Grr....

I have tried to submit this post twice and it has been lost both times. I give up!

So the short of it is, I have been very busy but I have basically tried to stay as much on track as possible. I hope you are all doing well and having great weekends! SVs to all! GO PINK TEAM!!

Fell off the wagon

I totally fell off the wagon yesterday. I start off good but ended on a bad note. I  had an oatmeal square for breakfast and a big salad for lunch. Then when we got home from work, we found that one of our cats had an upset stomach and was unable to make it to the litter box quite a few times yesterday. So, I spent my 30 minutes of cleaning scrubbing up you-know-what. We changed the cats' food to something cheaper (trying to save a few pennys) and it didn't agree with her at all. So, we beelined to Wal-mart to get some of the regular stuff. By the time all that was taken care of, it was 8:30. we through a couple of frozen pizzas in the oven and that was my dinner. A bunch of frozen pizza and no exercise to boot.  Oh well, today is a new day and I will have to do the best I can.

Guilty conscious

Breakfast: Oatmeal square, coffee

I weighed this morning and it said 223lbs! Yaaay! 6lbs down. I really want to try to lost 4 more before we leave for New Mexico on the 30th. I doubt I will because TOM comes around then but I will take whatever little bit I can get.

Thanks for all your comments. I think I will just keep doing what I have been doing and hope for the best. There are days when I don't eat enough because I am not that hungry and days when I eat way too much because I can't get enough. I figure it will all balance itself out somehow as long as I have more "good" days than bad.

I am guilty about not cleaning my house. I have kinda been letting things go to the wayside because I have been so focused on eating right and exercising. I know cleaning is exercise too but I would rather be out walking around the neighborhood that doing dishes. It is really starting to bother DH. He was actually cleaning the house last night. He wasn't complaining about it or anything but it makes me feel inadequate. I guess I should be grateful that he is willing to clean so I have time to exercise and blog. I hate cleaning in general and have never been much of a housekeeper. I think I am going to create a new goal for myself.

Goal: I must clean something for at least 30 minutes every day before I go out to walk.

There. Does that sound fair?

Can't be right

Dinner: Spaghetti

Activities: Curves, walked 2 miles

I checked out Daily Plate and I really like it. It told me I could consume about 1960 calories a day and still lose 1.5lbs each week. I put in rough estimates of everything I ate today and it gave me a total calorie count of 1,377. I put in my exercise for the day & it said I burned 712 calories (EP says I burned 638 calories). That means I only consumed about 700 calories today. I probably got some of the portions off but I don't think they were too far off the mark. So, I guess I may have not eat enough today. For those who DP alot, does it mean that I should consume that many calories even with exercise? That just can't be right!

I peaked at the scale between my Curves workout and dinner and it said 223.2! 1lb. I will weigh again in the morning and hope for the best.

New motivation

Breakfast: Activia, coffee

Lunch: Tuna, crackers, mandarin orange, snack size bag of Sun Chips

At Curves last night, my very sweet instructor let me know that they will be doing my monthly weigh in and measurements next week. I am super excited about it. I know I have to have lost an inch or two somewhere. And you know what that means? I have to be extra good this week and workout as much as I can. I hope this freaking blister goes away!

For some reason I just decided to count up the calories in my lunch and it was a bad idea. I think there is about 520 calories in my lunch. I probably had about 400 calories for breakfast. I am making spaghetti for dinner so I know that is going to set me back. I really should start countin calories every day. I think I am eating better but I obviously am not doing that much better. Well, actually, I am. There is no telling how many calories I was eating before because I would eat a bigger breakfast, eat out at lunch, and then eat seconds at dinner. (Yes, I know. I was a major pig and, by some people's standards, I probably still am.) At least I am eating in almost every day now and I haven't eaten seconds at dinner in two weeks. That has to count for something right?

Stupid blister

Snack: Snack size bag of baked Doritos

Dinner: Zaxby's House Salad w/ Grilled Chicken & Lite Ranch Dressing

I made it to Curves tonight but I could not do any walking. I thought the blister that I got on Sunday was getting better but I could barely stand to put my tennis shoes on and it rubbed so much at Curves I knew I could never make it two miles without bleeding or making it even worse. I hate that I had to take the night off from walking. Oh well. Anyone have any suggestions on how to heal a blister quickly?

Tonight was kind of jammed packed anyway. I dropped my DH off at my MIL's house so he could borrow his dad's truck. He drove it back to our house and loaded it up with stuff to put in storage while I went to Curves. Then we took everything to our storage place and returned the truck to his parents. By the time we got done with all that, it was 9 pm and we hadn't even eaten dinner yet. I just actually finished dinner. I hated eating so late but what can you do? Sometimes life happens.

Hope everyone had a better day than me! SVs to all!

Dear sweet DH

Breakfast: Oatmeal square, coffee

Lunch: Lean ham, swiss cheese, & honey mustard on wheat, applesauce

I just had to share something funny I caught my DH doing last night. I usually spend about an hour on EP each night after my walk but last night I was only on for about half an hour. My DH must have expected me to be in there a little while longer because when I came out of the office, there he was sitting on the couch with a big bowl of MY lowfat chocolate chip cookie dough icecream and two chocolate fudge poptarts. He was basically spooning the icecream onto the poptarts and taking big bites. I caught  him midbite. He gave that look like a little kid who has been caught doing something they know they are not suppose to do. It was the last of my lowfat icecream. The only sweet treat I had in the house! He has already gone through his half-gallon of cookies-n-cream. I wanted to kill him but he was so funny with that look on his face all I could do was laugh at him! He just kept saying, "But it is sooo good! You just don't know, it is sooo good!" What am I suppose to do with him? He has all kinds of goodies at the house that I can't have, and the one thing that is suppose to be mine, he eats! Oh well, I guess I really didn't need that ice cream anyway.

BTW, back down to 224.6 today from 227.2 yesterday. Don't ask me how. My weight is sooo weird!

Back on track

Breakfast: Activia, Coffee

Lunch: Tomato soup, mandarin oranges, Baked Ruffles

Snack: 100 Calorie Pack

Dinner: Grilled pork chop, green beans, corn on the cob, two bites of cantelope

So, I think I did better today. I stayed away from all junk food and even avoided mashed potatoes at my MIL's house at dinner tonight.

Unfortunately, I didn't make it to Curves tonight. We stopped by my MIL & FIL's house and ended up staying for dinner since my the rest of the family was already eating there. But, when we got home, I walked/jogged three miles instead of the two I have normally been doing. I hate missing Curves so I figured I needed to amp it up somehow.

I have got to quit weighing myself every day because it is just too depressing. I am feeling better. I have more energy and my clothes, even though they are a size 18W, are fitting better. These things should be what is important to me right now. I always get really gung-ho into diet and exercise and then as soon as the scales stop moving as quickly as I would like I give up. That is how I have gotten to this point. I can't let myself get like that this time.

What is wrong?!?

OK, I know I slipped up on Saturday but I tried to be good yesterday and I was on my feet most of the day and I got my walking in. Then, I weighed myself this morning and I was up to 227.4! Ok, I know I screwed up Saturday but I can't believe it was 3.2lbs worth up screw up. Geez, this is so frustrating. I guess I am learning I had better not stray at all or else I will be putting two weeks of weight loss in jeopardy. I am wondering if maybe I am building muscle or something. My body feels tighter and my clothes are still fitting a little better. I don't get it!

Sooo bad

Lunch: Peach, Twqo hots dogs in 100% whole wheat buns

Snack: Bowl of lowfat icecream

Dinner: A salad & one slice of frozen pizza

I was sooo bad Saturday. I started off the day by fixing sausage biscuits for breakfast. Me & DH got up pretty early with the intent to do a lot of cleaning up the house. Well, he got to do a lot of work on the house but I was still kind of waiting around on him to finish stuff so I could clean. I ended up lazing around the house all day just helping him whenever he needed me. Then we ate leftover Japanese food for lunch. We went out with friends for dinner and then back to their place where we drank til about 2 am. So, I was definitely completely off track yesterday and the scaled reflected it this morning. I was back up to 226 lbs.

I tried to be better today. I skipped breakfast this morning since I didn't get up until about 10am and went to Wal-mart for cleaning supplies. When I got back, I made lunch for me & DH. I know hot dogs are not good for you either but I tried to make it a little better by using whole wheat buns. Then I got to work on cleaning our bathroom and doing laundry. Our laundry has piled up all week because we had the washer and dryer unhooked since my DH was tiling the laundry room floor. So laundry has been a big job today and pretty much all I have been able to work on. I did walk for a full hour tonight which resulted in me getting a big blister on my ankle. So much for my fancy new shoes.

Well, I am really disappointed in gaining so much weight after only one day of not paying attention to what I eat. I guess that is what I get though. I am just going to get completely back on track tomorrow and hope for the best. My sweet DH keeps telling me how proud he is of me and reminding that it is going to be a long process. I know I just need to focus on making sure I have more good days than bad and the weight will eventually come off. I just which I could get and stay past 225!