I have a confession....after years of touting Weight Watchers I have to admit...I ordered Nutrisystem and LOVE it! I can't believe it myself. I have watched the infomercial over and over again and while sitting home on MLK day I punched up the website and saw that you can customize your order (only order the foods you think you will like). With your first order you actually get 5 weeks of food instead of the usual four weeks. After talking with my DH, knowing he would tell me to go for it, I customized an order and placed it that night.
I realized that I needed a change, not that I don't believe in Weight Watchers, it was hard for me to get back on program 100%. I haven't been attending meetings and was having a hard time getting motivated. I know, I know--motivation comes from consistency, but I was having a hard time with that consistency. I needed a change.
My food arrived the next Thursday, I started Friday morning after reading the informational packet. I have been on program for six days now and am down 5.8 lbs.! It really is teaching me a way to eat that keeps me full. I've not really been hungry at all and there hasn't been any food that I've not liked. I'm not a very picky eater though and can basically eat anything...obviously. I started 1/19 and have talked myself into trying it for at least 2 months with 3/19 being my 38th birthday.
So, there it is, my confession....and to top it off my screen name is wwmember. WWmember doing Nutrisystem...LOL
I just added a new friend to my account and noticed several that haven't posted in months, so I cleaned them up from my account but realized how sad it was. I'm sure that they all set up their EP account with high hopes and expectations and somewhere along the way let them all slip away. Not that they still don't feel that way, but they gave up on theirselves, because its hard. Its VERY hard, but what is the alternative?
How many times have you heard an overweight person say that they would do "whatever it takes" to lose weight? Would you? Really? The truth is all you have to do is lower your food intake and get some exercise, be consistent and the weight is sure to fall off. Somewhere in between something happens and they lose their way.
Don't get me wrong, I've done my share of gaining weight and giving up...but I've always regretted it. Giving up and overeating is never worth it.
Live life to the fullest, get back on board, today is a new day, you are worth it--do you have what it takes?
I just had an ephipany when I woke up. I realized that I've been feeling deprived thinking negatively about starting a diet and exercise regimen because I have to give up overeating and eating the wrong foods.
I'm deprived now!
Deprived of feeling good about myself. Deprived of a healthy body. Deprived of wearing beautiful clothes. Deprived of being toned. Deprived of joy in my life. Deprived of being closer to God due to being disobedient and eating more than my body (His temple) needs.
So, today and from now on, I'm looking at my journey with a positive frame of mind instead of feeling deprived.
I've been ashamed that I've gained weight...I know forgive myself and am ready to think positive. My weigh-ins are on Saturday mornings and I will be honest with myself. No more shame, no more negative thinking. Its onward and downward!
Well, the holidays are long since over and I'm back on track to stay. I want to get to my goal in 2007 and staying on plan and exercising is the only way I'm going to get there. For years I've rebelled against the idea instead of embracing the facts. I've thought of losing the weight as something temporary, like the "diet" mentality. I think most overweight people think that "if I could only lose the weight, surely I could maintain it." The fact is that losing the weight is the easy part.
This is the third (and last) time in my life I've lost 100 lbs., and keeping it off is going to be the hardest thing I've ever done. Its scary but better than the alternative for sure. I'm 37 and realizing that every pound affects my health in every aspect. The extra weight doesn't just affect my vanity. In my 20's I just wanted to look good and the first time I lost weight I basically starved myself. I didn't have a period for seven months, wanted to sleep all the time, etc. Do you think I cared about my health? Scary now, but I did it. I lived off of 500-700 calories a day.
I vowed I would never starve myself again. Why starve when you can eat 1200-1400 calories a day and still lose weight?
Got a lot of work ahead of me....a lifetime of hard work, but I'm worth it!
I joined WW in May 2002 at 229.5 lbs. after having lost over 50 lbs. on my own. I continued on with my weight loss and got down within a couple of pounds within my goal weight (WW goal weight 169 lbs.) until my Dad got really sick and eventually passed away in 2004. I gained some weight back and have basically maintained in the 185-195 range ever since. I'm tired of being this weight and know if I commit to it, 2007 will be the year of the goal!
I'm committed to staying within my points and doing my daily morning workouts and I know with consistency I will get there!
I've done pretty well the last couple of days with a whole new perspective. I've finally realized that this journey is not temporary, not a diet that's going to end. I have to accept that I have to make good food choices and exercise consistently if I want to lose more weight and keep off what I've lost.
My pastor preached Sunday (Christmas Eve) about seeking God with everything you want to accomplish. He mentioned Christian people trying to quit smoking, losing weight, etc. and they won't use their biggest source of strength--God. We think its our problem, etc. When we know He cares for every aspect of our life. If its important to us, its important to Him. Our pastor also mentioned that we should treat our body as a temple, which I've heard for years, but it was like something clicked. I cried through the whole sermon and had to go pray with others when the altar call was given. I have turned this burden over to one that can do ALL things. Since then I've felt so positive knowing that I can and will do this with His strength!
I looked back when I started my blog on this site, and I'm still struggling at the same weight as when I started in April. Its really depressing. But does being depressed help anything? NO!
I'm tired of feeling hopeless and stuck at this weight when I know I can do something about it. No, I'm not going to lose all of the weight overnight, its going to be a lifetime full of struggles. I think I thought at some point everything would become automatic and it hasn't and I really don't think it will. Food is just too good and there are always going to be those weak moments. There's always going to be those PMS days, etc. to make us stray off plan.
I'm never going to be one of those "oops, I forgot to eat" girls. I love food and always will. I have to focus on what kind of body and what kind of health I want for the rest of my life and eat only the food that will help me achieve those goals, and in the right portions.
You know those silly pass-around emails that want you to describe yourself and asks questions?
My sister had sent one and I forwarded my answers to aunts, friends, etc. One of the questions said, "What do you like the least about yourself?" Almost everyone's answer was "their weight". I thought to myself how sad it was that all these women have issues with their weight and thought, "why don't they do something about it". Well, my answer was my weight too and I've been asking myself ever since, "why don't I do something about it".
Seriously, if it makes me that unhappy why not deal with it where it won't even be a factor in my life?
This evening is Thanksgiving dinner with my Mom and I'm planning to eat in proper portions, never putting off until tomorrow what I can do today.
I'm having to remember that this way of eating is for a lifetime, but it sure would be nice to see the scale go down. I'm perfectly satisfied with my oatmeal, milk & fruit for breakfast, protein & veggies for supper, etc. I've been varying my lunches some. I made the Waist Management vegetable soup with a sandwich for lunch or salad with protein. Snacks have been a few almonds, yogurt, or fruit. I've not been getting to exercise as much as I wanted, definitely have to make it a top priority.
Today is my oldest DD's birthday, can't believe she's 9 years old. I told my DH if the next 9 years goes as fast as the first 9, its going to be very depressing. AND, Friday is my youngest DD's birthday, so my baby will be 6. They want Dairy Queen cake, hopefully I can avoid it.
I've realized in the past few weeks that for YEARS I have thought of weight loss and eating well as temporary. I have to accept that making better choices for my health must be permanent. After watching Dr. Oz I just keep thinking that you can't fool your body when you start to get older. Eating junk will catch up with you and affect your health. I want to get at least 30 more lbs. off, not so I can go back to eating some junk every once in awhile, but so I can be the healthiest wife and mother I can be. I don't want diabetes, it runs on both sides of my family, but its the onset diabetes that can be avoided by maintaining a healthy weight and having a healthy diet.
I remember a video I watched one time, don't even remember the program, but a lady had lost a significant amount of weight. She was an emotional eater that turned to food in troubled times. She realized that God was the only thing that could give her the complete fulfillment that she needed, not the food. I remember she simply said, "Its just food." We're supposed to eat to live, not live to eat.
My 38th birthday is in March and I was thinking that being below 170 lbs. would be a great birthday present. I don't do well with specific number challenges, but if I set my mind to something I know I am very capable of achieving this goal. I want it and there's no reason I can't have it!
Godsglory (Amy) and I have started a challenge that includes 30 min. of exercise a day, staying within WW points, daily devotional time, etc. Keep an eye on us cause we're gonna do it!
