Definitely time to recommit for good
I realize that I've really not forgiven myself for gaining some weight back. Everytime I look in the mirror I hate the way I look and feel like a failure. I've got to realize that I'm only human, but at the same time, I'm the only one that can do this for myself. I take responsibility and am ready to take action! I want the best life possible for myself and I believe that it will be better for my physical, mental and spiritual self to lose about 30 lbs.
I won't starve, I won't die, I won't even be uncomfortable. I know after 3-4 days, it will be almost automatic. With every good decision I will be that much stronger. I won't get discouraged. I've done it before and I can do it again. I need to do this for my health and for my vanity. I do not want to be a fat Mom and wife. I want to be the best I can be.
No food is worth giving up on my goals. I felt absolutely horrible yesterday. I felt so heavy. Scott rubbed my back and I could feel the fat moving around. I felt awkward and kept tugging at my shirt. Nothing really helps when I do it and I know that. My back was absolutely killing me when I woke up this morning. I know the weight is a major factor. With every pound I lose it will help.
Today's the day-I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm ready to love myself!