wait to be out of the 190's forever, never to return!
I've decided that I have to weigh every morning to keep myself accountable. I love the feeling of waking up knowing that I've done well the previous day. I understand normal weight fluctuations and that doesn't bother me. But, I have to weigh often or I use excuses to overeat.
I've got a Turbo Jam dvd in the player ready to go right after my coffee this morning.
Well, I faced the scale today after over a week of overeating and the pure, ugly truth is...I weighed 196 lbs. I can't believe it, but I have no one to blame but myself. I could feel my clothes getting tighter, my back and knees were hurting more, and I've had a horrendous headache. I was confessing to my co-worker today about things that I've eaten this weekend and was so ashamed listening to myself all the crap I've eaten. I ate chocolate cake, Pizza Hut pizza, a Hardee's chicken club sandwich with fries, Moose Tracks Xtreme ice cream, peanut butter and toast, DQ strawberry cheesecake blizzard and more. I'm not big on being negative on myself but good Lord.....I've got to get back in control.
So far so good today, even though it was depressing to see the high number on the scale, I needed it to make me face reality. I eat way more than my body needs.
I joined this site in April and I weigh 4 more lbs. now than I did then. I have spun my wheels the entire time. I got down to 180, and now back up this much. I pray that God will help me eat only what healthy food my body needs in the appropriate portions. I pray also, that He will take the need to overeat from me. With His strength, I can do it!
After suffering through an allergy-related cold, I'm feeling better in the mornings...finally no headache when I wake up, so I'm back to working out in the mornings. I did Firm Express Cardio. Got out of breath a couple of times, it feels like my lung capacity's down some, probably due to not working out much.
I'm really going to be more conscious of the junk I allow myself to have. I'm just as satisfied with a piece of fruit or sugar free jello if I'll just make myself do it. When I choose to eat junk, I'm only delaying my progress. I read an article in my new Shape magazine about how when women traded the junk for healthier options they started to feel better, had more energy, didn't get that mid-day slump, PMS symptoms were eased, etc.
I'm making myself a priority! I want to be the healthiest I can be.
Talk about detox! I couldn't believe when I got on the scale. I meticulously counted calories instead of points yesterday and wound up with around 1100. I woke up with a horrible allergy headache so I didn't even exercise yesterday and still had that drastic of a drop in weight.
I'm up having coffee and going to do a Firm workout before its time to get the girls up for school. Nothing like a 3.6 lb. drop from yesterday to motivate a girl!
I've made up my mind that I'm going to go hardcore! I know that slow and steady wins the race, but I want quick results. I'll do mediocre throughout the week and then on the weekends I overindulge and ruin my progress that I made during the week. So---I'm giving up sugar, I did well doing that before. I know that I can lose at least 2-3 lbs. a week staying between 1200-1400 calories (approx. WW points) and doing 45-60 min. of exercise at least 5 days a week. Nothing too extreme, just on plan. I'm going to shoot for losing 8 lbs. before Halloween, which is perfectly doable.
I've been thinking about how much time I've wasted being the weight I am instead of getting to my goal. Right now its really easy for me to stay on plan. I'm staying within points and exercising in the mornings. I'm staying busy with other things. I broke out my cross-stitching again after not doing anything for over eight years. I put all my stuff up when my oldest DD was born. Now the girls are bigger and don't require as much attention from me and I've got more time to get back into my hobby. I've been looking up ideas for new projects, got a few started and am really enjoying it. I've also got out some of my older workout tapes and really like the variety I'm getting.
I know staying on plan will get hard again at some point, but I have to stay consistent. I got down to the 170's way back in May of 2002, then I gained 15-20 lbs. when my Dad was really bad and passed away. I've struggled ever since then, but I've consistently maintained at 185-190.
Sometimes I think I should lose the rest of the weight as quick as possible and surely I could maintain--then on the other hand, I feel like if I'm really strict on myself during that time it will lead to me bingeing. I get really frustrated with slow weight loss though. I know its a lifestyle change and I should aim towards the slower weight loss. But I can't help but want the quick results!
I've done well with my new commitment, even during the weekend. I stayed home all day yesterday, kept myself busy with the house, kids, computer, cross-stitching, etc. and didn't focus on food so much. The scale is back down, thankfully, to 188. I can't get complacent though, that's been my problem for four years. I have to remember my ultimate goal and quit settling.
DH has to work today (Sunday) and I'm going to have to be careful with food. I have a tendency to eat when I feel sorry for myself. My plan is after taking the girls to church, I'm planning on stopping and getting them a Happy Meal and me an Asian salad. Not had one in awhile, so it will be like a treat. DH and I usually split a lowfat Subway on Sundays.
Going to have a little more coffee and then do a Firm dvd. 30 more lbs. to go!
Can't wait for Biggest Loser coming on this week!! Did you see that there's a new woman trainer? I punched up her website, she's a fitness competitor.
