03/29/2007 21:20
Once again, I emerge from the dead
The bad news: I've been eating like shiz-nit.
The good news: I've been walking like crazy so I'm getting in my training for The 3 Day Walk.
The bad news: I think I'm back to the start, poundage-wise.
The good news: I haven't weighed myself so I might be wrong.
Food for today has been terrible.
I had a 6" tuna Subway sub w/extra mayo on white bread. Chips. Cookies.
Cinnamon roll for breakfast.
Haven't had dinner yet, but I have been munching on chocolate marshmallow easter eggs....
Yeah. Not so hot in the food department.
But it's okay. Because I'm walking. And eventually, I will fix it.
03/12/2007 02:42
I'm Alive, I Swear
I'm alive, just fat and not dieting.
I'll write more in the next few days, but basically I'm feeling like a big huge slob. Like a failure. Miserable.
Uninspired.
Spineless.
Blob-like.
Which is why I haven't been blogging because really, who wants to read that? Nobody.
So give me a few days and I'll try to pull my shit together because this is really not so much fun at all right now.
02/20/2007 04:11
Coincidence? Not Really.
There is a definite correlation between my posting here and my dieting habits.
Post a lot? Things are going great. Not posting so much? Uhm, not going so hot.
So keep me posting!
I have apparently taken an extended break from eating healthy and starting when I wake up, I'm back on the diet. I was going to go back to phase 1 of South Beach, but the thought of another salad makes me want to gag, so phase 2, but restrictive, will be the ticket.
Brown rice and chicken meatballs for lunch tomorrow, yo.
Ugh. Please let the gain be small, please.... diet gods, forgive me.
02/14/2007 02:23
Busy Busy Dieter
Being a busy bee is not conducive to dieting, let me tell you that.
I'm still really busy so this will be brief, but I had a really magnificantly crappy weekend that included not one, but two slices of chocolate cake, cheesecake, and two fast-food meals. When I go bad, I go for broke, apparently.
Somehow, the scale still loves me though, and at todays weigh-in I lost that .5 lb I gained last week- now to make sure it doesn't show up again next week.
Be gone, I say, be gone!
My new attitude is this- my higest weight was 180. I'm at 171. I will NEVER allow myself to be over 175 again. When I'm at 165, that'll lower to 170. I'll give myself up to 5 lbs leeway, but once I'm down- I'm STAYING down, damnit.
I will NEVER be over 175 again. Never.
02/09/2007 01:47
Random Weight Loss Bits
-I was up .5 last weigh-in. Not so thrilled, but it was totally the Red Robin and the pizza. Nobody to blame, but me.
-I had an orange for a snack tonight and it just dawned on me that even if we had oranges at home, I NEVER would have reached for one a month and a half ago. Never. I would have gone straight for the chips that were a constant in our cupboards.
-I'm still trying to come up with some good meal ideas- especially portable, microwavable ones that I can take to work for lunches. Ideas?
What do you all think of the Extra Pounds updates? I'm not so sure how I feel...
02/06/2007 00:27
Days... uhm, I lost track.
So I made it through my two weeks unscathed and I delayed a few days before adding back in the whole-wheat breads and brown rice.
I'm settling into this diet thing, but this past weekend I broke- I had an absolutely delicious Red Robin burger on Friday night and then pizza on Saturday.
At first I felt guilty. And then I thought, you know what, this is okay. This isn't going to be a habit for me anymore because I LIKE how proud I am when I eat well. Eating poorly every once in a while isn't going to slow me down- it's an indulgence and will be treated like one- only every so often.
So it's all good. I think I was discouraged this last week from my last weigh-in. It was a week ago today and I had only lost 1.5 lbs. I know, I know, I know- 1.5 lbs a week is great, but I'm so driven by numbers and I really want instant results.
So. Focus focus focus, keep doing my thang and I'll get to where I want to be, right?
01/29/2007 01:59
Day 12
Wow, is it really day 12?
Things have gone very very well and I have to say that I'm feeling really proud of myself.
It hasn't been easy, but it's been exceptionally worthwhile and I feel so good. Can I keep riding this high all the way back down to 125?
One thing that I'm glad I've done is get the book my friend Meghann recommended- it's called The South Beach Good Fats Good Carbs Guide and it is wonderful.
It lists just about every type of food you can imagine and tell you what phase you can and can't eat it in. I learned, for example, that all the fat-free dressings I've been using are no-no's, however, the regular versions are just fine! (The reasoning being that the companies jack up the sugar in the fat-free versions and remove all fat including the good fats.)
So two more full days of phase one and I can move onto phase two and ohmygod, I'll be able to eat bread again. I'm debating throwing a cheat day into phase two. Once every two weeks on payday, I can eat what I want. Is that bad?
I'm just afraid that I won't be able to go without eating a really great fast food burger until I'm my goal weight (and even then it's technically off-limits.)
I don't want to slip back into old patterns. Once I slim back down, I want to STAY slimmed down.
I can't wait to be skinny again. I can't wait to show up to see my parents and extended family for Thanksgiving in November and just blow their minds with how I changed in one year.
I need to make this happen.
01/25/2007 02:20
Days 7 and 8
Things are definitely looking up. I think seeing the loss on the scale really made a difference in how I'm handling this diet.
I've been rather content with my lunches of salad- I added hard-boiled egg today, chicken yesterday. Tomorrow will be just salad.
Tonight's dinner, though, man was it good. And straight out of the South Beach book, to boot. We made the broiled flank steak and it was fabulous. I'll even go so far as to say that my broiled steak from the cookbook was better than Derek's steak making skills that he thinks are implanted into a man's brain at the same time a penis takes shape.
Goooood stuff.
The problem is that I'm fighting to stay OFF the scale. I'm a bit obsessed with numbers and so trying to just weight weekly is killing me. I weigh two or three times a day at home, but the only scale I actually count is the one at the gym.
Speaking of the gym- Heather and I are 3 for 3 days this week. Do we rock or what?
01/23/2007 01:17
Day 6 Bites The Dust
Another one down...
Today was not so bad. Perhaps I passed my worst point and now things will settle in? I can only hope.
I think part of what made today easier was stepping on the scale today at the gym and realizing I'm down 4.5 lbs from when I weighed on that same scale on Thursday.
Hallelujah, there is progress.
I had my regular salad for lunch, string cheese mid-morning, and some lean sausage and light cheese for an afternoon snack. Lean pork and broccoli for dinner and my life-saving fudgsicle for dessert.
Have I mentioned yet that the fudsicles are keeping me sane?
And the lovely Timothea1 has advised me that mayo is okay. I can eat tuna salad! Now... how do I eat it... I don't like it plain and I can't have crackers or bread. Wrapped in lettuce, maybe? Is that gross?
01/21/2007 23:49
D-Day 4 and 5
Ugh.
I am so sick of salads, let me tell you. But there's only so much you can do with so little options to work with. I can't wait until phase 1 is done and I can add some more into my diet! Then I can do fruit cups for lunch, or a sandwich on a whole wheat bagel.
Bread... mmm... NO. No bread. God, I swear, I'm dreaming about bread.
Day 2 was rough because, and I don't think I mentioned it before, I went to a concert and I had to stand in line at White Spot- a local hamburger joint that's hosted in the concert venue- to get my Diet Coke. The smell of the hamburgers and the thought of french fries had me practically salivating. But no. I got my Diet Coke and walked away- but that was HARD.
Yesterday was alright. For lunch I did well- we went to a pub and I got a chicken burger, but didn't eat the bun and instead of fries I got the salad. The bad part was that I used ranch dressing, but I really didn't like their low-fat options. I'm trying to recall what I had for dinner.... I think it was more chicken. Always with the chicken.
Today was the worst so far. I actually cried. I woke up after a lazy morning in bed and was looking through my cupboards and all I could think was how much I didn't want another freakin' salad. Then the husband called and he wanted to know what he should pick up for lunch. The ass even suggested that we give ourselves a treat and break the diet for a meal- get Burger King- and I cried. I wanted it so badly, but I also so badly want to be skinny. If he had brought it home, I would have had it, but fortunately he just went to the grocery store and we had an assortment of items that fit the diet, but didn't necessarily go well together.
Then it was off to a relative's house for a birthday dinner.... where there was Chinese food and birthday cake. Gah. I'm proud of us, though, we didn't touch any of it.
My want for good food is practically painful and I'm only 5 days through!
9 days left and I can have good, healthy breads... just nine days....
