I'm back!!

Basically, I haven't been on here because I haven't been on track.  But, this is my place to own up to my issues, so here I am.  I have decided that (something I've always known) I LOVE TO EAT!  And sometime that thought takes over my mind and I don't eat sensibly!  I think I blame that on hunger.  Sometimes I wait too long to eat and then I'm starving to I want something to fill that NOW!  I enjoy what I'm eating when I'm eating it, but I'm always regretful afterwards when I get to that "too full" feeling.  I had that yesterday.  I went to drop my daughters off to their dad and we ate Mexican.  Then, since they were gone, I called up one of my friends to go to dinner!  We had Chicago style deep dish pizza.  Afterwards, we went to a place called Choxotica.  The name itself should tell you it's not a good place to go when you are watching your weight!  I sampled a few different kinds of chocolate (super small pieces) and that could have been OK, but I also chose to get an iced coffee with chocolate in it too.  Add that to the already overstuffed feeling - get the picture?  I just think that I don't know how to say no!  Plus, when my girls are gone, I like to stay busy and need people around me for that.  PLUS, the girlfriend I called to go to dinner with is pregnant, so her diet is not her main concern!  (Now, I mean, she's not having to cut back on a lot). 

Anyway, while sitting in church and Sunday School this morning I realized that this is not something I can do on my own.  I am a strong believer in God and so I know that I MUST have some help here.  So, I'm going to give it to him to help me with these issues!  Control issues are what they are mostly!  I have kind of lost control of my eating and I need to get back on track.  I've done the Weight Watchers thing before and I know it works, but I don't have the time or money for meetings right now.  I have also found I've been spending too much time on the computer and not enough doing other things lately, so the online version of WW is out too.  I've lost control in that situation as well!  (I'm a bit of a mess if you couldn't tell!)  So, I'm thinking of a few things that could work for me.  Counting points on my own or counting calories.  I'm going back and forth on which to try.  But, my main thing that has to be done is the journal.  I need to be accountable for my actions.  I need to get on here and I need to write down my food each day.  I KNOW this will help me. 

Ok, I have to get offline now as I must do some things before I go get the girls. Thank you to those of you who took the time to read this and I hope you are all doing better than me!!