Today is the second day being home from my vacation and my eating is still out of whack. I did go to Curves this morning but I haven't walked. It is already dark outside here and my DH is helping a friend who has just moved back to the area put some stuff in storage. I really wish he would call. My DH is the world's worst about answering his phone.
I am a little depressed. I just found out that my sis is pregnant. I am happy for her, don't get me wrong. This will be her first child and the first grandchild on our side of the family. I am looking forward to having a little neice or nephew to spoil. She is not out of the woods yet. Her progesterone levels are not increasing at the normal rate so there is a possibility she could miscarry. I will be praying for her. I just wish I was pregnant too. I have been trying to get pregnant for the last year. I came off birth control last summer and have tried taking progesterone and chlomid. This was my sis's first time taking the chlomid and she is pregnant. I had been taking it for a few months and gave up. I was so tired of every month getting my hopes up only to be disappointed when TOM arrived. It was emotionally draining. TOM is always late so I would always hopefully take a few pregnancy tests only for them to come back negative. It sucks.
It was really hard spending so much time with my little nephew last week because it made me realize just how much I want a baby. My DH goes back and forth on wanting a child. The trip didn't help because he saw how limiting a baby can be and he likes his freedom. He doesn't get this whole PCOS thing and that I may not be able to get pregnant much longer. I don't produce enouch estrogen to make my body ovulate regularly. Someday, I may not produce enough estrogen to get my body to ovulate at all. He just has that "Everything will be fine. We will have a baby when it is meant to happen" attitude. I wish I could be like that.
We got back from our road trip last night. It was tough but it had its good points. Take it from someone who knows, never agree to be stuck in a van for 10 days in a row with your in-laws. It is never a good idea, even if you think you love them. At least I can say I got to see a lot of the country. We went to New Mexico through Memphis, TN, Arkansas, Oklahoma, and Texas. We stopped to see the Oklahoma City bombing memorial and the Cadillac Ranch. It was beautiful. Then, we spent 4 days in New Mexico with my husband's grandparents. They were great and New Mexico was beautiful. We spent some time in Albequerque (sp?), Gallup (we went to the old El Rancho Hotel which was pretty neat), and Chama. We left New Mexico on Friday and intended to go to Carlsbad Cavern's but we missed the last tour by 15 minutes. It really sucked because we had driven for 7 hours to get there only to be late for the last tour. The next day we drove on to San Antonio, TX where we saw the Alamo and took a boat ride through the River Walk. We really enjoyed that and will probably plan to take a long weekend trip back to San Antonio. The last day we drove to Biloxi, Mississippi and stayed at the Isle of Capri Hotel and Casino. It was really nice depsite me and the DH losing about $45. Then yesterday we finally drove home from Biloxi. I am soooooo glad to be home. We didn't get to sleep past 6 am the whole trip and there were a few days we had to get up at 3:30am and 4:30am so we could get on the road in time to make our destination. It was rough because we were also traveling with a one year old whose sleeping schedule was completely shot. Oh yeah, and two smokers who needed a cigarette every 20 minutes. It really wasn't my idea of a vacation but at least I can say I have been there and done that and we got to see DH's grandparents for the first time in 4 years. We will definitely make the trip again but next time we will not ride in a vehicle with everyone else.
So, I came back weighing the same thing as when I left 220.2lbs. I am happy with that. I tried to keep my eating under control the first few days but eventually I just had to say screw it and enjoy myself. I got some walking in and spent a lot of time carrying and playing with my 20lb one year old nephew. I am sure that helped to burn a few calories. I am looking forward to getting back into my routine with walking and Curves, but right now all I want to do is sleep. I slept til 10:30am and I have been doing laundry all day. All I want to do at this point is take a nap.
Hope everyone is doing well! Glad to be home and back to EP!
I have basically sabotaged all my weightloss efforts over the past few days. What is wrong with me? I did well the first half of yesterday but we went to Red Lobster for dinner and I dove into a plate of shrimp alfredo. I didn't eat it all but I are most of it. Then we went and got coffee drinks. This morning I started off good but then I had to run into the grocery store to pick up a few things and allowed myself to be drawn in by the doughnuts. Tonight, we are having a pizza party for my nephew's first birthday. It will be hard to stay on track there. And we leave for New Mexico on Saturday. Sorry pink team. I haven't gotten on the scale but I am expecting a big weight gain this week.
The BK biscuit Friday was just the beginning of my bad behavior this weekend. I pretty much spent the entire weekend eating Doritos, ice cream, and Chef Boyardee. I went to Curves on Saturday but I didn't exercise at all besides that. It was a rainy, messy weekend so I couldn't get my walking in like I wanted. When it rains like this, all I want to do is veg out and watch TV and that is all I did. I know I definitely gained a lot over the weekend being that I ate like a pig, did not exercise, and TOM is coming. I don't know what has gotten in to me or why I just let it all go this weekend. It was like I was starving & could not get enough junk food. It is set to rain for the rest of the week here too. Thanks Faye! We need it!
So far, today is off to a better start. I had a large banana for breakfast and plan to have tuna & crackers for lunch. We will see how it goes.
Lunch: Big salad w/ two saltines and honey mustard
Dinner: Chicken breast with Stove Top Stuffing & carrots
Snacks: Two bowls of fat free sherbert
Today
Breakfast: Activia, Sausauge, egg, & cheese biscuit, 16 oz Dr. Pepper
I have basically crashed and burned. I don't know what happened. Actually, I do know what happened. Someone yesterday told me that they could tell I was losing and that I was looking good. So, those little voices started creeping into my head..."It's ok for you to cheat a little. You are doing so good. What's a little extra sherbert? Why not indulge in a biscuit?" I am not like most normal people. Compliments don't make me more determined. I get a case of the big head and I think why not live a little? It is also that and the fact that my DH wanted to go to BK and I gave in big time because I was kind of craving it too. Last night, I didn't go to Curves and I didn't go for a walk. Me & DH worked on cleaning up the spare bedroom and then we spent the rest of the night vegging out in front of the TV. That's when my sweet tooth started acting up. When I am watching TV, I get bored and I start getting hungry. That is why I have been spending so much time blogging in the evenings. It keeps my mind occupied so I don't start craving stuff. Plus, TOM is looming and I really wanted a big hunk of chocolate. At least the sherbert was fat free but it still had way too many calories. Uuuuggghhh! I suck. I am so tired of this pattern!
Lunch: Roast beef sandwich w/ a little mayo, lettuce, tomato, & Swiss cheese. 2 dill pickle spears, & a small piece of cake
Dinner: Chili made with ground turkey with a little 2% cheese
I really don't think I did that bad yesterday. I knew I shouldn't have had the cake but it was the kind with the lower fat whipped icing & I only got a small piece. It was a part of the luncheon. I did avoid chips, cookies, & Dr. Pepper so I think I could have done much worse especially after the morning I had. Thank you all for your support! I really appreciate it. Me & DH just apologized and moved on. I decided not to blog at home anymore so that way I can spend that time helping DH with the house. So, last night I started dinner and while it was cooking I got a load of laundry going, washed dishes, and picked up the house. Then, I went to Curves. When I got back, I helped DH prep the walls in the kitchen to paint. Then I went for my walk. I think that was fair.
Me & DH just had a huge freaking fight. He is mad at me because I spend so much time exercising and blogging and not helping him get teh house finished. Ok, last night I didn't do anything on the house because I was out most of the evening. He was mowing the lawn and weedeating which is kind of a one-person job. For the first time in a week, I didn't clean anything inside. We went out for dinner so there were no dishes and since I have been doing laundry almost every day there wasn't really any that needed to be done. I don't think he even considers any of that work. The fact that at least five nights a week I spend the first 11/2 hours once I come home cooking dinner, doing dishes, and doing laundry doesn't even count to him. It is the fact that I spend an hour or two after that exercising and then blogging that bothers him. Before, when I was sitting my lard butt on the couch watching TV he didn't say anything but now that I am out doing stuff there is a problem. There are nights that he comes home and doesn't even get off the couch while I am running around doing all that but I am not doing what HE thinks I should be doing so it is a problem. I guess I am just going to have to buckle down and focus on cleaning the house, boxing stuff up, and really getting the house finished for a days. Maybe then he will be happy. Men!!
Lunch: Cream of chicken soup, mandarin orange, Baked Ruffles
Dinner: 6 inch meatball sub w/ cheese, olives, parmesian, & oregano, Doritos, Sprite
As you see, I caved at dinner. I got the days mixed up and it is tomorrow so the outcome of that is yet to be known. I caved at dinner. I asked DH to go to Subway for dinner and I went in intending to get a 6 inch chicken breast with all the veggies and then my DH ordered a meatball sub. That is my favorite sub. Love it. Don't care how bad it is for me. Plus, it was the value meal today. I gave into my craving at the last second and got one with Doritos and everything. I was bad. I tried to make up for it a little bit. I went to Curves and tried to push myself. After Curves, I walked/jogged my two miles. This time I jogged part of the whole six laps. I made myself even though it my side and my shins started to hurt and even though there were people all out in their yards. I figured it was the least I could do considering. I know I didn't fully make up for my splurge but I figure all that helped some what. Now, if I can just make it through the luncheon tomorrow. They said we are having sandwiches. I don't know what kind. Hopefully something somewhat healthy. I am thinking of making myself get up in the morning and walk a mile just so I can get a headstart on the day.
Thanks for all your helpful tips and advice! I am sorry I let you down. At least I didn't got get a pecan roll on top of all that!
Ok, so I am facing some challenges today. First off, there is a bakery across the street from where I work that sells the best pecan rolls in the world. They are covered in cream chesse icing? Did I ever mention that cream cheese icing is my favorite food? Like, when I was a kid, my mom would just make me a big bowl of cream cheese icing for my birthday instead of a cake. And I wonder how I got so fat. Anyway, back to the bakery. They only take cash and I happen to get some cash yesterday afternoon and I have been fighting the urge to walk over there ever since. I have a horrible sweet tooth and I haven't had one of those pecan rolls since I left from working here 2 years ago. I guess I have had plently of other treats though seeing as I gained 40lbs in that two years.
Also, they are having a luncheon for new employees (which I am one) today and I have no idea what food we are having. I tried to prepare by going ahead and bringing my regular lunch food but I don't know if I will be able to totally resist all the goodies they are sure to have. Hopefully, they will have salad again and I can get away with just eating salad.
BTW, I peeked at the scale this morning for the first time since last WI and it seems another lbs is gone. Hopefully, I can keep it gone until Thursday!
Hope everyone else is having a good day! SVs to all.
Lunch: fat free tuna salad & crackers, mandarin oranges, snack size bag of Sun Chips
Dinner: Lasagna casserole
Today was a boring day at work. I didn't have any appointments scheduled so I didn't have a lot to do. Well, there was a lot I could have done but it is that kind of work that doesn't really need to be done but it would have kept me busy. I was glad to have a day like that though because last week was very busy and the rest of my week is going to be packed so at least I got one easy day in this week. I was the recipient of a random act of kindness today though and that was nice. I went to my old college to have my transcripts faxed to a job I am applying for (I don't think I will get it but it can't hurt to try) and one lady in the registrar was trying to lay down the law with me. I didn't know it but you have to go to a separate office to pay to have your transcripts sent anywhere and that office closed at 4:30pm. I got to the registrar at 4:40pm. She was telling me I had to come back the next day. I explained that I had left work early to get them faxed and I didn't know that the other office would be closed. She went to her supervisor and her supervisor faxed them anyway without even asking for payment. Isn't that nice? I offered her the money but she said "No, you have a good day now." That was so nice of her.
Otherwise, my day hasn't been very special. Me, DH, & a friend spread pinestraw in the flowerbeds last night. Our list of things to do to finish the house keeps getting shorter and shorter. We'll be done soon I hope.
Tonight, I did my two miles. The block in front of my house is a little over 1/3 of a mile when around. I walked & jogged it for four laps and then walked 2 more laps. Other than that, it was a noneventful evening.
