I need a good, swift kick in the butt. I am just not focusing and really putting a lot of effort into making sure that I eat right and really stick to my exercise. I probably could have done a lot better by this point if I had. I have been trying to not be too hard on myself because I don't want to make weight loss the end all be all of my life. I have done that before and if I don't see changes fast enough, I get fed up & just say screw the whole thing. Then, I end up heavier than I was before I even started. I lose 10 lbs only to gain 20 lbs back. I can't let that happen this time. I am just going to have to work harder and really make the effort to eat better. All in all though, I have been doing better. I don't eat near as much crap as I used to when I first started this whole journey in July. And I do think about how much I am eating now. I may not have been able to leave junk food alone but I am conscious of how much I am eating and I am getting better at putting it down when I have had just enough to satisfy a craving. And I have gotten the not eating seconds at dinner thing down. I used to be so hungry in the evenings if I didn't have that second plate. Now, I am usually stuffed and don't even want to snack after dinner. There has been some progress but I know I need to do more. Hopefully, I will get over this virus and be feeling back at 100% this week so I can really give it my all.
Today has been a very relaxing day. I got up this morning and went to Curves where I got all green flags and, according to the Smart equipment, I burned 416 calories. Not bad for a 30 minute workout. When I got home, I went for a 2 mile walk and it was really nice. The weather here has finally started to cool off a bit and there was nice breeze blowing. It was really great. I had planned to do a lot today but I didn't accomplish any of it. I ended up vegging out in front of the TV and taking a long nap this afternoon. I know, I am lazy but I did have a rough week. I was sick but I still had to get my butt into work everyday since I just got back from a 2 week vacation. I am still taking antibiotics and am a little under the weather so I figured the extra rest couldn't hurt too much. Oh yeah. I weighed today after my workout and walk and I finally showed 219lb! I am sure it won't stick but I am happy that at least the scale finally said it for once. That gives me extra motivation to stay on the ball this weekend. I found a couple of WATP DVDs this morning at WalMart and almost got one but I decided to wait and see if I like the one that is one its way from Illinois. Tomorrow, I plan to get some of the cleaning done that I had planned to do today but that is probably it. Me & DH decided that we are staying home all weekend. We both need it. He did get the oven fixed today..for free! That's how we were finally able to eat a home-cooked meal. Ok...I hope everyone has a good weekend!
After the week I have had, I am just so glad it is Friday. I didn't do too well today either. I went out to lunch with my friends/former coworkers. I had a grilled chicken sandwich and french fries. Then at dinner, my DH still couldn't get the oven/stove (it keeps shorting out and tripping the breaker..probably a fire hazard) working so we ended up going to Taco Bell. I had 2 chicken chalupas and a Dr. Pepper. Oh yeah, and no exercise. I did make a somewhat positive step today though. After reading a few blogs talking about WATP DVDs, I decided to order one. The 5 Day Slim Down. I had a WATP VHS a long time ago and I liked it. Before we put everything into storage, I had a few workout DVDs I really liked and I would try to do them a few mornings a week. My DH says he is not digging them out though. So, I just ordered one from to be shipped from Illinois. I know, I make no sense. Anyway, hopefully the new DVD will be good motivation for me to get up in the mornings and get in a mile at least. Then, I will only have to walk one mile in evenings and it won't take as long. Now that it is getting dark by 8 pm, I can't get to Curves and walk 2 miles before it is completely dark and my neighborhood is not that well lit. I don't want to become a speed bump!!
Ok...I am so mad. Just typed this whole freaking post and it disappeared!!!
The short version is that I went to the Dr today and she was useless. DH & I went to a closeout sale at Steve & Barry's to use up the rest of a gift card he gave me for Christmas that I never used because I can't wear anything from that store. We ate at Chic-fil-a but I had already left chicken defrosting so I tried to go ahead and make a chicken pot pie so we could have it for dinner tomorrow. Well, the oven kept shorting out and tripping the breaker. So, not only did we have to replace a water heater yesterday, now we are going to have to possible replace our oven. WTF? When it rains it pours. And here we are trying to sell our house!
Hope everyone had a better day than me. SVs to all!!
As I have mentioned several times, I am still not doing well on eating. Today, I probably won't get to take a lunch so I ate a bigger breakfast.
Last night was a rough night. We came home to find that our water heater had burst and there was water all over our laundry room floor. My DH had to make a mad dash to Lowe's to buy a new water heater and then my wonderful FIL & BIL came over and helped DH put it in. That was $300 we did not need to spend but thank God for Dave Ramsey and the emergency fund. So, needless to say, that put going walking and to Curves on hold for a day.
Plus, I still feel like crap. I think I am going to have to break down and go to the Dr today. I have been taking over the counter medications and I cannot seem to shake this soar throat and fever. Fortunately, my Dr's office stays open until 8 so I may try to get squeezed in tonight which may mean another day without Curves.
Also, I got on the scale this morning and I was up to 221lbs. I am not surprised because my eating has not been great and I haven't really been able to exercise for a couple of days now. I also think I need to change my mental goal. My overall goal is 135lbs but I have been keeping 219 (10lbs down) in my head for a little while now as my first little stepping stone goal. I have been hovering close to it but I just can't seem to break it. I think that is because I haven't been pushing myself as hard since I am so close to it. I am going to change my mental goal to 209 (20 lbs) so maybe I will push myself harder. I won't be able to push myself at all if I don't get over this flu!
I am still not feeling well today. This morning when I woke up my throat was so sore that I could barely swallow and I coughed up some really gross stuff. I am achy and I have a little bit of a fever. I took some Dayquil and brought my butt on to work but I haven't been good for much of anything. All I want to do is go home and go to bed. I had planned to go to Curves and walk two miles tonight as usual but I don't know if that is going to happen. I am so freaking tired right now. It is not looking good for WI tomorrow. I hope everyone else is doing well. SVs to all!
I woke up with a sore throat and a slight fever this morning and I haven't really been feeling great today. Not just physically, but emotionally. I am really worried about losing my job and I think I hurt the feelings of one of my coworkers/friends. I gossiped about her and I shouldn't have and now she is not speaking to me. I don't blame her. The person I talked about her to is someone I have known since high school so I thought it was just between me and her kind of thing. We all have things about coworkers that get on our nerves. I just chose to share it and I shouldn't have. I am an idiot. That is what I get. I didn't think it was that big of a deal but apparently it is to her. We were just talking about how she is always late to work and leaves early and I think it got back to her supervisor. I didn't mean for it too. Oh well. My mom always told me "Your mouth is going to be your ruination" and she is so right. One day I will learn to shut up.
Snacks: Fudge round, 3 doughnut holes, a handful of Doritos
Dinner: Spaghetti
Activities: Curves, walked 2 miles
Ok..so I didn't do so well eating today. I need some tough love here to get my but back in gear. I was just so hungry this afternoon for some reason. Someone had brought doughnut holes to work and I couldn't resist. Then, when I got home I snacked had a Little Debbie Fudge Round (150 calories) and a handful of Doritos while I was cooking. I was just so freaking hungry.
I was proud of myself today at Curves though. According to the Smart equipment, I burned 396 calories and I got green on all my muscles, which means I worked all my mucles out to their fullest extent. That is the first time. Basically, the Smart equipment measures the intensity you are working out at and it rates it from red to orange to yellow to green, red being the worst and green being the best. You are suppose to "Go for green." Usually I get a few yellow and occassionally orange flags at the end but this time I got all green. Yaaay!
Now, if only I could eat as well as I work out. I have to admit though that I had some new stress today at work. For one, I lost my wedding band and I could not find it anywhere. I work with a lot of recovering drug addicts and homeless people so if a client found it there is no telling what happened to it. Not to sound bad because I really love all my clients, but it wouldn't be the first time that something like that happened where I am at. Also, I found out that the state is cutting a million dollars out of our budget. There is the potential that all employees will have to take days without pay and they are saying they may have to layoff as many as 20 people. I just started there in July and you know how layoffs go, last ones in are the first ones out. So, I am looking for another job which is really difficult right now because everywhere is cutting back. Oh well, what can you do?
Saturday afternoon we went to a wedding and I did pretty well. I had one chocolate covered strawberry and split a piece of cake with my DH. I could have done a lot worse. Later that night, we went out to a friend's house and we stopped by Dairy Queen for dinner. I got the four piece chicken strip meal but I only at the chicken strips and a few fries. I threw away the toast that came with it and a few fries. As far as the goodies were concerned, I had a small chocolate shake. I know but everyone else was eating sundaes and blizzards and all that kind of stuff. I know I need to do better.
On Sunday, I had Spaghettios, chocolate ice cream, and a taco salad. What I ate was bad but I didn't eat a lot. I went out to see The Women with friends and went to dinner with them. The movie was good but it was definitely a total chick flick. I did walk two miles on Sunday so that helped a little.
Today, I have had Activia and a cup of coffee so I am off to a better start. Like I said, I am getting back on track this week so I tried to satisfy all my cravings this weekend so I can get back on board starting today.
Hope everyone had a good weekend! The New EP is pretty nice but it is going to take some getting used to.
I know I keep saying this but I am still working on getting back on track. Work was hectic Thursday and Friday as it should have been since I have been gone for two weeks. I didn't do too bad on eating. But last night I went out drinking with some friends. I went to Curves yesterday and today but no walking. I am going to get myself completely back into walking and going to Curves this upcoming week I promise.
I had my monthly WI and measurements at Curves today and a new person did them. I have lost 2 lbs and my BMI went down but I was supposively up 11 inches!! How the hell can you lose 2 lbs and almost a full percentage point in your BMI and gain 11 inches? If I had, none of my clothes would fit. Anyway, I aim to do alot better next month. I kinda used the fact that I was going to be on vacation for two weeks as an excuse not to give it my all for the last few weeks. I was shocked that I didn't gain. I guess that means that I am building muscle and my metabolism is changing. Yeah!
