05/11/2009 16:05
Abandonment!
Yep I have successfull abandoned this site for tooo long now. I didnt do it on purpose I have had alot of stuff to deal with lately so what went out the window first?....Yes you guessed it my DIET. I ate like a pig to try and make myself feel better. The gist of it all is that I have moved out of my home town last year to live with my boyfriend and I graduated last July and im still looking for a job....So im living in a different town where i know noone have no friends or family here, Im adjusting to living with my Boyfriend for the first time which i have found really hard plus I have been unemployed for nearly a year now which upsets me the most i just cant find a job Im either over qualified or dont have enough experience....Will someone every give me a break?. Well all this brought me into depression land where my morale is low and i eat everything to make me feel just a little better. There i said it...well on a positive note I havent been dieting but i have just majorally cut down on my portions and eating and i got weighed today and it said 11 stone 12.5 pounds. Isnt it ironic that when I actually tried to diet I couldnt get into the 11 stoners and now when I stopped trying and just ate a little less i actually MADE it. Sods law ehhh.
Well this has spured me on to get back into exercising and losing weight as that will make me feel great even though i still have a lot of shit to deal with. Its also spured me on to be truthfull to myself, admit to what im feeling and to use this site again as I really miss it. xxx
I better get catching up on how u guys are doing? Hope ur doing fantastic
04/01/2009 14:04
Little bit bad little bit good.
I cant believe its wednesday already where do the days go soon it will be weigh day again. Monday... I did what i said I wasnt going to do I had a takeaway for my tea yep I know very naughty and stupid so I am making a conscious effort to not have any more and cook all this week hopefully I can make up the points.
Tuesday...food wise I was good and I went for my first run of the week 4 program. Ouch I think it actually killed me...I was exhausted all night couldnt bebothered to move or do anything and I was abit crabby so ending up having an argument with the other half for stupid reasons. I wish he would understand that when I am like that its best to leave me alone mind you. Surprisingly today my muscles are not that sore I expected to be in pain today however I am still shattered couldnt get up this morning and cant bebothered to do anything at all...It feels like I need to go back to sleep for 8 hours. Hope I wont feel like that after my run on thursday.
03/30/2009 14:11
Back to loosing.
I have just got weighed and I have lost 1.5 pounds this week which is brilliant that means that 1.5 pounds of fat that i put back on my body last week has gone off again. So now I am back to been 12 stone 1 lb. woot. This has spured me on to do well this week and finally get into the 11's.
I wasnt the greatest last week though I ran 2 times which is good so I am finally moving on to week4 of the C25k but I had 3 take aways last week that is not good at all I need to reduce this down to ZERO or maybe one if my points will allow.
My plan for success this week is to:
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Run week 4 of the C25k 3 times.
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On the days there is no running do my wii fit for at least 30 minutes.
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Drink lots and lots of water.
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Be conscious of what I am eating....I will stop eating while watching tv etc as I go on auto pilot.
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Make healthy choices and track my points!!!
03/26/2009 17:11
Getting better.
I think i have earned myself a couple of brownie points.
Yesterday I went for my RUN and to my shock week 3 wasnt that bad so my fitness didnt drop too much one thing i noticed though was my arse wobbling...YUK i hate that. Just hope that goes soon its so uncomfortable and gross. So my plan is to run friday and sunday doing week 3 still and start week 4 on tuesday.
Also I bit the bullet and got my telling off from my wii fit....I got weighed and it said i stayed the same weird so hopefully come monday on official WI I wont see a STS or Gain but a loss.
My food has majorally cut down from last week so thats positive. Im not having those huge cravings to go to the shop and buy lots of chocolate bars so fingers crossed it stays that way and I get completly back on track.
03/25/2009 16:08
Goal re-evaluation.
WEIGHT GOAL
Current Weight ......12 stone 2.5 pounds
9 More weigh in before Race For Life.
so Im doing a 9/9 challenge...9 Pounds in 9 weeks (very achieveable)
So target weight for race for life.......11 stone 7.5 pounds (wow I would feel fantasic).
RUNNING GOAL
So I have completed only 3 weeks of my c25k training (thats assuming my fitness hasnt gone done with not training for over a week)
So end of this week I will do week 3 training again to get my fitness back to that level (I want to get in at least 2 runs this week 3 if i can go tonight)
so that leaves me 8 weeks...with 6 weeks left of my training program left to do and the other two weeks trying to increase my distance to 5k and increase my speed.
I dont have much leeway now so i cant miss any other runs and I must keep on schedule. In addition to this I must go on the wii fit and beat Morcal score on the step and also do some of the muscle training, I will also pick a program I like to watch on the telly and do free step on the wii fit while i watch it.
Goals set and written down. I am now accountable and now i have to achieve them.
03/23/2009 15:10
Three weeks thats all.
Three weeks has haunted my diet from the very beginning. After three weeks on the diet at the beginning my motivation went and i stopped dieting for a week or two but then i got myself back up and started again. Now three weeks into my C25K training program and guess what I didnt run once last week and my diet as been shot to hell...this has resulted in a 1.5 pound gain and to be honest I am happy with that gain as I was expecting for at least 3 lbs of fat to be stored back on my arse.
I havent blogged all week and i should of but i really hate to write negative posts, i hate to be all down in the dumps and its alot easier to right about the postive and good things. So what is it about these three weeks why are they a pain in my side and once again I have to have another week where i am trying to lose weight that i have recently gained. I dont want to YOYO i dont want to be putting weight on taking it off to putting it back on. I want my graph to go straight down and not look like a heart rate monitor, I want to run my race for life 5k race without stopping and i want to be slimmer by then too. So my bloody motivation has got to last more then 3 weeks as this is just mentally draining. My wii fit is going to have a go at me next time i get back on it....eeek.
oh well here is to a positive week.
03/17/2009 14:11
STS..Only myself to blame
Well this week I stayed the same, i worked my arse off during the week to bring back all those points i drank in alcohol and i thought i may just lose a little but the weekend won....This weekend has been the worst yet eating choc and take aways and the worst part of it was i didnt feel bad about it or care i just wanted to eat..that little bugger of a devil won again. AND to top it all off I have been feeling shit these past couple of days with a sodding cold so thats prob part of the reason why I ate so much when I feel shit my willpower just goes and because I have been ill i havent run for a couple of days so I am falling behind on my running program I need to catch up soon.
I didnt eat particularly well yesterday but i gotta get back on it as i want to be in the 11 stoners next week Im sick of been in the twelves..summer is right around the corner and i want to feel and look good. Does any1 know whether it is safe to run when you have a cold i dont want to make it worst but i need to get back running as that keeps my food on track. Another thing i need to get on this during the weekend I normally dont have a chance but at least if i blog a few lines it might give me the incentive to be good on them days and also read some lovely blogs.
Oh well thats my rambling rant over...at least it wasnt a gain. I will take that STS and lose next week.
03/12/2009 23:07
Ticked off another one.
Another day done woot...I went over on my points by a few but i did go for my run and was exercising for 40 minutes so i think i have banked enough exercise points to recover today. Although Ithe weekend is looming...everyone looks forward to the weekend but its the hardest diet days ever invented lol. Oh well just gotta take it one day at a time right? 
Gotta travel so much tomorrow so it is going to be a testing day for me, planning is the key so breakfast when i get up and i will buy a greggs mexican chicken salad sandwhich before i get on the train so i have my dinner sorted..might take an emergency bannana aswell. Problem is cant drink lots of water as i hate going on the toilet in train stations talk about YUK.
C25k progress....Ran with my sister again today on the mile circular track around the park. I ran for 8 mins non stop woot and finished the first mile in 12.30 minutes wow. i completed two further miles at the total time of 40.30 minutes so i have my milestone to work for the race for life 
. Something weird happened in the second mile I was quite struggling my breathing was getting heavy my legs where definatly getting heavy then all of a sudden i got into a weird zone where my breathing calmed done my mind was focussed on the goal of running and i ran a good more two minutes before I had to stop and catch my breath. Hehehe still loving it and just think 3 weeks ago i couldnt even run 30 seconds without stopping jsut goes to prove everyone can do it no matter what.
I think on my rest days of running I am going to do some resistance training as ive been reading the benefits of building muscle to burn more calories at rest so yes please i have some of that so my aim is try get a routine sorted which is good for me Im going to look into the muscle exercises on the wii fit and my davina dvd and get a routine thats good for my rest days. Jeeez if a squirell can do it so can I LOL. 
03/12/2009 00:33
Another day ticked off.
Today i mentally said to myself yep this is another day completed..take this thing one step at a time and that goal will be mine....I really want to lose over 1 pound this week to get out the fatty 12'stones and into the 11's even if its 1 and 1/4 pound i will take it.
So its the end of a good day I have eaten well today I havent calculated my points which i should do but I havent eaten alot today so i think i should be fine with my pointage also I choose to get out the house and walk to asda as we needed bread (i could of easily got a lift off my dad) i made the conscious effort to walk has i havent done anything today. and I managed walk around ASDA and not buy any chocolate (well i bought some for my dad but that doesnt count as i will eat none of it lol). OMG it was like a bloody temptation challenge that they have for the biggest looser the choc my dad wanted was surrounded all different kinds of choc mmm....and on the same isle was crisps and biscuits.....what a bloody nightmare but i won i didnt get anything for my self apart from a bottle of diet coke for the walk home woot. Also watched a movie with a sis and her friend. her friend asked if I wanted her to get me something to eat while we watch the movie and I said NO....woot. Good day for me.
Going for an morning run with my sister tomorrow so it will be another run which doesnt coincide with my training program but a run is a run and im actually looking forward to it. Night night everyone.
To everyone who has left me lovely comments...you have given me the motivation to carry on without your support I probably would be still eaten crap if it wasnt for you guys.