| Height: | 167.6cm |
| Start weight: | 197.00lb |
| Current weight: | 196.50lb |
| Goal weight: | 193.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 0.50lb |
| Remaining: | 3.50lb |
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fail. i failed the pt test, the weight and tape. pretty sad. so i'm trying again. on one hand, i don't really care what they think and on the other, i need to show myself that i can do this. my unit is on spark people, but i'm not ready for that much unity right now. i like being fairly anonymous. but i am going to be more accountable for what i eat and weigh in daily. i have to lose 4lb in a month, and i can do this.
well, after a failed pt test this past weekend, i'm starting to get back on track. actually, it took a bout of food poisioning (or possibly a bad reaction to the tea my mom sent me) to get me back around. sometimes it's easier to just say that i'm happy where i am than to change. but i'm really not happy at this weight. i passed my run (a 17 min 2-mile) but my ankles were killing me at the end. i just lost it on sit ups. i don't have the endurance i used to have. but i'm done counting calories and trying to log every minute of exercise i do. i'd rather eat things that are good for me in smaller amounts. my mom has counted calories and points for about as long as i can remember, and it works really well for her. she even has the points charm bracelet. i'm not my mom though, and i just don't work like that. so i'm starting over. and so far it's working. i was 177 the last time i checked my weight (176 this weekend i think) and i'm 173 this morning. and considering all the water i've been drinking (the Page diet from my chiropractor recommends a gallon a day- i haven't reached it yet, but i'm getting close) it's not just water weight. i won't reach my goal of being in optimal shape when rodney gets home in november, but he needs to lose some weight too, so we'll work on it together.
back from running this morning (i should still streach, so this will be quick) and i was remembering the real reason why i'm trying to lose weight- to get my athletism back. i love running and would love to be running ultras, but at 170+ i'm pretty likely to break something. the amount of pounding my body takes from the extra weight is too much. but i'm not giving up. because 22 is pretty young to be giving up, and definately not too old to change.
i hate being all moody, i hate being all sappy, and i really really hate gaining weight when my self- concious factor is at an all time high. i just want to curl up on the couch with a bucket of ice cream and get fatter. because right now, i'm hating life
better luck tomorrow...
So I'm looking for an appartment, and I'm starting to stress. And stress means food to me. I know I should be trying to change my food/ stress patterns. But I also want somewhere to work out at that isn't in my in-laws house. I'm very tired of my bad back, stiff knees, and having no clothes that fit me. So today I'm starting new, starting fresh.
