03/28/2011 15:42
Oh Mondays...
Thank God for coffee and first period planning. I'm trying to have a positive Monday, but I have tons on my mind.
I start week 3 of C25K today! Which means I have 7 weeks till the big run and it is going to fly by!. I do have to figure out how I am going to get my run accomplished the weekend that I am going to go to Destin, but I have a few weeks to figure it out. I might just move the first run to a weekend so my last run ends on Thrusday.
I may be doing great in the weightloss world at the moment, but I am having a rough time on the dating front. I have been casually seeing this guy for roughly a month. We decided that it would be best if we did not have physical contact (holding hands, kissing, cuddling) until we knew each other a little better. That way if we decided to just be friends then it wouldn't be awkward. I really like him, but he is confusing the heck out of me. I'm thinking that it might be time for me to have the talk with him.
It really sucks because he is the type of man I have been looking for. He attends church, has execellent morals, and shares my personal beliefs. The magic is fading though, I just feel like he is going to end up a missed oppertunity. I have a coffee date with another guy later this week (this just develeloped last night), and who knows I might just move on.
I am really self concious about meeting new people though. I have come a long way, but I feel like I am judged instantly because I am overweight. That might not be the real case, but you guys know as well as I do that if we feel that way, we can convince ourselves that other people do as well. I may look confident on the outside, but inside I'm a wimp.
Ps. I gained .6 this past week from eating crap. I probably have somewhat been eating my emotions, though not as severe as I used to. I still tried to be concious od what went in my mouth. I guess I am going to be working extra hard this week.