Help is on the way

Feed Meee!!!   

LOL...ok so yesterday for some reason I was soo hungry. Maybe I didn't eat enough, or maybe I need to add more protein to my meals.  I have to get my eating under control.  I always teeter between not eatting enough or not the right things.  Below is yesterdays food list: 

• I had 1/2 cup of oatmeal and some water for breakfast.   ( I am proud to annouce that I did not take part in bagel day whoo hoo!!)
•  I snacked on some sunflower kernals and dried cranberries until lunchtime. 
• Lunch consisted of a Lean Cusine meal  (310 cal) and a cup of  green tea. 
• more sunflower kernals and cranberries
• Spinach Dip and  Lime Tortia Chips  (pre workout snack)
• Turkey and Pastrami on Wheat wrap w/ lettuce and tomato
• 2 bottles of water .5 liters each
• 1/4 cup of frozen fruit w/ wipped cream (tossed in trash b/c it tasted nasty)
• 1/2 of shortbread which became 1 whole shortbread (100 cal) w/whipped cream (50cal) ...it tasted like a twinkie  

Not so scared anymore...

I went to workout yesterday and as soon as I walked into the aerobics room I noticed that there were already some  people using the machines.   My first thought was to wait until the room emptied out...but I was determined not to be afraid so  I walked over to an empty treadmill and I noticed that a magazine was on it.  I kindly asked the guy running next to me if the machine was in use.  It wasn't so I hopped on and did my workout.  ( I secretly though the guy  next to me was trying to peek and watch my time), Maybe it was all in my head.  He did a run for few mintues followed by  walking  for  a few minutes while on the TM.

The results are in....

Well I am pleased to annouce that I was finally able to walk 1mile in under 20 minutes (normally it's like 22 minutes but it was 19.5) and I was able to do 1.5 miles in under 30 minutes.  I reved the TM up to 3.4 and my short legs were moving..LOL  My grand total  was 42 minutes.   WHoo Hoo!!  Maybe one day I will be able to run on the treadmill.

Help is on the way...

While in the weight room Barb, the FD attendant came in and asked if I had met Neal the new trainer... Well let me say Neal was a cutie as we shook hands I was taking in all his features...Caramel complextion, Nice neat golden brown dreads,  brown freckles, white teeth.  Anyway starting Monday Neal is going to take my measurements, current weight, and show me how to use all the machines.    As we talked he showed me how to work my abs more,  and how to use some of the machines.  You know they don't look as complex as they used to.  Anyway I found out that Neal is a boxer and he had been coming the that YMCA for about 3 years now.

Anyway I am looking forward to working with Neal. 

Have a good weekend everyone.

Feeling Blah

Just soo tired....Ok so I usually don't suffer from allergies but yesterday I was congested, developed  a headache, and  had the sniffles.  Why me??  I just fought off a cold last week, anyway  today  seems to be a little better.  I still have the sniffles and  I feel really tired.  I ended up being late again this morning.    (Booo.... I have  to do better).  For some reason I am just NOT a morning person...never have been.  Why can't I be one of those jump up at the crack of dawn, cheery types   that everyone hates?  Speaking of hate.....

I hate the scale Ok so the scale told me I am back up to 242    Whyyy??!!  I know that this working out and eating right thing will take time but Shoot!!!   Can't the scale at least reflect some of how my body looks??   (Oh by the way , I can now make  muscle ... with a little bit of flab hanging under my arm)  LOL... B4 it was just flab hanging.  Why can't the scale show that in numbers. or the fact that my jeans look good on me.  Maybe it was the pizza from Friday.   I have read blogs where pizza tend to make the scale go up, or maybe  it was the BBQue I ate two days ago making me bloat.  I dunno but I am not happy

I missed the gym...but was still moving....  After work I came home and washed the clothes, and ate some veggies for dinner.  After that I decided to hit the gym when all of a sudden....  My mp3 player batteries were low!!   I do not work out without my music.  I just can't.... it's my way of motivating myself  ex. when a fast song comes on walk faster.., a slow song means I just walk s-l-o-w.   It's also my safety net I get to tune people out  (if they are talking about me, which they are not but growing up overweight and being picked on you tend to think people are watching and talking about you) So after searching for "AAA" batteries and finding none I ened up going to the mall and the grocery store.  I seriously have to upgrade to an i-pod or something, my cheap little mp3 is causing me to miss out on gym time...lol

So no workout yesterday, Oh and I can't workout Friday beacuse I have to work late.... Boooo.   That means I only worked out two days this week.   Maybe next week will be better.

Thanks to everyone who have been reading my blogs and leaving positive feedback!!  You guys are the best!!! 

Another Day Another Dollar

Sleepless Nights = Me  hugging the sheets...Well that was the case this morning. I started back taking my Phen pills ( why I don't know) I can never seem to remember to take them B4 10am. But anyway I took a pill yesterday and went to bed by 10:30.  At 3am I was up and ready to start the day, but I made myself lay in bed until I went back to sleep.  Needless to say I overslept  .

A typical workday... Well I arrived to work late and so did everyone else including the supervisor.  I was kinda pissed because my one of my co-workers called off.  It seems las if  she is always missing a day for something.  I seriously started to call out today but I consider things like how will it would be less stress on everyone else if I came in.  

I guess I am making a fuss over it because I sit at the front desk.  When we are short of staff it affects not only me but will set the tone of the day especially if the person just called off.  For me it's  who will I call to cover so I can grab a quick bite, or use the restroom.   Things that people who can move around freely take for granted.  Example:  we were short one girl and the other came in late  so  today my breakfast consisted of  1bottle of water and a handful of sunflower kernals.   I know how pathetic  I had new box of oatmeal here at my desk and couldn't even enjoy it.

Chocolate is Nasty...Since Breakfast was sad I waited and waited and finally was able to have the late person cover the desk for a few.  We decided to order Chinese for lunch which ment I would have to wait another hour before eatting.  So I went downstairs looking for something healthy.  I ended up getting a banana and a small peice of chocolate. 

Funny thing is when  I popped the chocolate in my mouth, it didn't satisfy me like it normally would.  When I am stressed anything cake-like or chocolately normally soothes my frazzled nerves...but today was different.   I guess it's true if you go without something for a while you don't really miss it. 

Getting Back in Gear

Well the holiday weekend in officially over.  I won't bore you with the details of my holiday, I had no plans and no bar-b-ques to attend.  I did however at my lowest point eat almost a whole personal size pizza on Friday  and I at some ribs very, very late last night or this morning ( depends on how you read the clock) .  But it's ok because today I am moving forward.

A visit to the doc...Ok so I started my a.m with a doctors appointment.  I love this doc to death she is an African American doctor and very down to earth.  She told me that if I wanted to have kids I could but  since I don't ovulate I would have to see the fertilty doc.  That's good news beacause the last doc made me mad by suggesting I get LAP-BAND surgery.  OK so now all I have to do is find a mate and get married...LOL  Oh I was a little upset becaue her scale said I weighed 244 when my digital one said 240  this morning.

Working my @ss off .....Since I have been seriously slacking with my workouts (aka haven't been to the gym in 5 days )  I decided to forgo the zumba class tonight and I went back to basics.  I jumped on the treadmill and walked for 30 minutes at a 3.2 level and 5 minutes for a cool down.  Then I jumped on the eliptical machine and I am proud to say I did 11 whole minutes on that beast !!!  WHOO HOO!!!!   I really dislike that machine and didn't think I would be able to handle it but I did.  My skin was starting to sweat and when went into the restroom, I noticed I had little sweat circles under my arms.   I know its TMI but it's a first for me.  After that I did some weigh lifting in the weight room. 

I really like the fact that the ymca was empty.   I basically had it all to myself as far as exercise was concerned.  They were having an open house because they have a summer camp during the day.  They had nice decoration and popcorn....mmmmm... popcorn.  But I did good I just chugged some water and walked back home.

Hope everyone had a good weekend.

Late Blog

Late blog

Ok so I am very late with my blog today.   Sorry guys it's just that I really don't feel like doing anything today at all.   Honestly I didn't do too much, its very slow here at work.   I should have taken off Friday but I decided to take off Tuesday instead.

Avoiding Temptation... somewhat Yesterday  was my dad's b-day. As soon as I walked in the door to the house my mom shouted out " There's some Fried Chicken from Popeyes in the Fridge"... " Oh and I saved you some biscuits".  LOL   I  am please to report that I was good  and I didn't fall for it.  I ate my baked chicken from yesterday along with some veggies

But I did fall for the cake  It started out a half of a slice w/ ice cream and then after dinner I went back for the other half of my slice w/ ice cream.   Can we say "GREEDY".

Skipping the gym.... Not a good sign

Ok so this makes day # 2 that I have not been to the gym.   I ended up talking  to my mom about my sisters baby shower  that we are putting together.  Granted it't not until July but time has a way of catchin up with you when you least expect it.   By the time we went over the plans and  the set up for the event it was getting too dark outside.   Boooo...  I think that will be rule #2 Don't let anyone get in the way of the exercise plan (that include myself).   Is it just me or are there times when you have plans to workout and someone comes along and you are doing something totally differernt?

The only way to lose weight  (for me) is to develop a routine... I love mom to death but I should have went to the gym first then talked about the shower.  If my routine is done sporadically then it won't become a habit. 

Ok I have said enough... it's actually getting close to quitting time.  WHOO HOO.. Have a good weekend everyone!!!!!

Trying to be consistant

Yesterday I did well by avoiding the doughnuts and I ate very light at work.  So light that breakfast  looked like this :

• Nutrigran bar                                   140 Calories
• 10oz Tropicana Apple Juice         140 Calories
• 4 oz Cup of Chai Tea

Lunch

•  Delmonte Natural Grapefruit slices    160 Calories
•  Keebler Peanut Butter Crackers          240 Calories

Eatting light was a big mistake!!!  Plus looking back there really wasn't enought protein in my meals to keep me full.   I was soo starved by the time I got home.   I ended up baking some chicken,  but I knew it would take a while to cook, Needless to say  I caved in and ordered a stromboli from the local carryout. 

I did eat less than half it and I offered some to my dad. (Hey when in doubt spread it out)  I always say  . Hopefully that was not as many calories as it could have been  for me.   I also must confess that I made a strawberry shortcake.  I used the shortbread (100cal), fresh strawberries, and a little whipped cream.   

Dinner was so good but I felt so bad about not eatting the baked chicken and veggies, plus I didn't even go to gym.   Why is am I getting lazy??  I know I can be my worst enemy but I really feel like I am slacking and need to see more results.

I have to do this,  I want to be healthy.  I don't want to end up like my granmother, aunt, mom and dad who are diabetics.  I can't keep slipping   I have to remain focused.  I can and will do it. 

Breathe Tay...Breathe.

Oh and rule #1 which I will enforce after grocery shopping this weekend.  Be prepared.  All meals and snacks will/nust  be planned in advance, this will leave no room for errors.

P.S I tried posting my pic on the site, hopefully you guys can see my fat face..LOL

Walking over the hump called Wednesday

Just 5 more minutes....For some reason I have been having problems waking up in the morning.  I thought I would be energized since  I have been working out.  My bed time has always been like 10ish -11ish.   Maybe its because I haven't been taking my phen like I should (even when I took it on a regular I didn' t think it was working) but I was able to wake up with no problems. Plus I have been slacking with taking my vitamins. 

Just say NO!..Since I was running  late and  failed to put gas in the truck yesterday I had to stop by the gas station this morning.  It was past my normal breakfast time and I was sooo hungry .    While in the gas station I was looking around for something  quick to eat.   Well the first thing I grabbed was a package of  Hostess Powdered Doughnuts   that was a big NO-NO,  plus I looked at the calorie content and it said 340.  So I put it back on the shelf, paid for the gas, and left the station.  Whoo Hoo one point for me!

The scale can be cruel

I have been working out for about two-three weeks now and I can feel a difference and see some slight changes.  Since I have  been fighting a cold I have been increasing my fluids.  Yesterday I had:

• One 12 oz bottle of water
• 4 cups of tea
• One 6 oz bottle of orange juice

Needless to say with all the liquids I have been going to the bathroom pretty much ALL DAY!!  LOL Anyway I  jumped on the scale yesterday morning and before my workout it said 240.  After my workout the scale read 237.  When am I going to lose and keep off this stupid water weight?  Am I ever going to get past 237?  RRRR its this part of working out that makes me upset but at least I can say I don't feel right if I miss a day at the "Y" .

Working through the illness....Since coming down with a cold last Friday I haven't been working out.  Yesterday was Zumba day at the gym and I can't bear to miss that class.  So even though I had been sick I still went to workout.  I will admit I was a little winded, but I stuck with it and felt good in the end.   I  will admit I took off my shoes mid workout.   I like to workout w/o them at home.  One of the girls in class looked at me like I was crazy.  Was that a no-no?  I mean it was just aerobics, it's  not like I was on the treadmill.   What is your opinion.. Should you work out with or without shoes?    

Weekend Confessions

 This weekend was ok.  I did go to the circus and saw a couple of movies but I have to confess to everyone here in EP land that I did not do good this weekend at all with my eating habits. Although I did wake up with a cold on Friday, I won't blame the cold for making me eat crap this weekend. I will accept the blame.  The crimes have been listed below for all to see:

Friday:

• Breakfast 1/2 of McDonald's  Pankcakes & Sausage
• I went to a chinese buffet with a friend: I picked over my food and had one plate
• Later we went to the movies: I had 3 soft chocolate chip cookies and twizzlers.

Saturday

• Ate oatmeal for breakfast  and had subway turkey & swiss on wheat bread for dinner
• But had strawberries, whipped cream, and chocolate syrup as a sweet
• Oh and lets not forget the bubble gum ice cream at the mall

Sunday

• Toast with butter & jelly for breakfast
• Pizza and baked french fries for lunch
• Bread with more butter and jelly ( dinner)
• Chocolate milk w/ fig newtons
• More strawberries, whipped cream, and chocolate syrup

It was just not good. Damn PT job! I must do better  with eating on the weekends.  That right there is my downfall.  I think I will start bringing my breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks  from here on out .

Since I want to see more results, here are the goals for the next couple of weeksl :

• Get up in the a.m and do my Prevention DVD plus weight lifting
• Drink more water
• Start counting my calories
• Start water aerobics either this week or next week

Happy Losing everyone

Beating myself up...

Missing a day @ the Gym

OK so I skipped going to the "y" yesterday.    I know, I know, it just that I felt kinda tired, plus I needed to handle the monsterous load laundry that was starting to fight it's way out of the dirty clothes hamper.  So I just did laundry and ate some left over steak stir fry.  I felt bad for not going to the gym.  Once I got the the willpower and strength to go.... it was time for them to close (Booooo)

Why do the changes take so long ??? 

I decided to change out of my work clothes and put on something more relaxed before washing the clothes.  As I changed outfit after outfit, I looked at myself real good in the mirror.  Here are my findings:

•  My legs look good, calfs are tight and slender
• Back of the leg  looks good
•  My tush has lifted and has a little curve to it.  (no more flat tush!!)
• From waist down I have a nice hourglass shape going on. My thighs still touch but they are not as jiggly.
• My stomach does not "stick out" as far as it used to.
• My "wings" look like an actual arm when I try to make a muscle

But... the top half of my body is still an issue.    

•  I still have "muffin top" and it is visable w/ every shirt I put on
•  My muffin top has dimples  
• My back fat is still an issue
• I haven't lost any more weight according to the scale

I guess I will have to search online for some back and ab exercises.  Why can't I lose weight from the stomach down instead of from the legs up?

Feeling Beefy

Where's the beef??

Ok so today for lunch I am having a cheeseburger and a salad.  I know I have to increase my veggie intake, but lately I have been wanting some protein... not just nuts and eggs.  So last night's dinner was steak stir fry and today's lunch is cheeseburger.

Daddy's Girl

As long as I could remember I have always been " chubbs" to my dad.  I wasn't sure if I wanted his answer to my question, but I always ask people of their opinion so I asked him " Dad do you think I should have lap band surgery?"  He told me that going to the gym was the right thing to do and that the women on my moms side have always been short and plump.  He said that those genes play a huge part in my makeup and that surgery is not the answer. 

Zumba ( class #2)

Ok so yesterday's class was pretty good.  It wasn't as intense as last week.  I found out that the teacher from last week was the advance teacher for the Mon/Wends class.  Whew !!  I must admit I was ready to sweat but at the same time a little nervous.  I didn't go to far astray this time with following the movement of the instructor.

Yoga makes me sick

Well after zumba I was kinda interested in Yoga.  I spoke to the instructor and she said that I could watch and participate.  I informed her that I had never did Yoga before and she assured me that it was ok.   Soooo.. I got on the mat and we did some circular hip moves... at first I felt funny.  Then after a series of stretches and deep breathes we did the floor exercises.  We had to put our butts against the wall and put our legs straight on the wall. Then we wiggled our toes,  I was following along good until I looked over towards the instructor then the room started spinning, I felt dizzy, then nauseous .  At that point I sat up and tried to compose myself. 

Everyone assured me that the first time is rough and if I continued I would feel better.  I ended up leaving the class and walking home.  I s-l-o-w-l-y  walked home.  It took a minute to compose myself.  I don't think yoga is for me.