The good news

I had a nice fat juicy post typed out yesterday when I got a call from a client who needed me to drop something off for him.  I hit close on the browser without hitting submit and lost the whole thing!  Wahhhh!  Oh well.

So, the good news is that I only gained a pound over the weekend!  That is definite progress for me since I have been gaining anywhere from 3 to 6 pounds every weekend all summer.  It all comes back off during the week, but then I ruin it again over the next weekend.  So, keeping it to 1 pound is an accomplishment.  Also, I think I can blame it on AF instead of eating badly.  I didn't make GREAT choices, but I did make the best choice available.  Hopefully, I can keep losing yet this week and then keep going through this weekend. 

I have been walking around in a fog today and I am hoping that I will be able to get more sleep tonight.  However, I have to finish invitations for my son's birthday party so they can go in the mail tomorrow.  Ahhhhh!  I have them 90% done, but just  have to finish the lettering.  Can't quite seem to get it done!  There is too much to do in my life.

I miss my old life.  A lot.  I was really happy before I had kids and now I struggle just to make it through the day.  Anyone else feel like this?  I am not saying that I would ever give up what I have, but I definitely think that if I had it to do over again I wouldn't have had kids.  I know that I will be able to do all those things that I did before, but there are days that I am really resentful of being a parent.  My mom keeps telling me that this is the most important thing I will ever do, but all I can think about is that million ways I am going to screw up.  Talk about stressful.

I am starting to babble.  Definitely need more sleep.