I am trying so hard to get focused on my journey.  I did well yesterday as far as eating and exercising, but today hasn't been as good.  I started out eating a healthy breakfast around 6:30 this morning, but then around 10:30 am I wanted something else to eat.  Instead of getting an apple or some kind of healthy snack, I noticed my husband's Cheetos on the table beside the chair.  I said, "Just a few won't hurt."  I ate a few, then said, "Well, I might as well eat something else too."  I got up and ate a bologna sandwich along with more Cheetos.  I was sooooo stupid!!!  This isn't right!!  I was so fed up with myself I had to get out of the house.  I went to Wal-Mart to find a mother's day present for my best friend's mother.  (My Mom passed away in '05.)  After finding a really cute blouse for her, I went to the checkout.  As I was leaving, the deli there smelt soooo good. I started thinking, "What can I get that won't be fattening?"  (It was around 2:30 pm by then and I had gotten hungry.)  All they had was fried food...fried chicken wings, fried okra, fried potato wedges...etc...I walked past the cold section where the salads were but they didn't look too fresh.  Then I realized that Subway (which is inside the Wal-Mart store) sold salads.  I walked into Subway and bought a grilled chicken salad and left.  I was proud that at least I didn't get any fried foods...that's a small step anyway.  I got into my car, opened the salad and took about  5 bites...brought the rest of it home and plan on eating it for tonight's supper.  (I will have to confess that I started getting hungry around 4 pm...so I got an apple and 1 tablespoon of peanut butter for a snack.)  I'm hoping I didn't do too badly.

 

I haven't taken the time to exercise today.  It has been damp, rainy and dreary here today and when the weather is like this, my ankle seems to act up a lot worse.  I couldn't hardly walk after getting back from Wal-Mart.  I'm hoping after I rest up a bit I will be able to walk on the treadmill later on tonight.  Wish me luck!

 

I need to start praying real hard!!!  I need to lean on the Lord more than I have been.  I know He will help me if I just put my faith in Him!!

 

Thanks for letting me confess my moronic actions!

 

Cathy