Wed, 13 Aug 2008 02:27

Weigh In Day

Weigh In Day: I’m down 3 from last week, at 200.5. I’m feeling mixed. Yes, losing 3 in a week is good. But it’s very circumstantial. Technically, I was up last week (TOM). So…losing something that you previously gained doesn’t feel like much of an accomplishment. I also had that 3 day liquid diet over the weekend that assisted in the loss. So it’s not like I really put a huge effort in to losing those 3 pounds.

And really…I’m sick of seeing the 2’s on the scale! I can deal with the slow weight loss, but can’t I just get in to the 190’s, and stay there for a while?!? It’s frustrating. But I can’t really get down about it, because I’m still having a hard time putting in the necessary effort. It’s not like I don’t try…it’s just really difficult to stick to the game plan 100% with everything going on in my life right now.

I can do really well during the day! While I’m at work, I’m a rock star. It’s after work that’s the problem. I find that I just don’t have the time or energy to perfectly measure out everything and track my points. Weight loss is a very consuming process. And because I’m so busy with the baby when I first get home, I have fallen in to the habit of not eating until late at night, after he’s gone to sleep. Not only is that bad diet-wise…but it’s just something I don’t like to do.

So anyway…. I think I may also be a little anxious because I’m going on vacation next week. Vacations are always difficult diet times. I hope I don’t sabotage myself too badly! I haven’t come up with a game plan on the food front yet (too busy finalizing plans and getting ready to go!). So I won’t be weighing in next Wednesday.

On a side note, I received a forwarded email today that lists a bunch of random “facts” (I’m sure you’ve seen similar emails…if not the same exact one), and one of the facts stood out to me:

29. Celery has negative calories! It takes more calories to eat a piece
of celery than the celery has in it to begin with. It's the same with
apples!

I thought it was interesting to read this, and I wonder just how true the apple part of that statement is. So many people love having apples as snacks. I don’t! I should…because it’s an easy, healthy snack. But I have come to find that if I’m hungry and need a snack, and I go eat an apple, then half an hour later I feel hungrier than I was before I ate the thing! I’ve told this to a number of people before, and they look at me like I’m an oddball. But, if there really is truth to the statement above, then I have validation that I’m not cooky!

Alrighty…gotta get back to work. It’s another busy week for me. I’ve got to play catch-up from my time off last week, and I’ve got to get ahead since I’ll be out next week.

Happy Hump Day!

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Mon, 11 Aug 2008 08:00

The Oral Surgery Diet

Well, I now have 4 less teeth to brush. It feels odd! I haven't had teeth missing since I was - what? 10? Is that about the time that kids stop losing teeth? I can't even remember!

Yup, I had my wisdom teeth removed last Thursday. The surgery went well. easy as could be. I was given a local anesthetic only, and the teeth just came right out!

The rest of Thursday didn't go too horribly. I was pretty out of it, understandably, but I got to lay in bed and watch 90210 all day, so in a way it was actually enjoyable. Friday...not so much. I think that the lack of food, combined with the Vicodine, didn't agree with my system. I got sick to my stomach a couple times, and was pretty much asleep all day long.

By Saturday, I was just fine. I'm still a little sore, but it's bearable. And I can eat again, which is awesome!

Yeah, for about 3 days, I was basically on a liquid diet, with a little bit of soft foods here and there - Slim Fast, soup broth, applesauce, mashed potatoes, etc. On Sunday, out of curiousity, I stepped on the scale. 5 pounds! Not the greatest means of dropping the weight, but if it can kick up my motivation, I'll take it.

The good news is that I find I'm not as hungry today as I normally am. I still have 15 points left for dinner! My tummy shrunk a bit. :) It may actually be a bit of challenge to eat all my points tonight. I'm sure I'll manage though.

So, today should be no problem staying OP. And then I just have to get through tomorrow, and then it will be weigh-in day! I'm actually looking forward to it.

Alright...time to go home. Gotta figure out what planning I can get done for my vacation next week!

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Wed, 06 Aug 2008 02:37

Today's post...posted today!

Today was weigh-in day. I’m bummed. It’s back up to 203.5, and I actually considered NOT logging it today. I was going to wait and log it tomorrow, when I’m pretty sure it will be down to what it was last week. But I have to be consistent and accountable. So, I logged.

Last night was pretty crazy. DBF and I left Kyle with Grandma and went in to the City to see The Faint at the Grand Ballroom. For the most part, it was a fun night. I enjoyed the music, and I got the chance to shake my money maker, but unfortunately, the night ended on a bad note. First, during the very last song, a cup of beer was accidentally thrown on me. GREAT! I was the DD, and I completely reeked of beer. Not fun. Then, the group that I was with wanted to have a “last drink” of the night, and stepped in to a bar right by the GB. This irritated me, because I was ready to go home. It was already late, and we had a 45 minute drive home ahead of us. Plus, I had to come to work this morning – so I needed sleep in order to function. DBF didn’t quite understand my frustration, and we ended up getting in to a bit of a fight over it. And finally, the parking garage we parked in closed at midnight. We were about 10/15 minutes late. Luckily, the attendant was still there, but he was a complete @$$hole! We calmly explained to him that we hadn’t seen the “Closed at midnight” sign (which was completely true – they only had one sign up and it wasn’t ideally located in the garage). And he immediately started going off on us. I won’t go in to detail, but it was a mess, and we were very grateful when he finally let us out.

So, I’m running on about 4 hours of sleep right now. My work load isn’t horrific yet today, but I’ve got plenty to keep me occupied. I’m functioning ok for the time being. Let’s hope I can make it through the afternoon ok.

The good news is that I have tomorrow and Friday off. I am having all 4 wisdom teeth pulled, and will be on vicadin. I’m looking forward to that! DBF will be taking full responsibility of Kyle, and I plan on closing myself up in the back bedroom to read, watch my 90210, Season 5 DVD’s, and SLEEP!

NSV! I was asked last night “How did you lose your baby weight?” Not “How are you losing…” but “How DID….” As is, past tense. As in, I lost it already. But I haven’t! I still have 30 to go before I reach my pre-preggo weight. I really appreciated that. Felt good.

Ok…plan for today:

*Brekkie – Coffee! Lots of coffee! (But with Splenda, so there are no points attached); Oatmeal (3)

*Snack – Applesauce (2)

*Lunch – Frozen Meal, Ravioli (6)

*Snack – Fiber One Bar (2)

*Dinner - ??? I will have 13 points to use. I just heard from my brother and it sounds like he’s going to bbq burgers tonight. I believe I have some MorningStar patties in the freezer. I can use that instead of the real stuff. Not sure what else he has in mind, but I can plan on lots of veggies to fill the void. And I may just have to finish the night with a (small) scoop of ice cream.

Wish me luck! It’s those after-work hours that are the killer!

Oh…and NO SCALE tomorrow morning!!! I get too obsessed with it. I need to stop. Once a week. Weigh-in day only.

If you don’t hear from me for a while…it’s cuz I’m drugged up and resting. Have a great weekend!

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Wed, 06 Aug 2008 01:46

Post for 8/5/08 (posted a day late)

Lately, I've been blogging on Micro. Word while I'm at work, so that I can spend some good time thinking while I write, and not feel like I'm spending too much time online. So I blogged yesterday, but forgot to copy and paste online here. Therefore...this posting is a day late. I will blog again for today later on. Anyway....

I’m having a fat day. I’m not complaining. It’s not like I’m feeling down about myself or anything like that. It’s just a fact. First of all, I know that I haven’t lost anything lately, and that’s simply because I have been making bad decisions. It’s my own doing. And second, I know a big part of the “fat day” feeling is because of my clothes. I’ve got these pants on that I can fit in to, but they were pre-preggo pants, so they…uh…”show off my curves” so-to-speak. If I were in pants that fit better, I probably wouldn’t be feeling like this. But what can I do? I have a limited wardrobe and a limited bank account. I just have to suck it up (or maybe…in) and move on.

Since tomorrow is my official weigh-in day, and I know I already screwed up over the weekend, my aim has not been to lose weight the last couple days, but to just be cautious and (hopefully) not gain any more. I did well at work yesterday – had my coffee, my breakfast, and my lunch. No snacks. Got home and it was a different story. There’s just too much temptation in the house. I can’t wait to have my own place again and stock it with non-tempting items. But, when you live with other people…. Anyway, I did go for a walk last night, so that’s a plus.

Today hasn’t been horrible, but if I were trying to stay 100% OP, then I would have a hard time. My boyfriend got us Starbucks this morning. I was good and requested a Grande Skinny (fat-free and sugar free) Vanilla Latte. Which he got for me. But, he also got me a coffee cake. And I ate it. And it was good. And it was a lot of points! So now I’m trying to counter that. No snacks at work again. I had a Smart Ones for lunch. I’m drinking my water. All I have to deal with is tonight, and I know it will be difficult. My boyfriend and I are going to a concert in the City. I don’t know what we’re doing for dinner, but I doubt it will be homemade and low-cal. And there will be beer tonight. Not a lot for me, but some.

Anyway…on to other news. Today was Kyle’s 6 month appointment. He’s doing well! Nothing too exciting to report. He’s 27 inches, and 20 pounds 4 ounces. He’s doing well developmentally. And he’s a very happy baby!

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Mon, 04 Aug 2008 07:24

Busy bee!

I think this is going to be a very trying week for me...especially health-wise. And I need to get in a better mind-set, in the weight-loss department, because a bad attitude will affect my choices this week.

I had my usual bad weekend. Friday night was movie night at a friend’s place, and the evening included a lot of wine. Saturday was a family BBQ. And because we had company over the weekend, we have a lot of extra “goodies” lying around. This is bad. This will take some major willpower.

Luckily, I’m stocked pretty well at work, and since the majority of my day is spent there, I do have a light at the end of my tunnel. The obstacles I will have to overcome in the office will most likely have to deal with wanting to eat as the result of my exhaustion. I get tired, and I want to eat more…I guess I assume that I’ll end up with more energy that way.

So, here’s what I’ve got going on this week.

Playing baby taxi service. My boyfriend is watching our son again during the day, but he has to work one-on-one with a student for a couple hours every afternoon. And since his truck does not accommodate a child seat, then I get to use my lunch hour to pick Kyle up and take him to his sitter.
Kyle’s 6 month appointment Tuesday morning.
Concert in SF Tuesday night. The Faint. Trying to be excited about this because my boyfriend is very excited. But, he bought the tickets for us without asking me first, and going to a concert on a “school night” is difficult and tiring. I’m sure it will be fun, but I will be completely worn out on Wednesday.
Wisdom teeth removal on Thursday. All 4. Vicadin (sp?). Fun times. And I will be recovering all weekend.

So, that’s my upcoming week. It’s only Monday, but I can already tell that the week is going to fly by. And I’m tired just thinking about it.

I’m still up on the scale, thanks in part to both TOM and the weekend. I still feel slightly bloated. I need to drink more water.

In 2 weeks, I will be on vacation. I was hoping that I’d be down to 195 by then, but I don’t think that’s going to happen. I think that for the time being, setting those kinds of goals is not a good thing for me. I just don’t have the time or energy for that kind of commitment. I need to focus more on health, which is a better long-term goal anyway, and then see my weight-loss as a positive side-effect.

So my goals this week are to:

~ limit my snacking

~ not let outside factors (ie tiredness, emotions, etc.) effect what and how much I eat

~ drink plenty of water

~ take my vitamins

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Tue, 29 Jul 2008 07:48

Pardon my whining

I’d like to take a moment to whine like a child, in the hopes that venting will lift my spirits for the day and I won’t be tempted to over-indulge in bad food. Yes, I’ve had a bad morning.

First of all, I should explain that TOM is due to visit tomorrow. Great. Weigh-in day. That alone irritates me. Add to that the morning I’ve had…. Well, needless to say, I’m not feeling very positive about tomorrow.

My day started at about 4:30 or 5 this morning, when Kyle woke up. He didn’t wake up enough to be fed or anything, but he cried out a couple times and was stirring a lot. So, this means that I didn’t fall back asleep until I knew he was back asleep. Which I’m guessing was 5:30 or so. Therefore, when my alarm went off at 6:20, I could hardly get my eyes open. And, of course, Kyle was sound asleep.

Sidenote: Normally, he’ll wake up when I do, and my boyfriend will change him and feed him while I get in the shower and begin to get ready. This works out perfectly! By the time I’m showered and dressed, Kyle has been taken care of, and my boyfriend can leave for work on time, and I’ll finish getting ready for the morning while Kyle plays independently.

That’s not how it worked this morning. Because Kyle woke up in the middle of the night, he ended up sleeping in until the time that my boyfriend leaves for work. Which means that I was in charge of changing him and feeding him. This caused me to fall behind schedule and run late.

So, I’m already irritated and flustered when I go and drop Kyle off at his sitters. I am then informed that starting next week, for a couple of weeks, she will be out of town, dealing with family issues. Kyle’s sitter is my boyfriend’s aunt, so I know what’s going on and I realize the importance. This adds to my irritation, though, because I now need to find a last-minute sitter. Oh! How I wish I could afford to put Kyle in to an actual reliable and steady daycare!

Anyway, the next couple weeks will be interesting. See, my boyfriend is a teacher assistant in a classroom of autistic kids. He has been working summer school lately, but this is his last week. Next week he’ll be off again for August, and will be able to watch Kyle for most of the day. BUT…he’s taken a side job with another autistic boy for a couple of hours in the afternoon. If we can’t find a last minute sitter, he can always cancel that side job, but he (we?) could really use that extra money.

But I digress…. If we find a sitter, then I’ll end up having to take really late lunches (like, at 2:30!), go pick up Kyle from his dad’s, take him to the sitters, head back to work, and then pick Kyle up after work. Not a fun way to spend a lunch “break.” But, my boyfriend doesn’t have a childseat-friendly vehicle, so it’s up to me to do the driving.

On top of that, the family issues that are going on might require my boyfriend, Kyle and I to take the day off tomorrow and go up with my boyfriend’s parents for a family visit. But my boyfriend’s parents are rather wishy-washy, so we could end up going to bed tonight believing that we’re going to visit tomorrow, but then wake up in the morning with the plans changed. I am such a “planner” that this makes me want to pull my hair out.

Anyway, that’s just a lot for me to process first thing in the morning!

Thanks for letting me vent. I hope this makes me feel better, and keeps me away from the bad stuff.

In an attempt to focus on positive things in the meantime:

BH 90210, Season 5, gets released on DVD this week!!! YAY! Hurry up payday!

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Mon, 28 Jul 2008 03:33

Just your basic food talk

Weekend Review: A habit I’d like to break (or at least improve apon – for both health and financial reasons), is the whole “it’s the weekend and I need to get out and have some fun” mindframe. Now, this doesn’t necessarily mean going out and partying. I believe I’ve gotten that out of my system in recent years, and I’m perfectly fine going without them. However, without fail, every Thursday I get the itch to go out to a nice dinner and have a drink or two. Adult time. Welcoming the weekend time. And quite often, I actually do get the chance to do so, thanks to the Grandma’s and their willingness to babysit. I didn’t think it was going to happen this week, though, because my boyfriend and I are quite broke at this point in time. But we really did have the itch big time…probably because we didn’t get to welcome in the weekend together last weekend.

My boyfriend offered to put dinner on his card, and ee ended up at Chevy’s. I had their chicken quesadilla appetizer as my dinner (was only able to eat half of it though), a sour apple margarita, and WAY too many chips and salsa. And after, we met up with his brother and a nearby bar for a drink. I just had one beer. We couldn’t stay out too late. So…that’s how my weekend got started.

Saturday was ok for the most part…most of the day. But during the late afternoon/early evening, we decided to get out of the house for a bit and headed to a nearby town to walk around their cute little downtown strip. I pulled a little cash from savings, with the intention of stopping somewhere relatively cheap for dinner. And it could have been. But it wasn’t. It ended up on my card. We went to this Sports Bar and Grill (more of a Grill than a Bar). We got an appetizer (spinach & artichoke dip with foccacia bread), our entrees (I had a club sandwich –only ate half, with salad instead of fries, ranch dressing), a dessert that we split (warm brownie a la mode), and these drinks called a Chip Shot (coffee, bailey’s, tuaca, and whip cream). Expensive, both calorically and financially.

Sunday started with pancakes. I don’t know what it is, but now that I have Kyle, I get the urge to make real breakfasts on Sundays. Maybe it’s a flashback to when I was a kid, and my dad would make us breakfast before church. Lunch was my leftover sandwich. I had a Venti Skinny Vanilla Latte in the afternoon. In the early evening – since I knew I was going to have a late dinner – I had some Triscuits and cheese, and a glass of wine. Dinner was gnocchi, French bread, and salad. And “dessert” was a fruit smoothie.

I put the word dessert in quotes, because of a deep rooted mental block – which is that fruit is not a dessert, unless it is combined with cake or chocolate or whip cream or any other typical dessert component. But, my boyfriend bought us stuff for smoothies, so that’s what we had. I appreciated it, and know that it was a healthier option. But it wasn’t chocolate.

So, yeah. I overdid it a little this weekend. Today’s a new day.

As I was having my coffee at work first thing this morning, I wrote out my list for the day:

*My two typical cups of coffee

*Sugar Free Oatmeal

*WW Nonfat Yogurt

*Nutrisystem Meal

*Kettle Korn 100 cal. Pack

*Min. of 4 bottles of water

*Vitamins

That’s for my work day. For dinner, the plan is:

*Marinated Chipotle Chicken Skewers (bought ‘em at Trader Joes…look tasty!)

*Leftover French bread from last night

*Corn

*And maybe another smoothie?

I’ll have to be careful with portions tonight.

I don’t plan on exercising on my lunch today. I didn’t have time this morning to pack my gym stuff, and I’m antsy to finish the book I’m reading. “The Other Bolyn Girl.” I don’t have much further to read, and I really just want to finish. I feel like I’ve been reading this book forever. It’s good…it’s just so long. And with Kyle, I don’t get a whole lot of free reading time. So, I’ll go sit outside and read on my lunch today. Yay!

But that means I should find some kind of activity to do tonight. Does laundry count? Haha. Maybe I’ll take Kyle for a walk when we get home. I’d love to be able to promise I’ll do something, but I know it’s hard for me to make myself do anything at night. Maybe if I stick to my food plan well enough today, then going without exercise won’t make me feel quite so quilty.

Good luck today!

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Fri, 25 Jul 2008 06:55

Stupid sciatica

My sciatica is kicking in big time right now. Ow! This is, literally, a pain in the butt. I’ve been trying whatever I can get away with at work, and nothing is helping. So annoying! I don’t know what happened either. I took off for my lunch, and just as I was leaving my building, it flared up. It made my walk to our downtown Farmer’s Market not-so-enjoyable.

This week is just not going as well as I had hoped – nutritionally speaking. Wednesday was the bad movie night (wait…to clarify…the movie ROCKED! But my food choices were bad). And then yesterday, I made some not-so-good snacking choices which left me with very little points remaining for dinner. I ended up at a friend’s house, where dinner was offered up – chedderwurst, Caesar salad, tortilla chips. I had one ‘wurst, the salad, and too many tortilla chips. Honestly, I didn’t feel bad about what I ate last night, but I definitely went over my points limit. And today has pretty much been blown already. We had a staff meeting this morning with fresh fruit (yay! Good!), bagels (Bad!), and cream cheese (while I chose the light stuff, that’s just Bad disguised as Good). And then, when my coworkers and I went to the farmer’s market, we ended up stopping for lunch at this 50’s-esque diner and I had chicken nuggets and fries.

This bring me to my next point of conversation – emotional eating. There are so many articles about this, and in reading everyone’s blogs, it seems that it really is a huge issue. And I place myself in this category…I consider myself to be an emotional eater. Although, I believe I know what my main trigger emotion is – boredom. I’m a boredom eater. And that seems easy enough to remedy, right? I think so too! But I’m obviously still having trouble with it. So I’ve wracked my brain to figure out what other emotional issues I might have, and if my weight issue really IS associated with emotional eating. Because there have been plenty of times when I am about to indulge in something, and I stop and think “Why do I really want to eat this? Am I emotional about something?” And you know what the answer is most of the time? “I want to eat this because it is going to taste REALLY good!” Simple as that.

Here’s the thing…in reading people’s blogs, or WW’s success stories, or watching weight loss show…it seems that for a lot of emotional eaters, there was a particular moment, or period in his/her life when things were down that caused the weight gain. And from there, they would fall into the emotional eating trap. You know the one. “I feel bad, so I’m going to eat to feel better. I feel better, but now that I’ve eaten, I’ve gained weight, so I feel even worse. So I’m going to eat again to feel better again.” And on and on….

Well, what if there never WAS a moment or time frame like that? I think about myself for example, and I have always been on the bigger side. I was taller. I was bigger. To me, that just kind of went hand in hand. Yeah, I had moments where I was teased for being bigger, but until I hit puberty, I never really thought I could do anything about that. It was just who I was. And my size has just carried over through the years. Can I still blame emotional issues on that? I mean, can you really tell a 7 year old that their weight is to blame on some deep emotional problem? I’m sure there are some extreme examples (ie abuse) that could fit that bill, but I don’t think that was the case for me. Nutritionally, I did whatever my parents did. Physically…well, I was more of a book worm as a kid, so while I played like any other kid, I never got in to sports or anything like that.

So, in my mind, my weight is more a result of my foundation…my upbringing. It’s what I know. I’ve never known what it is like to be thin. Even at my lowest adult weight – which I was perfectly happy with and made me feel super confident) – I was still 170 and considered “overweight.”

Ahhh…this blog is getting long and we’re about to close. Maybe I should stop the discussion on childhood emotional eating here. I’ll get to adolescence, the teen years, and adulthood in future blogs.

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Thu, 24 Jul 2008 05:12

Welllll...

After my post yesterday, things basically went downhill nutritionally.

It was birthday cake day in the office. We had two cakes - guava (sounds wierd...tastes awesome) and mocha. I had a small sliver of both. They may not have been as bad as I recorded them as being, because they had a light and fluffy "frosting" rather than the heavy stuff. But I don't know.

Then, my boyfriend and I went to see The Dark Knight last night (AWESOME movie! Loved it!). We had dinner in the food court - Chinese. We both got these Bowl meals, where we could choose one entree which they put on top of either fried rice or chow mein. I had orange chicken on top of chow mein. It actually wasn't a bad portion size (considering most Chinese food portions), so I wasn't feeling too bad about that.

But then we went to the theater. And - I'm sorry - but I'm still learning how to NOT associate certain activities with food. When I go to the movies, I want to get snacks. Especially because the cost of movies tickets these days means that I don't go to the movies very often - so I want to have the full experience, you know? I declined getting a drink (didn't want to get up to use the bathroom during the movie), so that was a small plus. But...I did get my standard Reese's Pieces (love 'em!). And my boyfriend and I shared a small popcorn.

I have no idea what my points total for yesterday came to.

But...oddly enough...I was down when I stepped on the scale this morning! Yesterday, it read 200.5 lbs. Today it was 199! WTH?

Yeah...I know...I said I need to stop stepping on the scale every day. I'm addicted. And I wanted to see what the damage was from last night. I will do my best to avoid the scale tomorrow.

Also, I'm not getting to excited about the 199 just yet. Today was not an official weigh-in day, so it's not going on my record yet. But...I'm very hopeful, and seeing that number on the scale might just motivate me to stay strong over the weekend.

Haven't exercised today. Just wasn't able to motivate myself during my lunch hour here. I will tomorrow.

Oh...one NSV that I've noticed the last few days...my skin is looking really good right now! And that can be attributed to better health!

Well, that's my day so far. Hope you all are having a great one!

TGI (almost) F!!!

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Wed, 23 Jul 2008 05:52

That Darn Half Pound!

Due to the choices I made yesterday, I ended up being down a pound this morning! I’ll take it! I’ll celebrate it! But...the means of obtaining that little victory weren’t the greatest. As I wrote yesterday, I had Togo’s for lunch – a sandwich and chips, which left me quite full for (basically) the rest of the day. I also ate late, which helped with the “staying full” thing. But in order to counter my lunch, I ended up not eating dinner (well…ok…I had a small bowl of ice cream and a See’s lollipop…). While that may even out, according to “Weight Loss Mathematics,” it’s not the healthiest thing to do. So, I do feel a little guilty about the loss.

The only other issue I have about the loss is that my scale showed an extra half pound that is keeping me away from a milestone goal! One measly half pound! How irritating! I’m wondering what it is about my scale…I always seem to weigh in with half-pounds attached. I give props to people who actually go to meetings and are able to put up with those fragmented pounds that the scales give. “Congratulations Ms. So-And-So…you lost .354978 of a pound!” That would drive me nuts.

On to other topics, I was watching my son play on the floor last night, and I started to think. See, he is on the verge of crawling – it could possibly be any day now. Over this last weekend, he learned how to prop himself up on both his hands and knees and do the whole pre-crawling-body-rock. And it’s pretty obvious that he’s advancing every day – he can hold himself up for longer periods, he tries different ways of moving his legs, etc. And it becomes frustrating for him! He’ll be up for a while, but eventually groans in frustration and either plops down on his belly, or takes a faceplant because he can’t hold his big ol’ noggin up anymore. But you know what? He rests for a short while, and gets right back up and tries again, no matter how frustrated he gets. He wants to move so bad!

When do we lose this determination? When did I lose this determination? I’d love to take a cue from my son, and learn to not give up on things, no matter how frustrated I get…to keep working at things until I do what I set out to do. I quit too easily. It’s always been a downfall of mine. A lot of things in my life, while I was growing up, came easily to me – school, jobs, etc. But that’s not how my life works anymore. Things don’t come easily. And I’m afraid to push myself. I’m afraid of failure. So I’ve settled for complacency. That’s bad.

Anyway…that went off in somewhat of a tangent. It was meant to be connected to weight loss efforts and physical activity, but my mind veered off. I’m done now.

Accountability Log

Food:

Coffee w/ Creamer & Splenda

Sugar Free Oatmeal

Fruit and Nut Mix

Nutrisystem Ravioli (I’m not on the system…just had some meals passed on to me recently…it wasn’t quite as UNtasty as I had prepared myself for.)

Cranergy

Not sure about dinner tonight. My boyfriend and I are going to the movies, so we won’t have time to make anything at home. It might be a food court dinner night. I’ll try my hardest to make the best choices.

Fitness:

Treadmill – 20 minutes, 1.14 miles, 101 calories (nothing to brag about here, but we’ll be looking for improvement, people)

Stationary Bike – 10 minutes, .83 miles, 55 calories

Until next time….

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