where the hell did my motivation go???

has anyone seen it???

it was here about three weeks ago

it hasen't been seen for about 10 days and i hav eno leads as to it's whereabouts

i have been trying so hard to get back on track and this is my second day of my new week and both days i have gone off track

i can't quite put my fineger on what is holding me back 

what is it going to take to get my motivation back???

i didn't gain anything last week after all my screwing around and that was nothing short of a miracle

so why am i tempting fate again this week???

grrrr

so fed up with myself today

no gain but no loss either

i decided to jump on the scale to scare myself back to reality and it was actually very forgiving

i didn't loose but i didn't gain so i am pretty damn happy

now on to a new week and a new chance for a loss !!!!

indulge indulge and indulge some more

need i say more???

tomorrow i am right back on track

no more excuses i know how quickly i can undo the good i have done and I DO NOT  want to start all over maybe i will get weighed friday just to have reality kick me in the ass and then i can't be in denial about what has happened

so ashamed

i have given it alot of thought and i have decided to not do a weigh in this week

i have had another really lousy day  two good days this week isn't going to cut it

why can't i just give it my all and stick with it for more than a couple of weeks

got a cold groan

no walk yesterday

i felt ok when i woke up yesterday morning but felt worse and worse as the day went on.

stuffy nose and sore throat.

matthew and the girls had both been sick now that they are over it i've got it so far it's not as bad they had and i am really hoping it doesn't get any worse.

as for eating i stayed on track yesterday and am hoping for another good day today

thank goodness

yesterday was a good day

i managed to stay on target and actually feel like i'm back in control

i'm going to go for a walk today but will only do  2 laps of the lake today since my knee is still sore and i think three just pushed it a little to much

hope everyone is havinga great day

today is a new day???

hmmm  didn't i say that yesterday??

how can i possibly be out to sabatoge what i have done when it's only 10 pounds??

i really thought i would get further than this before having a set back 

in case you haven't already guessed yesterday was not a good day

i did ok until late afternoon and then the feasting began it was bad real bad

i have no excuses

i have no reason

i just ......

i don't know what has happened

friday is coming up fast and the thoughts of getting on the scale scares the hell out of me

i know i am not going in the right direction and i just can't seem to pull myself out of my downward spiral

hmm

not much else to say i guess

not so good friday night

so after reading justin's update and his addmission of having a cookie

i now feel the need to come clean (thanks alot justin  )

last night for dinner we went thru a drive thru and i had a burger well actually i had a bacon cheese burger and oh yeah of course i inhaled the fries as well

sigh

i'm not going to lie and say i hated it cause i didn't i sorta wish i had of but i really enjoyed it 

but today is a new day and i am right back on track it was one night and hopefully if i work really hard i will recover and the scales won't punish me next week

i can hope right??

bye bye bye

today i am saying good bye to another 4 pounds 

i was pretty nervous about my weigh in this week as i didn't go for a walk on weds. i think i pushed a little to hard on monday and i am still paying for it my right knee is so sore.

so for this week i am going to aim for 31 and 32 to point days (if i can shed one more pound next week i drop a points bracket so my max points will be 31 i may as well start practicing now  lol)

i am still drinking 2 litres of water everyday and i am thinking of adding another half litre but i may leave that for next week

i have been taking my vitamins everday and i think last night was the first night all week tht i forgot to take my thyroid medication

i have also uped my fruit and veggie intake to 2-3 servings a day which is huge for me as i am lousy with eating fruits and veggies

so i am hoping for another great week next week i only need to loose 3 more pounds to meet my first mini goal and i already have my next goal in mind

i hope everyone is having a great week!!!!

by the way has anyone figured out how to add a second tracker??? i have a second set up i have on e for mini goals and one for the long haul but only one shows up??

what the heck am i not doing to get it to show??

new features

ugh

i was just starting to think i had things figuredout and now new features!!

eek

anyway i have been messing around with the trackers and now have to figure out how badly i messed them up  lol

hope everyone is having a great week

ok what is the easiest way to keep track of the people on my friends list??

i am having a heck of a time finding my friends on this system i used to just go to the home page and look there but now i am havign a hard time     is there away to get to the blogs from my actual friends list???  i have never been able to figure it out

so i guess what i am asking is how do you get to your friends blogs??