Not so good...

This week wasn't so good on the weight loss front, but I'm doing better getting organized at work!  Again, I went to dinner last night, which of course, is not good right before weigh in! 

BUT!  Tomorrow is the Susan Komen Breast Cancer walk!  We'll be getting up super early to head out for the 5k walk.  I'll be walking with my mom, sister, and 2 daughters.  Since my youngest DD is only 4, we'll be taking the stroller for her!  But I sure am looking forward to it!

Tonight we are off to the first soccer practice of the season and a movie for kids at church for the little one and my niece.  Hope you all enjoy your weekends!

Things I've learned...

The first thing you would have think I'd learned a long time ago - don't go out to eat the night before a weigh in!  DUH!  But, I did and I even chose a really dumb place for me - a pizza place!  So, of course, that meant my weigh in was up from last week.  BUT, it was only up .4, so that's not too bad. 
I have also learned that pizza should just be a red light food for me!  Every Friday night we have pizza, but I usually think that's ok b/c it's my splurge day since I've already weighed in, but the splurge is the pizza, not eating too much of it! 
I learned this week that you can't count on a substitute to get the job done.  I had one on Wednesday b/c I had to go to a training and he didn't do half the things I asked him to!  I thought I was having a different sub, but for whatever reason, I didn't get her!  UGH!  So I spent the next 2 days trying to catch up!
I learned that I really like the school I work at.  After going to a training with some teachers from other schools around, I realized that they are not all nice and that they like to complain a lot!  So, I guess I'll stick around there awhile.  (I had thought about trying to transfer maybe next year - but I'm not so sure now). 
And the last lesson - and this is one I already knew - my ex is an a**.  He now has a new girlfriend (good for him) but he's blowing off the kids!  I knew this would happen and it really irks me, but at least I get more time with them! 
So there's my lessons learned for the past few days!  Here's to a great weekend!

Ups and downs of life

First, our dog, Boomer, is now in doggy heaven.  We decided to put him out of his misery on Monday morning.  It's still pretty sad and quiet around here, but we are all making it through.  We have another dog, Buddy, and he seems pretty lost too.  So, we are just giving him that extra attention and it make him and us feel better. 

A little girl at my school (a kindergardner and friend of my 4 year old) asked me today if I had a baby in my tummy.  Um, no, thanks a lot!  I know that she didn't know any better, but come on!!  And she is the SECOND person to ask me that!!  My own niece said to me one day, "Ra - you look like you have a baby in your tummy!"  She calls me Ra, short for Laura (I know - it's cute!).  She is 5 and also in kindergarten.  So I'm not sure if that's some sort of sign or what?!  But, both times it about made me cry!  And they are both 5 - its not like I can yell at them about being rude!! 

I took my girls to a middle school football game tonight.  I have a special place in my heart for all of my former students and tonight, I had several of my former students playing on the team and then others who were cheerleaders!  It's amazing to me that my first full year of teaching - those kids are in 8th grade now!!  I saw lots of old students and they change so much!  I didn't even recognize some of them!  I went with my 2 best buds and former co-workers.  We all had those kids through the years and it was good to get to hang out with them.  (The team lost though!)

So I have a day of training tomorrow and I am excited to get a day away!  The training is also real close to my house, so I can actually go HOME for lunch!  Then I don't have to worry about what I'm eating! Plus it's free!!  I have to get to bed b/c I have to get up early.  Hope you are all staying on track!!

RIP Boomer

Good and Bad News

The good news is I had a great week of eating and had a loss on Friday.  I went to dinner and hung out with one of my friends from work last night and we all had a great time (I had the kids with me too).  We went to an ice cream place after dinner and I shared one with my 4 year old.  And, even though we shared, we couldn't finish it!  My friend is one of those people that you laugh with - a lot - and we just had a lot of fun.  She also introduced us to the Wii Fit game.  We are ADDICTED and hopefully I'll find one for my DD for Christmas!!

Now, the bad news...our dog, Boomer, is not doing well.  He's an 8 year old Golden Retriever and has been in fairly good health until now.  Last week he started coughing a lot and then started coughing up blood.  My parents took him to the vet and even a special vet and they did all kinds of tests.  They found a bunch of tumors in his lungs and he's really having trouble breathing.  They've given him steroids to help with that and there are times that it does seem better, but other times it seems worse.  He hasn't eaten much today and we've been trying to give him the good stuff (people food).  You may think it's silly, but please keep him in your prayers.  As much as we love him, we hate seeing him in pain.  We just have to wait and see. 

I hope you all are doing well on your journey!!

Another good day...

Stayed on track and didn't eat any extras!  I worked late and got home late, so I'm exhausted, but still ready to watch the finale of BB!! 
Tomorrow I have a half day b/c my girls have dentist appointments in the am.  I'm looking forward to not having to rush off to school! 
Hope you are all staying on track as well!!

Today was a good one...

Both today and yesterday were good days on the eating front!  I've been watching the calories and so far so good.  I've also been drinking lots of water which is a plus!  I guess I'll just take one day at a time and hope this works! 
I'm exhausted and off to bed!  Good luck to all!

I'm back!!

Basically, I haven't been on here because I haven't been on track.  But, this is my place to own up to my issues, so here I am.  I have decided that (something I've always known) I LOVE TO EAT!  And sometime that thought takes over my mind and I don't eat sensibly!  I think I blame that on hunger.  Sometimes I wait too long to eat and then I'm starving to I want something to fill that NOW!  I enjoy what I'm eating when I'm eating it, but I'm always regretful afterwards when I get to that "too full" feeling.  I had that yesterday.  I went to drop my daughters off to their dad and we ate Mexican.  Then, since they were gone, I called up one of my friends to go to dinner!  We had Chicago style deep dish pizza.  Afterwards, we went to a place called Choxotica.  The name itself should tell you it's not a good place to go when you are watching your weight!  I sampled a few different kinds of chocolate (super small pieces) and that could have been OK, but I also chose to get an iced coffee with chocolate in it too.  Add that to the already overstuffed feeling - get the picture?  I just think that I don't know how to say no!  Plus, when my girls are gone, I like to stay busy and need people around me for that.  PLUS, the girlfriend I called to go to dinner with is pregnant, so her diet is not her main concern!  (Now, I mean, she's not having to cut back on a lot). 

Anyway, while sitting in church and Sunday School this morning I realized that this is not something I can do on my own.  I am a strong believer in God and so I know that I MUST have some help here.  So, I'm going to give it to him to help me with these issues!  Control issues are what they are mostly!  I have kind of lost control of my eating and I need to get back on track.  I've done the Weight Watchers thing before and I know it works, but I don't have the time or money for meetings right now.  I have also found I've been spending too much time on the computer and not enough doing other things lately, so the online version of WW is out too.  I've lost control in that situation as well!  (I'm a bit of a mess if you couldn't tell!)  So, I'm thinking of a few things that could work for me.  Counting points on my own or counting calories.  I'm going back and forth on which to try.  But, my main thing that has to be done is the journal.  I need to be accountable for my actions.  I need to get on here and I need to write down my food each day.  I KNOW this will help me. 

Ok, I have to get offline now as I must do some things before I go get the girls. Thank you to those of you who took the time to read this and I hope you are all doing better than me!!

it's been a long week

So here it is, finally Saturday!  It has been a LONG week.  We returned from Miami last Monday around 8 pm.  We visited my college roommate and her husband near West Palm on our way back home.  (Even though that's not really on the way...)  Basically I had time to unpack, get the girls cleaned up and go to bed!  Then we had our 4 days of school.  We've had some changes this week and I am getting 2 new kids on Monday.  One class was getting split up due to low numbers, so we all get some new kids.  I met them on Friday and they seem nice.  My class is AWESOME so far this year, so I hope these new kids will only add to it! 

Friday, after school, I went with my oldest dd's youth group to Rock the Universe at Universal Studios.  That is several Christian bands that play and they keep the park open late.  We rode rides and had a great time, BUT, got home REALLY late!  I am about 2 hours from Orlando and driving at night is not my thing.  But, we got home ok and went right to bed.  We slept in this morning and then I was off to help my friend move.  I feel like I got LOTS of exercise, both last night with all the walking, and today with the lifting and moving (upstairs) of stuff!  Hopefully that will make a difference in the scales. 

So, that's my hectic life!  Sorry it seems I haven't been around, but I AM here!  And still going strong!!

TGIF!

I am so thankful it's Friday!  The a/c was working again today.  There was a time when we thought it was off, but it was on again later, luckily.  I gained today, but that would be b/c I haven't been trying like I should!  I agree that I've been totally stressed lately (I agree with Gwynn that is) and it's hard to stay on track! 

I'm off to the Miami area tomorrow with the girls.  So, I have to go pack.  Yes, I am a procrastinator!!  I'm also doing laundry, but that's so we don't have to do it when we get back on Monday.  Hope you all enjoy your LONG weekend!!

Can you feel it?

There WAS a/c today!  But, apparently, it was just rigged to work and not really fixed!  So, we'll see how long that works!  I am not complaining though, I'll take the a/c however I can get it! 

I got a lot done at work today - I wonder why?!  It was a good day and I still drank LOTS of water. 

That's all for now.  I'm exhausted and off to bed!!