I made a mistake

I usually am so scared of mixing medications. So 9 days ago i forgot to take my lexapro and then forgot it again the next day. That day my dr. prescribed me Adipex. Well when i had it filled i read on the info sheet that it is contraindicated with antidepressants. So i thought well ive been without lexapro already for two days i will just quit taking it. ( I can be such an idiot). I kept having awful headaches for the next couple of days and i thought it was this adipex. Well i had a meltdown last night. I realized how much my emotions had changed and realized it was from the lexapro. I read a lot on how it can be hell to go through withdrawel

So on top of lex withdrawl i was dealing with the funny feelings adipex was giving me. Last night i decided to take half my dosage of lexapro and call my dr to find out what to do next. I am skipping Adipex today to try and get back on track. Wish me luck. This is gonna be one heck of a ride

A Disaster of a Day!

Well needless to say this day has been a disaster . I had a very bad night and was so emotionally because i have slept a total of 15 hrs in 5 days. I guess it just caught up with me. I woke up this morning debating do i really want to take phen today? Do i wanna go through another night of no sleep? I try to take my phen immediately upon waking which is usually 6am.  I have a 7mth old so i try to beat her up so i can at least have a few mins of me time before the day begins. So all in all i decided i am gonna take that pill...i can do this. Well......i took it.  and about an hr later i go so sick. I started vomiting? Who knows what the heck happened. It hasnt done this before. So i think i may have vomited it up? I havent ate much today but i have done so bad on my water intake. I feel so disapointed in myself! ALREADY. Ok so im gonna try to sleep some tonight and begin again tommorow. Im trying to get my treadmill moved to another area of my house so i can use it. I will have to have some help so maybe i can get someone to help. I gotta get going on this exercise thing. Until next time.

In the Beginning

Ok so im starting my journey to a healthier life and am really excited and scared too. Im disappointed in myself that i have let it get this far without even noticing it or rather ignoring it if i did. So action...

I started phen 4 days ago under the supervision of my dr. and am so scared to even weigh myself. A little history about myself and weight. Ten years ago i weighed 115. I was a very busy college student and working alot too. I was put on an antidepressant in 2001 (Paxil ) and within a few months i gained 50 pounds. I wasnt eating any different or any less active. I just ignored it thinking i would be able to drop it. After a while i realized it must be Paxil? So i talked my dr into switching my AntiD to something less. I went on Prozac by this time i weighed around 175. I got married soon after that and when we got out of the country on our honeymoon i realized i had forgotten my Anti D. So...i quit taking it all together.( I wouldnt take another one until Jan 2006. ) I tried Curves gym and diet after i got married for quite some time and couldnt shake a pound. I had test ran to see why i couldnt lose the weight and everything was coming back normal. So i got "used" to being fat and stayed that way. In Jan of 2006 our daughter passed away and my dr put me on lexapro. Because of grief i guess i dropped 20 lbs and was really actually shocked. It wouldnt last long thought because it came back slowly - creeping almost so that i didnt even pay it attention. I got pregnant in 2007 and just had my daughter in Jan of 08 and i gained 14lbs during preg. Somehow i have managed to get up to 211!!! What the heck..so here i am trying to lose this crap. Im so tired of feeling like crap about myself. I want to be healthy- not stick thin for my daughters sake. I want to be able to play and have a healthy lifestyle and be as active as i used to be.

This is day four! I have been drinking the heck outta water and havent had a bit of an appetite and am forcing myself to eat (good stuff). In fact nothing that is bad food even appeals to me. I just got the nerve while posting this blog to weigh and the scale hasnt moved? WTH? It still says 211? Im confused? What is it gonna take? Im at the end of my rope. Hopefully in a few days i will have some good news to report. I know this is gonna be a long journey not a quick fix but its hard when you read about others who immediately start melting off the pounds...

Until Next Time- whit