Sabotage

I have basically sabotaged all my weightloss efforts over the past few days. What is wrong with me? I did well the first half of yesterday but we went to Red Lobster for dinner and I dove into a plate of shrimp alfredo. I didn't eat it all but I are most of it. Then we went and got coffee drinks. This morning I started off good but then I had to run into the grocery store to pick up a few things and allowed myself to be drawn in by the doughnuts. Tonight, we are having a pizza party for my nephew's first birthday. It will be hard to stay on track there. And we leave for New Mexico on Saturday. Sorry pink team. I haven't gotten on the scale but I am expecting a big weight gain this week.

Bad weekend

The BK biscuit Friday was just the beginning of my bad behavior this weekend. I pretty much spent the entire weekend eating Doritos, ice cream, and Chef Boyardee. I went to Curves on Saturday but I didn't exercise at all besides that. It was a rainy, messy weekend so I couldn't get my walking in like I wanted. When it rains like this, all I want to do is veg out and watch TV and that is all I did. I know I definitely gained a lot over the weekend being that I ate like a pig, did not exercise, and TOM is coming. I don't know what has gotten in to me or why I just let it all go this weekend. It was like I was starving & could not get enough junk food. It is set to rain for the rest of the week here too. Thanks Faye! We need it!

So far, today is off to a better start. I had a large banana for breakfast and plan to have tuna & crackers for lunch. We will see how it goes.

Just not good

Yesterday

Lunch: Big salad w/ two saltines and honey mustard

Dinner: Chicken breast with Stove Top Stuffing & carrots

Snacks: Two bowls of fat free sherbert

Today

Breakfast: Activia, Sausauge, egg, & cheese biscuit, 16 oz Dr. Pepper

I have basically crashed and burned. I don't know what happened. Actually, I do know what happened. Someone yesterday told me that they could tell I was losing and that I was looking good. So, those little voices started creeping into my head..."It's ok for you to cheat a little. You are doing so good. What's a little extra sherbert? Why not indulge in a biscuit?" I am not like most normal people. Compliments don't make me more determined. I get a case of the big head and I think why not live a little? It is also that and the fact that my DH wanted to go to BK and I gave in big time because I was kind of craving it too. Last night, I didn't go to Curves and I didn't go for a walk. Me & DH worked on cleaning up the spare bedroom and then we spent the rest of the night vegging out in front of the TV. That's when my sweet tooth started acting up. When I am watching TV, I get bored and I start getting hungry. That is why I have been spending so much time blogging in the evenings. It keeps my mind occupied so I don't start craving stuff. Plus, TOM is looming and I really wanted a big hunk of chocolate. At least the sherbert was fat free but it still had way too many calories. Uuuuggghhh! I suck. I am so tired of this pattern!

Yesterday & a little of today

Yesterday:

Breakfast: Activia, Coffee

Lunch: Roast beef sandwich w/ a little mayo, lettuce, tomato, & Swiss cheese. 2 dill pickle spears, & a small piece of cake

Dinner: Chili made with ground turkey with a little 2% cheese

I really don't think I did that bad yesterday. I knew I shouldn't have had the cake but it was the kind with the lower fat whipped icing & I only got a small piece. It was a part of the luncheon. I did avoid chips, cookies, & Dr. Pepper so I think I could have done much worse especially after the morning I had. Thank you all for your support! I really appreciate it. Me & DH just apologized and moved on. I decided not to blog at home anymore so that way I can spend that time helping DH with the house. So, last night I started dinner and while it was cooking I got a load of laundry going, washed dishes, and picked up the house. Then, I went to Curves. When I got back, I helped DH prep the walls in the kitchen to paint. Then I went for my walk.  I think that was fair.

Today:

Breakfast: Activia, Coffee

Venting

Me & DH just had a huge freaking fight. He is mad at me because I spend so much time exercising and blogging and not helping him get teh house finished. Ok, last night I didn't do anything on the house because I was out most of the evening. He was mowing the lawn and weedeating which is kind of a one-person job. For the first time in a week, I didn't clean anything inside. We went out for dinner so there were no dishes and since I have been doing laundry almost every day there wasn't really any that needed to be done. I don't think he even considers any of that work. The fact that at least five nights a week I spend the first 11/2 hours once I come home cooking dinner, doing dishes, and doing laundry doesn't even count to him. It is the fact that I spend an hour or two after that exercising and then blogging that bothers him. Before, when I was sitting my lard butt on the couch watching TV he didn't say anything but now that I am out doing stuff there is a problem. There are nights that he comes home and doesn't even get off the couch while I am running around doing all that but I am not doing what HE thinks I should be doing so it is a problem. I guess I am just going to have to buckle down and focus on cleaning the house, boxing stuff up, and really getting the house finished for a days. Maybe then he will be happy. Men!!

Caved

Lunch: Cream of chicken soup, mandarin orange, Baked Ruffles

Dinner: 6 inch meatball sub w/ cheese, olives, parmesian, & oregano, Doritos, Sprite

As you see, I caved at dinner. I got the days mixed up and it is tomorrow so the outcome of that is yet to be known. I caved at dinner. I asked DH to go to Subway for dinner and I went in intending to get a 6 inch chicken breast with all the veggies and then my DH ordered a meatball sub. That is my favorite sub. Love it. Don't care how bad it is for me. Plus, it was the value meal today. I gave into my craving at the last second and got one with Doritos and everything. I was bad. I tried to make up for it a little bit. I went to Curves and tried to push myself. After Curves, I walked/jogged my two miles. This time I jogged part of the whole six laps. I made myself even though it my side and my shins started to hurt and even though there were people all out in their yards. I figured it was the least I could do considering. I know I didn't fully make up for my splurge but I figure all that helped some what. Now, if I can just make it through the luncheon tomorrow. They said we are having sandwiches. I don't know what kind. Hopefully something somewhat healthy. I am thinking of making myself get up in the morning and walk a mile just so I can get a headstart on the day.

Thanks for all your helpful tips and advice! I am sorry I let you down. At least I didn't got get a pecan roll on top of all that!

Challenges Today

Breakfast: Activia, Banana, Coffee

Ok, so I am facing some challenges today. First off, there is a bakery across the street from where I work that sells the best pecan rolls in the world. They are covered in cream chesse icing? Did I ever mention that cream cheese icing is my favorite food? Like, when I was a kid, my mom would just make me a big bowl of cream cheese icing for my birthday instead of a cake. And I wonder how I got so fat. Anyway, back to the bakery. They only take cash and I happen to get some cash yesterday afternoon and I have been fighting the urge to walk over there ever since. I have a horrible sweet tooth and I haven't had one of those pecan rolls since I left from working here 2 years ago. I guess I have had plently of other treats though seeing as I gained 40lbs in that two years.

Also, they are having a luncheon for new employees (which I am one) today and I have no idea what food we are having. I tried to prepare by going ahead and bringing my regular lunch food but I don't know if I will be able to totally resist all the goodies they are sure to have. Hopefully, they will have salad again and I can get away with just eating salad.

BTW, I peeked at the scale this morning for the first time since last WI and it seems another lbs is gone. Hopefully, I can keep it gone until Thursday!

Hope everyone else is having a good day! SVs to all.

Nice people out there

Breakfast: Activia, coffee

Lunch: fat free tuna salad & crackers, mandarin oranges, snack size bag of Sun Chips

Dinner: Lasagna casserole

Today was a boring day at work. I didn't have any appointments scheduled so I didn't have a lot to do. Well, there was a lot I could have done but it is that kind of work that doesn't really need to be done but it would have kept me busy. I was glad to have a day like that though because last week was very busy and the rest of my week is going to be packed so at least I got one easy day in this week. I was the recipient of a random act of kindness today though and that was nice. I went to my old college to have my transcripts faxed to a job I am applying for (I don't think I will get it but it can't hurt to try) and one lady in the registrar was trying to lay down the law with me. I didn't know it but you have to go to a separate office to pay to have your transcripts sent anywhere and that office closed at 4:30pm. I got to the registrar at 4:40pm. She was telling me I had to come back the next day. I explained that I had left work early to get them faxed and I didn't know that the other office would be closed. She went to her supervisor and her supervisor faxed them anyway without even asking for payment. Isn't that nice? I offered her the money but she said "No, you have a good day now." That was so nice of her.

Otherwise, my day hasn't been very special. Me, DH, & a friend spread pinestraw in the flowerbeds last night. Our list of things to do to finish the house keeps getting shorter and shorter. We'll be done soon I hope.

Tonight, I did my two miles. The block in front of my house is a little over 1/3 of a mile when around. I walked & jogged it for four laps and then walked 2 more laps. Other than that, it was a noneventful evening.

Shopping

Breakfast: Activia

Lunch: Ham & cheese sandwich

Snack: 20 oz Dr. Pepper (I know, I know but no coffee...), fat free orange sherbert

Dinner: Ground turkey sloppy joes & French fries

Activities: Gardening, walked 2 miles

I didn't roll my butt outta bed today until 10am. We started off by planting the bigger plants we bought yesterday which took about 40 minutes. Then, I got myself ready and went shopping. I was trying to pick up a few things I know we are going to need for our trip. I got my DH 2 pair of jean shorts and then I went all over searching for a decent looking pair of either capris or bermuda shorts for me. I couldn't find anything at the mall. All the summer stuff was already on clearance and nothing in my size was left. I did try on a straight size 18 in one store and they barely zipped and were too long for capris. I finally went over to Kohl's in a last ditch effort to find something. I ended up getting a size 20W  pair of Dockers capris. I had to have something and the 18W were just too snug. It is so weird how the other day I could wear a size 16 pair of pants I have had for a while but I could barely squeeze myself into a size 18W in the store today. It doesn't make any sense. I also got myself a pair of Skechers that I thought would be great for all the walking we are going to do on the trip but then I went to Target later tonight wearing them and they almost rubbed blisters on my ankles. When I walked around at Kohl's in them they felt fine. They are the type you can't wear socks with so I don't know what I am going to do about that. I wonder if I can take them back when I have already worn them for about an hour. I don't think so. I also got a new purse, some sunglasses, and some earrings (I haven't bought any of these in quite some time, like years, before today).

I was glad to find out that we are going to be packing food on our trip. Initially, my MIL said that we would just bring snacks and stop to eat our meals but, thankfully, my cheap BIL has piped up and demanded we bring a cooler for drinks and to pack sandwich meat in. I am happy because a sandwich will be a lot better for me than a burger any day (as I have mentioned before, my MIL is a big fan of the McD's Dollar Menu and that was her main meal plan).

Rest day

Breakfast: Activia

Lunch: Leftover chicken pot pie, coke (i know but I didn't have coffee today)

Snack: Bowl of cantelope, pecan wheel (100 calories)

Dinner: Shake-n-Bake porkchop, mashed potatoes, sweet peas

I got up at 7:30am this morning which is very early for me on a Saturday and took my male cat, Butters, to the vet. While I was doing that my DH, took some more stuff to put into storage. When I got home, we ate lunch and then we went to Lowe's where we picked up a bunch of plants to fill in our flowerbeds, a piece to fix our weedeater, and new fixtures for our second bathroom. We didn't really accomplish much after that. We watched the Olympic for a couple of hours before dinner. Then, I planted a few of the smaller plants we bought while DH put up the new light fixture in our second bath. We had planned to get a lot more done today but we were both pooped. The only exercise I got in was gardening for 45 minutes. I consider today my rest day as far as that is concerned.

We did stop by the house we are hoping to buy if it is still on the market by the time we get ours sold. It is a really nice split-level that was foreclosed on. It has four bedrooms, 3 baths, a den, living room, kitchen, dining room, and a sunroom off the back. Oh, and a four car garage. We would NEVER be able to afford this house if it wasn't in foreclosure. But it would be perfect for us to have a family in and grow into. The sunroom would be the perfect place for an exercise room for my exercise bike and that treadmill I have been dying to get. I am so ready to move!!

Anyway, hope everyone is having a good weekend and SVs to all!!