Lunch: Peach, Twqo hots dogs in 100% whole wheat buns
Snack: Bowl of lowfat icecream
Dinner: A salad & one slice of frozen pizza
I was sooo bad Saturday. I started off the day by fixing sausage biscuits for breakfast. Me & DH got up pretty early with the intent to do a lot of cleaning up the house. Well, he got to do a lot of work on the house but I was still kind of waiting around on him to finish stuff so I could clean. I ended up lazing around the house all day just helping him whenever he needed me. Then we ate leftover Japanese food for lunch. We went out with friends for dinner and then back to their place where we drank til about 2 am. So, I was definitely completely off track yesterday and the scaled reflected it this morning. I was back up to 226 lbs.
I tried to be better today. I skipped breakfast this morning since I didn't get up until about 10am and went to Wal-mart for cleaning supplies. When I got back, I made lunch for me & DH. I know hot dogs are not good for you either but I tried to make it a little better by using whole wheat buns. Then I got to work on cleaning our bathroom and doing laundry. Our laundry has piled up all week because we had the washer and dryer unhooked since my DH was tiling the laundry room floor. So laundry has been a big job today and pretty much all I have been able to work on. I did walk for a full hour tonight which resulted in me getting a big blister on my ankle. So much for my fancy new shoes.
Well, I am really disappointed in gaining so much weight after only one day of not paying attention to what I eat. I guess that is what I get though. I am just going to get completely back on track tomorrow and hope for the best. My sweet DH keeps telling me how proud he is of me and reminding that it is going to be a long process. I know I just need to focus on making sure I have more good days than bad and the weight will eventually come off. I just which I could get and stay past 225!
But I think I might be eating too little. I know, crazy right? The reason I say that is because of having done WW. When I was on it, they always stressed that you eat all your points and as your weight went down so did the number of points you get. Well, somedays I wonder if I am not eating enough and that is making my metabolism slow down too much. I am just getting to the point where I am not hungry all the time like I was a few weeks ago so I don't constantly think about food and I go without eating longer. Like tonight, I didn't even want dinner until 9pm. I am sure this just some kind of weird phase and the hunger pains are going to kick in again really soon. I guess I should just enjoy it while it lasts. I guess it is just such a change for me, the whole not cleaning my plate at every meal and eating junk food all the time thing, that I am overreacting. It is almost like my mind wants me to keep eating but my body is saying, "Stop! You are done." Berore, it was always mind and body together saying, "Eat! Eat it all!" I am sure everyone thinks I am officially crazy now. Oh well. Any thoughts? I know it is probably just me getting use to eating like a normal person again and not just stuffing my face all the time like before.
Breakfast: Activia, Banana, Coffee
Lunch: Chicken Soup, Mandarin Orange, Snack size bag of Baked Doritos
Dinner: two bites of a spring roll, a small salad that was just lettuce w/ shrimp sauce, and about ten bites of hibachi chicken which consisted of chicken, zucchini, mushrooms, rice, teriyaki sauce, and shrimp sauce. (Looking at this, it probably seems like I am eating plenty and I know I am but I am used to eating the whole spring roll and eating half of my plate of hibachi chicken at the place we went to and tonight I probably didn't even eat 1/4 of it.)
So, have I mentioned I have a vacation coming? I will going on a road trip to New Mexico with my DH and all his wonderful family to visit his grandparents and see a few sites along the way starting 08/30. We will be gone ten days total and will be stopping to eat for every meal. How in the world am I going to survive this? My MIL's favotire place to stop is McD's because of the Dollar Menu. It doesn't affect her wasteline though because she has had gastric bypass and lives off of coffee and chips of any variety. I guess I will be surviving on grilled chicken sandwiches and those southwest salads someone was mentioning are so good and not bad for you.
I don't know about exercise. We are going to a few parks so I will be able to get some walking in there. We are staying at places like Super 8 and Motel 6 though (my BIL has friends that work for them so we were able to get discounts) and I don't know if they have gyms or exercise equipment available.
The schedule is basically get up at the crack of dawn and get on the road. Then go til the sun goes down and do it all again the next day. My MIL has an itenerary. I haven't looked at it because I don't want to know. I don't like having my vacation scheduled for me, especially when it is the only one I am getting all year. The only reason I have agreed to this is because I do want to see the sites out west and I want to see his grandparents. They are wonderful. If I make it without losing my cool though, I will be doing good.
My MIL has already begun planning our next vacation for next year. She wants the whole family, I am talking aunts, uncles, cousins, everyone, to rent a house on the beach like they used to do when my DH and all his cousins were little. My MIL is one of those people who never puts the camera down so I have until next summer to make myself look halfway decent in a bathing suit. I guess the pictures from New Mexico will be good "before" pics and next year I will get some good "after" pics.
I had another very busy day. I had to see clients in another office that is about 60 miles away. Clients were waiting for me when I got there this morning and I had to see them back to back all day. I had to work straight through my lunch break to see them all. I finally got to eat something, the snack size bag of Baked Ruffles I brought as part of my lunch, on my drive back to my regular office. I know it is very bad for me to skip a meal metabolism wise but I definitely made up for it at dinner. We went to my favorite Mexican restaurant and I ordered my favorite salad. Yes, it is full of refried beans, sour cream, and guacomole but it is so good and I figured if there was any day for me to splurge today would be the day. My DH insisted I get a marguerita because they were two for one and I had a really, really long day at work. It made me feel lots better, despite the wasted calories and the fact that I will probably gain my .8lbs back in the morning. On the plus side, I did not eat near as many chips as I usually do and I did not eat the taco shell that my salad came in like I usually do. So, hey, I am starting to get full a little faster. Baby steps.
Then, after the wonderful dinner, me & DH went shopping and I got some new tennis shoes. I have had the same tennis shoes for about three years now so it was time for a new pair. I came straight home and broke them in during my two miles tonight. I walked about 30 mins and jogged about 7 mins. I wasn't going to jog because there were these two guys in a yard talking for a while and a bunch of kids playing but once it got pretty dark I figured all the bouncing and jiggling of my rather large rear end would be somewhat camouflaged so I got my but in gear and started jogging. (That has to be one of the world's longest run-on sentences so I apologize for all you English teachers out there.)
So, thanks to everyone for all the psotive comments! I hope everyone is doing very well today and sends SVs to all!
Just wanted to stop in for a second to share my little joy. I weighed 224.2 this morning! Woohoo!! I know it is only .8lbs but it is my first time breaking 225lbs. Will be back later...
I think I did pretty good today. I got up and weighed 225.4, down a bit from yesterday but still up from the other day. My weight is fluctuating a lot this week. Anyway, I was extra busy at work, did a lot of extra walking, and a lot of cleaning. I just moved into a new office and it was very dirty. I barely even got to stop for lunch because I had to clean quickly between seeing clients. When I got home, I started dinner and then I went to Curves. Then I came home ate and then went on my two mile walk. No jogging tonight. There were a lot of people out in their yards tonight and I am really self-conscious about people watching me jog. I have got to get over that.
I decided to go to Curves tonight because I am having to work at a different location about 75 miles away tomorrow and I knew I would be home too late to get to Curves before 7:30pm. Plus, my DH wants to get new shoes and tomorrow is the beginning of Ga's tax free weekend. We are hoping if we go tomorrow night there won't be as big of a crowd and we can get it over with. I am hoping we get home in time for me to squeeze in a walk. Doesn't shopping count as exercise? There is walking, bending, and lifting involved, right? LOL.
Sidenote: I have not been out to eat all week!! Not to lunch or dinner. I know we will probably end up eating somewhere tomorrow night. Mmmm...unless I cook something in the crockpot...mmm...I will have to figure something out.
Dinner: Pot roast w/ carrots, potatoes, & mushrooms, glass of coke (did not have coffee this morning so I figured it would be fair)
Snack: 100 calorie pack
When I got home, I scarfed down one bowl of this wonderful pot roast recipe I got from WW and then went straight to Curves. I had a great workout. I love it there and I am really excited because they are getting this new equipment that helps increase the intensity of each machine so my workouts are going to get even better. Woohoo!
I am proud of me because I actually made myself jog a little bit of my two miles tonight. I probably jogged a total of 9 minutes of my 40 walk. Woohoo! Hey, you have to start somewhere. Didn't think I would feel like jogging at this point yet but I was inspired by all the runners I read about on here. So, thank you!
Lunch: Tomato Soup, snack size bag of Sun Chips, banana
So, I guess I am feeling better today. I got up this morning and weight 227.2. Not good but I knew it was coming. After eating all that junk last night and TOM finally came to visit today. I think that is part of the reason I was so overly emotional last night. Who knows.
I am tired right now. I have spent the last two hours moving my office to a new location. Lots of extra walking today and picking up semi-heavy stuff. It is good that I got this exercise in because I am probably not going to be able to walk tonight. They are forecasting more heavy thunderstorms in my area tonight. Maybe I can sneak one in before it starts but seeing as I have to get gas on the way home and finishup dinner before I can go to Curves it will be a tight squeeze.
Hope everyone is doing well today and sending SVs to all!
Dinner: Two cheeseburgers, thin slice of cake, 4 doritos, 1 bite of bratwurst
Ok. So, I know I overdid it at dinner but it could have been worse. I swear it was like my mother-in-law had it out for me. She had my favorite type of doritos (fiery habenero) and my favorite kind of cake (yellow cake with chocolate frosting) there tonight. To begin with, I was really hungry because I had been helping move office furniture this afternoon and the air conditioning is not fully working in our building. I ate one handful of Doritos while my husband was grilling and everyone else was snacking it up. Then I fixed myself a cheesburger and a bratwurst. I ate one cheeseburger and took a bit of the brat and decided I didn't want it. I had another cheeseburger. I know I shouldn't have but oh well. Then I played with my baby nephew for a about an hour until we cut into the cake. I had a small piece of cake and refused the ice cream. I also avoided Dr. Pepper all night (the only soda I drink). Then I played with the baby some more. I tried to get my husband to leave early enough so I could fit in a walk but it didn't happen. And it turned out to be a pretty stormy night so I wouldn't have been able to walk anyway. We even lost power for about half an hour. I think all the furniture moving and playing with the baby counts as a little bit of exercise.
So, I fully expect to have gained weight in the morning and I will just try harder tomorrow. I am definitely going to Curves and will definitely go walking afterwards. I hate that I missed having a real workout today, but what can you do? I guess I should have planned ahead better. I really don't like admitting when I am on a diet though. I feel like everyone is already looking at me like "oh poor pitiful fat girl" and then if I am eating rabbit food on top of it they just seem worse.
I did get called fat inadvertently twice today. First one of my coworkers was like "You really blew up when you went to that job." Then my husband's grandmother (who is really sweet, love her to death) mentioned how my sis-in-law has lost weight since the baby came and that maybe I should talk to her for advice.
First off, I work at a sedentary job 8 hours a day and drive for about 2 hours each day. That means I am seated for about 10 hours of the 16 hours I am awake each day. The other six hours of my day are filled with getting ready for work, preparing meals, cleaning up after meals, taking care of a husband and 7 pets, and maybe exercising for an hour. I don't have the luxury of staying at home all day and running, jumping, and playing with a very energetic baby. I am doing the best I know how to do. They also forget that I have PCOS which makes it difficult to lose weight and I have been on every hormone, birth control, and fertility drug you can try in the last year, all of which cause weight gain! But, no sympathy for the fat girl.
Uh! I am so frustrated. Thanks for letting me vent.
Lunch: Lean Michelina's four cheese pizza, pineapple, activia
Tonight is going to be a challenge. I am going over to my in-law's house for my father-in-law's birthday party. They are going to grill out hamburgers and hot dogs and I am sure there will be cake and ice cream. So, I am sure I am gonna gain weight tonight. I am going to try to avoid eating seconds and try not to have dessert. We will see. Pray for me.
It is just really hard to stay on track around my mother-in-law. She has had a weight problem and had gotten up to about 375 lbs at one time. Then she had gastric bypass and now weightloss is a big competition to her. She used to say things like, "I know I will be thinner than one of my daughter-in-laws (meaning me) but I can't wait to be skinnier than both of them (meaning Mandy, my sis-in-law." Well, since I am fat and Mandy just had a baby she now weighs less than both of us so she is happy as a lark. If she even thinks I am on a diet, she will put herself on one too and lose 25 lbs in, like, 5 minutes just to make sure I won't get smaller than her. I guess after being over weight all her life she now clings to being able to be thinner than whoever she can be thinner than. I am not a competitive person at all. The only person I like to compete against is myself. So, when someone starts trying to make something a competition with me, I just give up. Oh well, pray for me. Another part of my many neurosis has been revealed.
