oops

I have been so bad about my blogging here.  I get wrapped up in all the things I'm doing, and forget.  I'm still at the same weight...422 pounds.  I've had pneumonia, and been struggling with water weight from congestive heart failure since my lungs aren't working quite right.  OMG....the snot!  It soooooooo gross.

Right now I'm kind of at a standstill.  I can't up my activity level because I can't breathe.  And the steroids are making me hungry.  So, I'm just trying to watch what I do and maintain at the moment.  Hopefully in another few weeks my health will level out and I'll be able to push forward and lose a few more pounds.  For right now though, I am content with staying right here.

And I read raspberry's blog.  YAY!  Congratulations hun.

a weigh in

I went to the doctor today for a breathing test, and they had a scale that would eigh me.  So, I've gone from 438 to 422.  I'm quite pleased with that!  It makes me want to work harder.  And maybe one day I will remember to write in this blog more regularly!

inching along

I keep slowly moving forward.  Having some rough emotional days.  Had the cold from hades for awhile.  I've lost a few more inches and half inches around my body.  So...yeah!  I do seem to have a problem ignoring the frozen yogurt!  Slow and easy will win the race.  And, I'm determined to win!

struggles

I've been struggling these last days.  My asthma is giving me heck, and I want to eat, eat, eat, but I've been fairly good.  I did go on one emotional binge eat.  It was a pretty bad binge!  I'm mostly back on track now, and working to get even more on the straight and narrow.

too long

It's been too long since I posted a blog here.  I must get better about doing so.  My diet is still going along steadily.  Of course, it has it's ups and downs, but I'm sticking to it for the main.  I'm still over 400 pounds, but eventually I'll get down below it.  I'll celebrate that day!  It's my first goal that I've set.  M and I are quite pleased with my progress.  I've lost almost all my extra fluid, and am gaining a little stamina.  I've been keeping up with some low-impact exercises.  So, all in all, it goes well!

getting through the day

Today was not one of my better days.  I did okay on the calories, but I did drink too much fluid.  With the steroids and my health problems, I have to watch my fluid intake.  Plus, it's just recently that I quit smoking.  Add being sick as a dog on top of that and I just had a bad day.  I'm irritable and grumpy and want to cry.  So, I gave myself a little lee-way and went out for a late birthday dinner with my best friend.  It sure did pick up my spirits.  We went to Applebee's and sat and talked.  It was so good to get out of the house and just be in company I enjoy.  My Mister has also been wonderful and understanding these past two days.  He supports and encourages me so much.  I figure that with everything going on my mood will be iffy for awhile, but that's okay.  I'm just going to feel however it is I feel and keep on doing what is best for me.

A birdie's journey

I think the first blog is always the hardest one to start. I want to thank raspberry for telling me about this site. I’m so excited. There are many of my friends and family who support me in this journey I am taking. I have barely started taking baby steps, bit I am on my way. The most important person in this journey besides me is my other half. I’ll refer to him as “M” or Mister for the purpose of this blog. He is very deeply involved in helping me achieve some structure in my life, and in getting healthier.

The purpose for the changes I’m making in my life is to be healthier. I have many physical problems that my weight plays a large role in. At this point, I can no longer work, and am waiting on a disability decision. So, I’m in a bit of a low place in my life, but I am determined to change what I can so that things can improve. I started this journey 3 weeks ago with my Mister. I have made changes in my activities and eating habits, and will continue to adjust them along the way. I have no “set” plan other than to keep watching and tracking what I do. My severe asthma limits my ability to do a lot of exercise, but I am slowly integrating more activity into my schedule,. As I tolerate that, M and I will up the level and intensity of activity. The same goes with my eating habits. I am mainly watching salt and sugar at this time. My diet is still not particularly healthy, but it’s a whole lot healthier than it was, and I will continue to make changes until it’s a good, life-long diet for me.

I refer to this as a journey, because this literally means my life. I am spectacularly unhealthy physically, and that’s hard on the emotions as well. This isn’t a diet, it’s a change in the way I live. I’m not worried about failure, because I simply will not give up until I do succeed. I’m a bit stubborn that way.

So, welcome to my blog and I hope you take part in the journey.