Well, I'm up again. I'm starting to feel defeated. Although that doesn't seem like the right word. "Defeated" implies that I put up a fight, but I don't really feel like I'm fighting that hard. I feel like there's a whole lot more that I can be doing. Which is why I don't want to give up just yet.
I'm following Weight Watchers, but I don't think I really care for their PointsPlus program. I love that fruits and vegetables are zero points now, but I don't like that everything else has a higher points value. I understand the concept...to encourage more fruit and veggie intake, and to put the "right" kinds of food in your body. But my brain is so trained to think that calories are calories and at this point in my weight loss game - where my priority is to just lose weight - that it shouldn't matter so much where those calories come from.
Because here's what happens - let's just say that I have a stressful day at work, and my sweet tooth goes into overdrive. I try to eat some healthy foods - fruits, veggies, whatever. But my brain is still yelling "I want chocolate!!!" So I decide to indulge, in moderation. But that "moderate" portion still ends up being high in points, and then I feel guilty anyway and think "I'm being punished anyway with these high points, so what's the point?"
Kinda backwards thinking, but it is what it is. I just keep waiting for that switch in my brain to flip.
Anyway, this week was a little difficult because I've been sick and the weather has been bad. It's hard to feel motivated when all you want to do is curl up in bed, listen to the rain outside, and try to heal up.
Let's hope this upcoming week is more successful!
I'm down .6 today...which I guess I'll take! Gotta stay positive, right? Otherwise, I'm going to have a difficult time with this weight-loss. But there are times when I feel like I won't get excited about losing weight until I'm down on the lower end of my weight scale. Ok, so I'm down a little today. But I've been this weight how many times before? It's nothing new to me, so it's hard to be excited about it. And yeah...I know that the numbers on the scale shouldn't be the main motivation, but it is a big factor.
But anyway...it's Sunday again, so my brain is once again in "it's a new week and a new start" mode. I had a difficult week - I was hormonal, things were a little stressful at work, and my son was pretty sick at the end of the week. So my game plan that had been laid out last Sunday wasn't exactly followed through. I'll try again this week: Track, Water, Walk....
It's daylight savings time, which is a bummer sleep-wise. But the positive is that the sun will still be out when I get off of work, which will hopefully motivate me to take my son out for walks after we get home at night.
Well, that's about it for now. Time to start taking care of Sunday business.
Today's WI: 196 lbs.
Today's weigh-in was actually kind of a shock. I expected the scale to be up, because I am severely lacking groceries and have been resorting to eating JUNK...but I wasn't expecting it to be up as much as it was.
I tend to step on the scale everyday to keep myself in check, and when I got on the scale yesterday morning, it was only 192.8. Yeah. Shock. However, the majority of the week, I've been closer to the 192 weight, so I'm thinking this morning's weigh-in is more salt-retention than anything (I ate a few too many Ritz crackers last night).
My plan for the week is:
1) Track, track, track
2) Drink LOTS of water
3) Go grocery shopping and stock up on healthy food
4) Walk for 30 minutes at LEAST two days this week
5) Go to yoga on Wednesday
My motivation for this weight loss is primarily just to be happy with myself. There's a lot going on in my life right now that I can't control, but this is something that I can.
My timeframe to lose the majority of the weight is by the end of October. My boyfriend's best friend is getting married in Cabo San Lucas on Halloween, so what better secondary motivation than a trip to a resort in Mexico?!? That's 8 months to lose 26 pounds...that's a little over 3 pounds a month! Putting that kind of perspective on my journey makes this feel SO doable.
Hope you all have a successful week!
Hi! And welcome to my blog. I first signed up for EP...well...quite a number of years ago. I haven't signed on for maybe the last couple of years, but I'm going to give it another go. I've been considering blogging about my current weight-loss attempts but didn't want to blog on some major public forum like blogspot or facebook. I wanted my blogs to only be seen by people who could relate to my attempts. I woke up this morning and randomly thought of this site, so I signed on to see if it even still existed and if anyone was still using it. Since the answer is yes to both, here I am!
I decided to clear out all of my old information - all my previous weights, all my previous blogs, all my previous pictures...and I even cleared out all my "friends" who have not signed on in years. There are a few of you who still log on, so I kept you on my friends list. Your personal accounts are quite motivational! But I really wanted to start new.
A brief background: My first major weight-loss took place in 2004. I was 23 and had reached 200 pounds. I joined Weight Watchers and lost 30 pounds relatively easy. I maintained for about a year, gained 15, then lost again - also relatively easily. I maintained for a while again, and then got pregnant in 2007. I gained A LOT with the pregnancy. Tried to lose after, but it was difficult post-baby. I tried multiple programs - WW, Nutrisystem, Jenny Craig. I had some success with Nutrisystem and Jenny Craig while I was strictly following the programs, but the weight came right back on as I was transitioning off them.
At the beginning of 2011, I was doing really well on Jenny Craig. I was essentially at goal and looking pretty good! But I got tired of the food, and the expense, and dropped the program. The weight started creeping on slightly, but I was able to be somewhat in control throughout the majority of the year. Well, the end of the year was difficult. Some personal things were going on and I turned to emotional eating. And then the holidays hit, and that just ruined me for the year. And now I weigh more than I did before I joined JC.
I decided to go back - once again - to Weight Watchers. It's the system that makes the most sense to me, and is the most economical. But it's been very slow going. I'm hoping "slow and steady wins the race."
Sundays are my weigh-in days, so I'll post my initial weight tomorrow. I'll try to get a "before" photo too.