Several of my blogger friends have checked on me since, but I can't believe its been since February...
I haven't made my health and fitness a priority in a long time. I recommitted April 30th and here's a page from my last night's journal....
I had yet another great day and feel that much stronger right now. I'm feeling like I really know who I am right now--I feel like a complete grown-up that knows herself, what I can do, what I can accomplish. I just feel so together...
When the alarm went off this morning, my first instinct was to go back to bed of course. But I laid there for a few minutes and realized if I just lay there was that going to make me feel better or feel worse and then I got up and did a kickboxing workout. Its hard to get started, but so worth it when you're finished. I hate how my motivation comes and goes and absolutely LOVE when I feel this way. I realize though that I can feel this way through consistency treating myself the way I should and deserve to be treated. I deserve to feel the way I want, the way I feel about myself inside-- I feel sexy and fit. Honestly, I know how hard I'm going to have to work to get where I want--the workouts, and the disciplined eating and doubt sometimes if I will be able to follow through. Its been so long since I've been 100% OP and strict on myself.
I've just got really tired of giving up on my dreams and goals for myself. I want to be an athlete, a fit mom, a role model, a uninhibited lover to my husband, an emotional eating overcomer, a true success story.
Posted By: wwmember
Comments to this post:
05/02/2007 09:46
Good to hear from you
It was such a nice little suprise to hear from you this morning! Im so glad to hear that you have recommited and are not giving up on you! Your an inspiration to us all with your 96.8lb weight loss so far, and with a goal of 23.2lbs to go....Im on the side lines totally shouting you on! Your so close, and I know you can do this!
Keep your head up, and run tward those goals. Good job on working out today! Keep in touch.
Great to hear you're doing well! I have been missing in action a bit also. I have been using pregnancy as an excuse to eat whatever i want. It's not working out too well...as you can imagine.
I do hope it continues. I understand the lack of motivation thing. Keep up the good work! I am reminded of a verse in Philippians. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." I know that when I don't feel like I can (or want to) that I my strength doesn't come from me, but from Christ alone! He can be your strength too!
I'm so happy to see you're "back"! I've fought that AM alarm battle more times than I have hair, and you're absolutely right - when you pull the trigger and throw that blanket off, you thank yourself all day long.
You've had such amazing success. Keep building on it! (And I love your blogs. Very thoughtful and thought-provoking. Keep 'em coming!)
