My puppy is gone. Granted 15 years isn't the age of a puppy, but she will always be like that to me. Skippy had 6 seizures on friday and I had to put her down on Saturday. The vet said she was dieing and that the seizures were caused by her heart getting weaker and not being able to pump enough blood to her brain. She was in pain and the most loving thing I could have done for her was to let her go. That was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. She has always been there as long as I can remember and now I am catching myself looking for her. Expecting to hear her bark at the UPS truck, and the mail carrier. Yesterday I put my plate on the floor with left over peperoni, and caught myself just before I called for her. The house feels so empty without Skippy. People have already offered me other dogs, but while I can take comfort from other friends pets it is way to soon for my own. I need to heal, and when I feel like it is time for another dog then I will move on. Anytime before then it will feel like I am trying to replace Skippy and I can't do that. She was too special. She was a part of my heart. RIP Skippy girl. I hope there are lots of squirrls, soft pillows, and plenty of shrimp and turnip greens for you in heaven you crazy thing. You always did think you were a human. I love and miss you.
(ps. I'm not really focused on weight loss at the moment, I am going to go into matinence mode for a bit. I just can't focus on it. )
Posted By: Voxxy
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05/19/2008 12:30
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I'm sorry to hear about your dog! I hope that you will feel better soon!
You take all the time you need to heal yourself before you even worry about this whole weight loss thing. Believe me, it will be there waiting for you when you are ready.
I am sad to hear about Skippy. That was one lucky dog to have you as its owner, and I am sure you were one lucky girl to have her as your friend. Fifteen years is an amazing amount of time, and I can totally understand how you feel. (My Peaches lived 12 years before she passed and she was my first baby and my life support at times.) Give yourself permission to grieve. Be thankful for the times you had, and for the memories you shared. And realize that oterhs do understand what you are going through. Skippy was not "just" a dog...she was your friend and your confidante. It is okay to grieve ... I am sending you big hugs and lots of prayers.
I'm so sorry to hear about your dog, Skippy! This is a week you should have been out celebrating your birthday, not mourning the loss of your beloved pup.
wow. reading your blog made me cry. i lost my 17 year old dog last year. she just died in her sleep. i was miserable for like 2 months. i had her basically all my life because i was 21 when she died. its hard. they're part of the family so its just as hard as if you lost a brother or sister. i wouldnt worry about weight loss right now either. take all the time you need.
