ooops slipped off the wagon...

and got back on it !

Yes...not proud of myself... . I got disheartened that I was trying and trying and nothing was budging ...so I thought SOD IT and went out and ate and stopped the diet.

Now five pounds heavier I had to admit to myself that I cant let all that previous good work go to waste....so here I am again. I'm back! I really dont want to put all my weight back on...I have to keep going. So yesterday I weighed myself and started to eat better. Will rub the dust off the ipod and sneakers and put them to use too.

WIsh me luck! Its good to be back ! Take care

PMS has turned me into....

....a chocolate eating monster!! OMG I want to eat chocolate all day, every minute, every second. Its driving me crazy! Have eaten way too much today. Am off out to walk now in the hope of burning it all off. I'm a praying the cravings go tomorrow as I need to see the scale move d-o-w-n this week, not up!

Wishing you all happy - craving free - days

Not lost...but no gain thankfully!

Hey  Hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend

So news is that at weigh in yesterday the same...no loss but also no gain...and I am surprised as not been a good week. Have been on spring break...didnt go anywhere...but thought that I would have a  relaxing week around the house doing jobs, eating well and exercising more.....

Well I did the relaxing bit well, and sadly not too good at all on the last two...!

 Now this is a s-a-d thing to say...and people at my work will think I have gone MAD...but will be glad to get back to work on Monday and back to a routine......I am scared that if I had another week off I would balloon!Its so funny that I exercise after a very busy and exhausting day at work...but after a relazing day at home cant be bothered!!

I have to get out of the 230's...its my new goal.

I shall succeed!

Happy days to all

I'm back.... :)

Hello...............I am back and I have missed you all . Its been hectic since my last post -had a beanpole friend stay for a week, a sick doggie and for some reason when I did try to log in I had problems...but all ok now! Glad to be back.

Well my best news is that my dog is ok...thank God and thank all of you for your thoughts and prayers! It wasnt anything bad but they removed it all the same. It was a horrid few days for him as he wandered around my house with his cone on, it wasnt too good for my furniture either as he appeared to hit everything in sight! Anyway collar is off and he is doing well. Hopefully my bank balance will start feeling well soon too!!!

And other great news is that I have lost 2lb....moved that plateau...hurrah, never thought i was going to do it!! So now  my next mini goal is to get under 230 lbs and into my new pair of size 18 jeans that I bought on Sat!

Hope all of you are ok....and the scale is moving downards. I am on Spring Break at the moment so hopefully will get in some more exercise this week and not any more food (which i am prone to do if off work!!). But not this time - I do NOT need it! If i keep saying it hopefully I will believe it!

Love to you all

Stressed...but strangly not turning to food thank god ...

Had a rather stressful day as had to take my dog to the vet ,because I thought he had some kind of ear infection as he was constantly scrating. Anyway it turns out that he has to have surgery on his ear tomorrow - so am very worried. I know he will be ok but its still a big worry.

BUT..... it just occured to me that just maybe my new heathly WOL (Way Of LIfe) ..... I refuse to call it a diet!!...may be working. Normally when I get stressed I EAT EVERYTHING I can get my hands on. I am not kidding -  thats how I ended up getting this big - a relationship ended, my mother had a terminal illness and I just ate through it all. But for some reason tonight I have not turned to food - THANKFULLY -  or drink either lol !!!

I guess knowing I would have to blog it here was a stopping factor, but honestly don't have that craving to eat the whole kitchen. i don't understand why not...but..I am a hoping and praying that this continues through tomorrow...

love to you all

Beanpole friend...

whooo hooo.........one pound down this week...not as much as I had hoped but........one pound is one pound!!! And is better than staying the same or gaining. That spurs me on to loose more this coming week but.......my good friend is coming on Tuesday. She is one of those tall, skinny women...you know that you dream to be! Anyway I need the strength not to keep up the diet this week as she eats enough for all of us!! oh i'm jealous of that metabolism!!!!!

Hope everyone is having good luck this week.

Happy days!

Stuck..........

Hey I have the Wednesday blues........been very good since Sat and the dreaded 2lb gain....yet the scales have not budged. At all. Sucks. Very depressing!!! So today bumped up my water intake and danced around my living room while watching Oprah...think my dog thought I had lost it! I have even eaten veggies for five days solid!!! Am hoping that I will see a difference at Sat's weigh in...

Am trying my best to keep positive as this is where I can think sod it and go eat. But I feel I have come so far to sabotage it. That scale WILL move on Sat!!

Hope the scales are moving down for all of you

Scales don't lie!!

Oh yes....put on 2 pounds.....oh yuck!!! However cant say that I am surprised. But the good thing is that i did not rush out to get a cheeseburger and fries in my putting on state of mind. Thats what I normally do. Put on and then think sod it and go eat!! So am not proud that I put on two pounds but am proud didnt go scoff!! My friend says that you can put on up to 6 pounds in period weight too....but I am gonna be realistic and put the blame on the friday night beer. Hopefully this week will be a better week.....am not adding my two pounds to my weight tracker...is that a bad thing? I suppose I should to make myself accountable but l-o-v-e the fact that it states 238...adding two puts me back to 240...sob...

Ok enough! Am off to route for one of the brit women to get the best actress oscar...and to look at skinny women in dresses to get motivated!! That Jennifer Hudson lost loads...wonder what she did. Speak laters  xx

Friday night woes.....

 Oh God.... told myself not to but tonight have downed four beers....hate having the liquid calories...but hate to deprive myself of beer and it was Friday Night....

The problem is that tomorrow is my weekly weigh in (yes wasnt really thinking that when I was slugging back my four beers!) ....god with the beer and the food still in me for the last 4 days (sorry - gross! ) oh and remember things come in threes...have the PMS belly bloat...so just cant wait for my weigh in....!! I wonder what delightful news the scale will have for me...

Until tomorrow...  Putting a positive face on !!!!!!!

Bunged up.........yuck!

Ok.............horrid nasty thing to have to admit ..........i am so sorry!!!...........but I guess I am eating too much protein or something...or not drinking enough water....but I have not been to the toilet for 3 days.........urgh!!!!!!!

I dont like this feeling.....not normally a blocked up person!!!!!

Oh the pain of dieting........