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My Weight Loss
| Height: | 167.6cm |
| Start weight: | 165.00lb |
| Current weight: | 143.30lb |
| Goal weight: | 135.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 21.70lb |
| Remaining: | 8.30lb |
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Focus is everything!!
Managing our personal focus today is more important than ever for our mental and emotional well being. Look at what you read, listen to and the people you associate with. If we seek negative, we find negative. For example:
Seek... Find... Drama Life is a soap opera News about job losses Anxiety Retirement account statement Depression Stories of investment fund embezzlers CynicismOn the other hand, if we seek positive, that's what we will find:
Seek... Find... Humor Life is comedy New opportunities Energy Things you can control Empowerment Ways to help others Gratitude for what you have People who inspire and lift you up Support and encouragement Faith ComfortIn life, we get what we choose to look for, so choose wisely... and positively.
Wow -- I had to come back to check on everyone and how they are doing. I am currently staying at the 145 - 147 weight range. I have done a lot of stress eating -- I really got into the sweets for some reason. But I haven't done any binge eating -- and exercise is just been trying to get my house cleaned out. Once it gets nice out -- I might start phentermine for a month to get a jump start to lose the last 10 pounds.
It has been a busy March -- major snow storms, major flooding, went to court to be appointed Guardian for my 21 yr old son. He is doing fantastic -- mid March he moved into his own apartment but they have staff on site. His doctors say he is at high risk for relapse in the next 24 months.
I have learned to live in the "today" -- yesterday is over and tomorrow might not come or be the way I want -- so for us it is important to just live each day to the fullest. That has really helped me in keeping my weight stable........I don't allow myself to make excuses like "tomorrow I will eat less" or "tomorrow I will exercise" or "tomorrow" -- I make decisions just for today.
Hope all of you are well -- phycsically and emotionally. Here's to all your successes!!! Take care!!
Importance of Laughter!
Most events in our lives do not carry an overwhelming sense of sadness or delight. Most fall into the gray zone of ordinary life, and they give us the choice to laugh or not. Hmm, laughter as a choice?
Laughter is certainly the shortest distance between two people. It unites us, especially when we laugh together. Laughter can heal our relationships... and even heal us. Humor is an emotional medicine that can lower stress and diffuse anger. Our mood is elevated by striving to find humor in difficult and frustrating situations. Laughing at ourselves and the situation helps reveal that small things are not the earth-shaking events they sometimes seem to be. Looking at a problem from a different perspective can make it seem less formidable and provide opportunities for greater objectivity and insight. Remember to include laughter in your 100 day plan.
Diet -- consistently losing 1 pound a week. Finding out what foods I can not or shouldn't eat due to the gallbladder being gone. I have been very strict making sure I have fresh fruits and vegetables every day. I don't stress on what I eat as long as I stick to my plan. My last weigh in I was at 146.2 pounds -- was 172 in May 2008. I am ok with where I am though my 100 day goal is 140 pounds -- I was down to 135 a couple of years ago but it was hard for me to stay 5 pounds over or 5 pounds under that weight. So if I stick with with 140 pounds -- I can go to 145 or 135 and still be in range.
I do have to admit -- it is very easy to control the diet when all you have to worry about is yourself. Son is still assisted living group home but we hope to transition him into an assisted living apartment complex. We are both excited on his progress but focus on all the minutes of each today. We leave the yesterdays in the past where they belong and don't live for the tomorrow's........we live, love, and laugh during each minute of today.
Hope all is going well for everyone -- lots going on each and every day that has the potential to affect our goals, dreams, and life -- so remember to take time to laugh!!
Sticking to the 100 day plan!
Unfortunately, most people fail only because they don't stick to it long enough to succeed. For instance, every year on January 1st, people make new resolutions. It is a time to start fresh, to implement new plans for various areas of our lives. But we all know what happens... about 70 percent of all New Year's resolutions last less than one month. Many last less than a week or even a day. It is not that our intentions are bad – it is just that most of us do not stick to it long enough to create a new habit, a new way of behaving.
So, start small. Take baby steps to help you focus on creating a new habit. If you want to exercise more, hold off on the personal trainer for now and start by walking up the stairs, instead of taking the elevator, to your office. Create a habit out of it. First we form our habit, and then our habits form us.
Here's to sticking to it this year!
I am so surprised how this is working for me -- my focus has been on my behavior about food and creating that new habit. It shocks me because when I step on the scale -- another pound is gone. It surprises me because I don't WORK at it.......I just follow my plan. I have to admit that I liked being on Phen (Aug 08 - Dec 08) and it gave me the jump start I needed but now that I am not on it -- I really like NOT being on it. I didn't see how it had changed my personality -- I guess I was pretty should I say "intense" and now the comments are that I am more "relaxed". It makes me smile because most didn't know I was on Phen. But part of the "intensity" was due to my son's illness and now that is under control or that it is now part of my life -- a habit -- it isn't overwhelming when a bump in the road occurs.
On another note -- I woke up with a screaming headache at 3 am. Got up- took motrin and ate a chocolate donut with glaze and went back to bed. I woke up at 6 am feeling perfect. I think that donut was "magic". Have a wonderful weekend everyone!!
The Nature of a 100 Day "Goals" Plan
The nature of a goal plan is that it is written down. Writing down your 100 day goals creates tremendous power.
If you want to reach your goals, you have to mentally see them and then physically write them down. Just seeing is not good enough—your goals should be written in your handwriting (or typing). Writing down your goals will clarify what you are trying to accomplish. Writing down goals forms a critical transition between simply being interested in a goal to being committed to them. After all, a goal without a plan is just a dream. That's my problem -- I have been dreaming about being thin too much.......
As part of his plan, Benjamin Franklin made a list of traits he either wanted to get rid of or wanted to cultivate. Then he graded himself on his progress or regression every day. Not yearly, weekly, or monthly, but every day. His question to himself was, "Did I get closer to accomplishing my goals, or did I lose ground today?" Franklin chose to be more than interested. He was committed enough to his goals to take the time to measure his progress. He was committed enough to keep his goals in view, working in some way each day to take one step forward.
Here are some questions to ask yourself to start formulating your 100 Day Plan.
What to I want to accomplish this year?
Why do I want to accomplish it?
How will my life be different? How will my life look, feel, sound if I achieve my goals (i.e., visualize the achievement of your goals)?
Which short-term goals (First 100 days) are required in order for me to achieve my longer-term goals?
Which activities must I do every day to ensure I hit my 100 day goals?
Early successes build momentum and confidence. We start to feel more confidence as we have a few victories under our belts. In other words, competence builds confidence.
We have an uphill battle if we lack clarity and focus during the first 100 days. We can easily find ourselves behind the 8 ball playing catch up the rest of the year or just scrambling to survive rather than thrive.
Planning is for winners, so write your 100 Day "Goals" Plan today... and stick to it!
On a more personal note: this weekend will be the FIRST weekend since my son became ill in July that I will NOT have any caregiver duties. His father is finally accepting or maybe trying to understand his son's limitations. Waiting for the paperwork to go get approved by the Court system so I can move forward on gaining guardianship of my son. Hope they set a trial date soon.........I am having my 23 yr old son involved so if something would happen to me then the guardianship just transfers to him without additional court or cost. What a potential impact on him being 23 yrs old and having the possibility of having to "care" for his younger brother.
Got a clean bill of health from the gall bladder surgery. No restrictions or limitations. Saw my eating disorder doctor and he upped my medicine since we don't know if it was the gallbladder or the medicine controlling my appetite. Thank goodness for insurance -- he charges $457 an hour. I really like him and am able to talk to him about my son. His goal for me is to start exercising......thank goodness I don't see him for 6 weeks. Yes, I will be writing down my 100 day plan.....and visualize it.......and not try to "dream" myself thin. I am going to "stick" to it!!!!
January almost gone.......
Just a quick note -- go see the surgeon for follow up on my gallbladder surgery.
Still losing a pound a week so it will be interesting to see if it was because of my gallbladder and surgery or the medicine for my eating disorder. Saw my doctor for the eating disorder yesterday and he increased my dosage since we aren't sure if the medicine is the reason behind my lack of appetite or was it the gallbladder and surgery.
The Power of Sleep
It just amazes me the power of sleep and how it heals the body. My gallbladder surgery went well Wednesday afternoon....got home around 5 pm and went to bed. My mother just kept waking me up to take the pain pills as she said "to stay ahead of the pain" so Thursday morning I felt pretty darn good. Yesterday I left the house for the first time to go see my son -- no pain pills -- but it was amazing that my body had had enough because I ate then laid on the couch and the next thing I knew -- I was waking up.
Just shows that we need to take the time to sleep.....to heal ourselves - heal our mind and our body.
I am interested to see if my new drugs are keeping me from eating or if it was my gallbladder that kept me from eating.......time will tell.
Hope all is going well for everyone -- I am excited for this year to be so much better than last year -- and I think it will. Good things come from turmoil and heartache......mainly strength. One can never have enough strength!
2009 - a repeat of 2008????
January already. Hard to believe. I have been off the Phen since 12/22 when I found out that I need to get my gallbladder taken out. I was shocked -- didn't realize that it was acting up.....just shows how we tolerate minor changes in our bodies or how we feel.
I got in early to see my new doctor for my "binge eating" -- hate to say it but he is a medicine pusher......and the new drugs are doing much better then the phen.
My gallbladder surgery is scheduled for Wednesday afternoon.....decided to take 5 days off from work.....even though my doctor said I could go back to work on Monday if I felt like it......just will see how it goes....a break would be nice and I have the time to take.
Update on son......minor set back -- change in medicines so need to put him back in a controlled setting for monitoring and get some PT for his back pain. Bought him a new bed today to see if that will help so when he gets home in a few weeks or so......then maybe he can get better sleep.
Otherwise all is going well.......so looking forward to sunshine and warm breezes!!!! And to see if I can meet my goal this time with the Valentines Challenge!!!
Week 1 without Phen
It has been one long month. I am super busy at work and then with the holiday season -- it seemed like I didn't have any time to myself. My son has lived at home for almost a month and things seem to be going well. I found out that I need to file for guardianship for him -- my lawyer called me 7:30 pm Tuesday night (23rd) and encouraged me to get the process going. It makes sense but it includes lawyers and courts......aarrgghh. Parents ONLY have a moral obligation for their adult children not a LEGAL obligation. But I will do whatever I need to do to make sure that my son continues his journey to being healthy!!
I was doing ok with the weight and it was probably that I was so busy.....but I have to confess the first night my son came home I ordered a medium pizza from Pizza Hut and ate the whole thing......was I hungry -- NO but had stress or anxiety due to being the caregiver of my son again 24/7. I remember my doctor telling me one month during my monthly visits to get my Phen that maybe I needed additional "help" so I found the help I needed. I had an assessment at a eating disorder clinic and was diagnosed with "binge eating disorder" which when I talked to my primary care doctor when I wanted phen after gaining 20 pounds in less than 2 months........I knew deep down what my "real" problem was. He didn't recognize it but I am thankful for him prescribing me Phen so I could lose the weight I so needed.
I am down to a healthier weight and now off the Phen. Phen helped me notice my eating was not due to hunger or hunger pains.....but as we all know it is a short term help. I have to admit when I made the decision to go through the assessment it wasn't easy for me -- to admit to my weakness/struggles was out of character for me -- I was always the strong one -- in control. When I told the intake person that I had gained 20 pounds in less than two months I needed to face my "real" problem but I couldn't do that until I lost the weight first......so that is what I needed to do. Now that I am at a "ok" weight I was ready to face the real reason for my weight gain. She looked at me and said "this is not a weight loss clinic" -- ok did you listen to me??? I am not here to lose weight ---but the good news is I start next week with their program.
Oh then 2 weeks ago, I started having pain in my right side. No other real noticeable symptoms but one attack was severe -- I have a high tolerance for pain so maybe it has been bothering me but I never noticed??? so just found out today that I have to have my gallbladder out. My gallbladder is healthy and not inflamed but I have ONE stone. My ONE stone is 3.7 cm. So next week will move forward to getting it out. At least I can schedule it around my life and it will be only 1 week recovery period.....I can handle that.
On another note -- an ex boyfriend of mine was back in town for the holidays. He contacted me wanting to "catch up" -- it was nice to see him. But why oh why do they ask "what went wrong with us?" For one I am 8 years older than him and was in a so different place than him.......and secondly his mother didn't approve of our age difference but the worse of it was his parents were close to my ex husbands age and they know my ex husband (hate small towns)(and yes my ex husband was lots older than me)....but the time my ex boyfriend and I did have a lot of fun together and we are so much alike. I just said it wasn't the right time for us.....and he was ok with that. Why rehash all that crap -- what happened then is meaningless now. But what made me smile was when he said "You are different....but I like it" (it has been 2 years).
Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and here is to meeting your goals in 2009. I plan to lose another 10 pounds to get to my normal weight and it will be without Phen.
Missing in Action
Just a quick post -- have been so very busy -- Holidays and work. Son moved back home and things are going well. It is almost another monthly doctors appointment -- Monday in fact. Sorry to my "weight challenge" group. I am now 150.2 -- no way will reach 144 by December 31st but am ok with that. Oh -- Vegas trip cancelled but not the reason I won't make my "goal" -- will get there but will just take a little longer.
Have a wonderful Holiday season Everyone! Hope all your goals are achieved!!

