Week 3: Weigh-In Day
Well, I thought I had a good week and I did lose weight ... 2 more pounds down. So, for three weeks of dieting, I am down a total of 9 lbs.
I am glad to be down 9 lbs from three weeks ago and I know that I am healthier for it but I'd be lying if I said I was thrilled. I was REALLY hoping to get at least to the 200 mark this week. Hopefully I will get there next weigh in day.
The food has been good (tasty). I know this program works as I am getting results but I still have days where I am hungry and I already know that I am probably doomed to a life of just tasting food, in the future (rather than eating it) in order to keep the weight from coming back. It's REALLY depressing. I think a lot of thin people just don't eat or they workout crazy amounts of time that I just don't have and can't make time for with the life choices I have made.
I'm also really bummed to see the progress drop off. I've stuck to the plan to the letter. The first week I lost 4 lbs. The second week I lost 3 lbs. This week 2 lbs. So next week probably only 1 lb. ... then what, 8 oz? then 4 oz? Great,
I'll maybe make my goal weight in about 3 years! That totally stinks. I have a goal with a deadline in February 2009 ... the Westminster Kennel Club Dog Show (called "the Garden" by dog show enthusiasts). I just HAVE to do better than ounces or even 1 lb per week or I won't make my goal ... or even get CLOSE to it. I know I can gain more than a pound, maybe even more than 2 pounds, simply by ordering ONE fast food combo meal! It's SO grossly unfair. WHY does it have to be twice as hard to lose it as it is to gain it?
I'm not giving up but I am really unhappy tonight. I'm living on 1200 to 1300 calories a day. It's very difficult. I'm not starving but I am hungry some times and I'm depressed that I have to do such a drastic plan for my stupid body to lose weight. EVERYthing about me has to be so freak'n odd or complicated ... allergies, health issues, my kids, my lifestyle ... EVERYthing. I just feel like I've been given the short straw tonight. Hopefully, tomorrow I will wake up with a brighter outlook ...