So I am checking in on everyone because I feel like if I stay away too long then I will make "not" blogging a habit if that makes sense. 

Nothing much going on just still killing myself with all the extra OT I have been putting in.  Working 8am - 5pm and then from 6pm - 12mid is starting to take it's toll on me.  Sunday that just past I went on break  at the PT job and took a nap.  It's sad when you are at work, taking a power nap and you're dreaming of work .

I know, I know  I volunteered to take on this hectic life  I keep telling myself that Jan 7th is right around the corner (that's when all the vacationing staff return) Then I can go back to working out and trying to mantain a schedule.  I often find myself humming the Zumba songs and thinking constantly about belly dancing.

Despite my bad eatting habits lately, weight is still roughly 225 not bad, not bad.   I would still like to see myself as a shapely 185. LOL My cravings for salt have subsided.  I did some internet research and it was saying that my adrenal glands are stressed, and salt craving is a symptom.  It's not wonder I now have a cold (broken down immune system).  So I have vowed to start taking my meds daily. Hello multi-vitamin & HTZ. 

 I have purchased all but two gifts, and I had goodyear change my oil today.   Tommorrow I work 8am-5pm at the day job (It sucks that we have to work a full day on Christmas Eve) then I will leave for N.C to visit my folks (about a 4 hour drive). 

Ok everyone if you don't hear from me just know I am still on the wagon somewhat...just sitting waaay in the back huddled up in the corner. LOL 

Have a Blessed, Safe & Happy Holiday.

I'm feeling extra FAT today oh and let's add unattrative to the list.  

It all started when I  woke up this morning and it took me 20 minutes to find something to wear.   Someone  please nominate me for a  TLC "What to wear"  makeover.  I am so tired of my choices consisting of TOO BIG workpants and no option for dress shirts.  I thought I looked presentable until I saw myself in the glass door panel at work.   Sad I thought ..saggy black pants, and my shirt makes me look as if I am expecting.   

Lack of funds yesterday had me eatting from the dollar menu at lunch, then last night at work my co-worker bought everyone Fried Chicken for dinner.  Since I was not prepared and dashed from one job to the next I ended up indulging when I really didn't want to .   So I knew I had to have a salad today for lunch.  Did it happen?  NOPE!  I hobbled my FAT tail right on up to Chipolte for comfort food: 3 Soft taco's, cheese, chicken, rice, black beans, and extra sour cream.  

As I walked back to office  feeling sorry for myself.  I thought..hmm  Is FAT a state of being or a state of mind?  I mean maybe I feel fat because I ate the wrong foods yesterday and the extra salt which causes my body to retain water makes me miserable....to the point that I have to comfort eat to feel better but it's really backfiring? 

Whoo I have said alot!  I dunno, I just know tonight I am going home to do my mani/pedi/hair.  I am going to take a nice hot bath and maybe even eat a salad. 

Sorry for the confusing blog everyone.  I guess I needed to ramble today.

I went to the zumba class despite the rain and the fact that we had the another sub (reg instructor is out for 2 weeks on vaca) When I arrived there were only 9 people compaired to the usual 25.  I was the only plus size gal in the group.  Sooo I gave the small group a run for their money..LOL  

There was a part in the dance where we had to shout out some spanish word for "get it, get it"  I think it was "c-gay, c-gay" of at least that is what it sounded like and I was the only one participating. Everyone else was just going through the motions.  

I've enjoyed zumba for the past two days, it has really helped me to loosen up (sitting for 8hrs a day at a desk is no fun).   But I have decieded to put the classes on hold for a while.  We have a lot of OT availible at my PT job and since I will be moving within the next two months.  I am trying to get a much $$$ as possible.  I figure the extra cash can help with the new living room set and flatscreen tv I want. Part of me felt bad because I don't want to forgo Zumba.  So I am hoping I can just hit up the gym in the morning before work (ha this coming from someone who can barely get out of bed on a regular day.)

I'm not to sure how that will go since I get off at 12mid.  then I have to be at my day job by 8:15 AM.  I guess I will just have to make it work.  I want the extra cash, but I also want to continue on my path to healthiness.  So started today I will just eat healthy, try to do the gym thing in the AM and pray for the scales to go down.  LOL

Wish me luck!

1 out of 3

Ok so i have only been to Zumba class once this week.  I missed Tuesday and Wends early morning class.  I know I have to do better, it's just that I have been doing other things. Last night I went to check on furniture for the new place and the night before that I felt so bad (I've picked up a cold now )  I ended up treating myself to a pedi/mani. I thought the pampering would help me feel better. My body and eyes were hurting throughtout the whole thing. I ended up going home, eatting, drugging  up on cold meds and crashing in the bed.  

 Monday's Zumba class was fun but the little stinker was back.  I think I know which girl is passing gas in class she just plays it off and acts like its no big deal (it is to my nose!!) I mean I'm huffing and puffing trying to get in my cardio in and all of a sudden I get a whiff of rotted cabbage/meat/cheese, and whatever else you can think of.  I mean whoever is doing this can't possibly be eating vegetables. Oh and the girl that I am pinning this on was in the same area the last time I worked out.

NO MORE DRUGS!

I have been late to work  everyday this week, and as I stated I have picked up someone's germs.  Well my doc had given me an antihistamine to take to clear up my congestion ( i'm supposed to take the pill at night) So I do and I take a cup of tylenol cold & flu plus I rub my neck and body down in Ben-Gay and Vic's Vapor rub.  

Well every morning I am in a deep coma-like sleep.  I am dragging my feet, butt and everything else trying to get ready for work.  Yesterday while driving to work I almost side swipped someone trying to do a lane change. Oh and it took 2 cups of coffee for me to become somewhat normal.

I called the pharmacist today and she said that the prescription med side effects are : drowsiness, sore throat, and tiredness.  She also said that the codine in the tylenol cold & flu is what makes me so groggy.  So after today I am not taking any more cold meds.  I will just have to tough it up.

So all along I'm thinking the fatigue and sore throat was from the cold when actually it was also the prescription my doc gave me.   

My weight is back up to 230. No more cute 223 for me.  I tell because my stomach is sticking out and my eatting is horrendous.  I have been craving nothing but salt, chocolate, and other junk.  And my cycle is back to being MIA it's been gone for 2 months.  I guess it will come back once I get my weight under control.

Ok I have said enough I am off to check on everyone. 

Note to self:  If you continue to do nothing then you will fall off the wagon!! Do Something!

Ok so here I am looking dangerouly over the edge.  One more speed bump and I know I will fall off.  I can't seem to get it together.  I don't know what happened.  I just woke up one day tired, or maybe someone tricked me with some fatty foods?  LOL 

I know I can't blame anyone but me.  My body is screaming how unfair I have been treating it.  I ache from not working out, I'm upset at myself because I don't go to the "y" consistantly, and  the ring around my stomach is starting to protrude again .

I hate feeling like this...tired all the time and feeling like I haven't sleep in weeks.  Oh and I won't mention all the crap I've been putting in my body!

I don't know what happened.  I'm  was so gun-hoe about working out.  Now it's hard to even blog. (I think about you guys all the time) but I my fingers are too tired to do the walking. I am just soo lazy. 

Yes things in my life are becoming hectic but that is no excuse to not workout or pig out.   Part of me wonders if I became lazy because I saw some results?   And if that is the case why did I think it was an invitation to be so relaxed to the point of sitting around eatting as if I was Jabba-the-Hut.

Oh well I know for sure that I 'll go to Zumba tonight.   I just hope I can keep up with everyone else.  Until then I will just keep dangling on the edge.

I'm a Man-i-ac... Man-i-ac... for sho-ore...

And I'm work-ing out, like I've never work-ed out be-fo-ore

Yes I know my singing sucks but thats how I felt this morning after waking up at  6AM for Zumba class.   I am not a morning person at all so in the beginning it was a bit difficult to gather up my engery.  But... after the first 4 songs I was doing my thang.  There were only three of us in class, two guys and myself.  Later on another girl came in that I knew from the previous "Y".   The class was over at 6:45 so I jumped in my car (beacuse DC starts towing at 7am due to rush hour) and sped up the street.  I still have to shower, get dressed, and rush to work.

Who's that girl...

 I know that is what everyone was thinking when I went to the "Y" last night.  I had been MIA for like 1-1/2 weeks now.  As soon as I stepped in Mrs. Brenda gave me this look and asked "where have I been".  Then when I went upstairs to the locker rooms Mrs. Carol asked the same thing.  LOL.  I assured them both that I was back. (Especially since the holidays and temptations are going to be everywhere).

Last night during Zumba ended up behind a newbie.  She clearly did not know which she should turn because she was in my way.  Then someone had the nerve to pass gas .  It was bad enough the class is way larger than the room.  Anyway it was a good workout.

Next up I went to the areobics room to visit my old buddy, stationary bike and as I was walking up the stairs guess who I ran into???  NEAL.. yup the cutie who used to be my trainer.  We chatted for a minute and then he was off.  Hmmm guess I should come the "Y" more often.  Anywhoo I did 20 minutes on the bike then went home.

Tonight it bellydancing class.  I will update you guys on that class later.

Trips/Social life

Still single with no chance of someone new in my life. 

I went to see a friend of mine in NC over the weekend, the trip was 6 hours long and it seemed as if it took forever going and coming home.  I went alone and wish I had never went on the trip.  We didn't do anything exciting, and she kept ranting and raving about this new guy in her life. I am happy for her but I felt like my driving 320 miles to see her revolved around the time she also had with him.  I was so pissed when she changed our dinner plans.  Her kids and I wanted to go out to eat, but she picked him up, and then told us that he was tired and that we could just grab some carry-out and go back to her house.

She kept trying to hook me up with some of his friends and I was just not up for it. I thought we would do stuff like get a mani/pedi, chat and catch up on things. OH well.  it may be a while before I go back to visit.

Work

So while in NC, there really was nothing to do besides eat.  Every 1-1/2 hour her kids were talking about food.  I was like you have got to be kidding me.  I did pretty good I only ate 1/2 of my food when ever we did eat.  Sadly we didn't eat anything healthy, everything was fast food.  So I am glad to be back.  I am seriously going to start guzzling water and eating veggies.

My weight is back up to 226  but I am going to start going back to the "y" faithfully.  I have been slacking for the past 3 weeks and I really want to get rid of this ring of fat around my belly and see 200 by the end of the year.  I am sick of looking like a regular person from the waist down and a Fat girl from the waist up.