Yeah!!!

Somehow I was able to get into my account on my work computer... It's a miracle....  I need to be able to get to EP while at work.  That is the only way I can get through my day making good choices.

So, my weight gain was not as bad as I thought.  Which is great, but I still feel like crap and feel like a look like crap.  I can do this... I know I can.  I need to prepare my lunches in the mornings.  This morning I ran out of time, so I brought left over stuffed crust pizza.  I think I will throw it away and go get a salad from Wendy's instead.  I will feel better if I do that.

I hope everyone is doing well, I have a lot of blog catch up to do....

GLAD TO BE BACK!!!

Fell off the weight loss wagon...

I knew that would happen when I changed jobs.... Well, I am slowly working my way back.  The newest problem I have is that I haven't been able to log on to EP.  I am still not sure why... suddenly today it finally worked.  I think that I have probably gained back everything I lost before.  It always amazes me at how long it takes to lose weight and how fast it takes to gain weight.  It's just not fair.  So for all of you out there I am sorry I was MIA, I couldn't log on.

Feeling Good!

I went to the gym last night and while I was there I decided that it is good that I had a gain on the scale... you ask why.  Well, I think it keeps me in check.  It reminds me just how important it is for me to eat right AND exercise.  So, back on track I go.  Usually at the gym I do my cardio on the eliptical, but last night I was feeling a little crazy... I ran on the treadmill (huge accomplishment) and I rode the bike.  I ran a mile, which is another huge accomplishment, I hate running, but it felt good.  Then I rode the bike for 20 minutes, which also felt great!  So after all that cardio I am definately staying on track today!

Good Luck Everyone!

I had a great weekend!

All I did was relax this weekend and I loved every minute of it!  I hardly even showered and lived in my jammies the whole time.  I've gained since my last weigh in, but I am confident that I can get it off again.

I've got a long day ahead of me... I have to go tell my boss I am quitting as soon as I get up the balls to do it.  I just hope he makes today my last day.  You know how once you get it in your head that you will be leaving you don't want to work anymore.  That is where I am at... I just want to go home and get in my jammies again!

It's FRIDAY!!!!

Hooray... it's FRIDAY!!!  I have not been to the gym in 2 days and I am feeling it.... ARGH!  Last night I was all dressed and ready to go and John was watching the MLB Playoffs (YUCK), I decided to be the nice wife and wait for him to finish before going to the gym.  During that waiting time... I fell asleep!!!  Needless to say we did not make it to the gym... Damn you Cardinals and Rockies!!!  I plan on spending the entire weekend at the gym... ha, ha we'll see!

Good Luck to everyone over the weekend!

A lot on my mind....

John and I seem to keep finding ways to stress ourselves out more and more... and you all know what that equates to... eating!! 

My old boss called me yesterday and wants me to come back to work for him.  I am terrified because when I took the job initially is when I gained the 45 pounds that I am now trying to lose.  I think I have learned more discipline, but it still scares me.  I guess we'll see.  It also scares me to change jobs when we are right in the middle of waiting for a baby.  I have always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.....

I wonder what that reason is... hmmmmm.....

Slow and Steady....

I guess it could be worse, I could be gaining...  I lost .2 pounds since my last weigh in.  I keep telling myself if it comes off slow it will stay off, I don't know if that is true, but I would like to believe it.

We went to the gym last night.  I really didn't want to go (TOM and all), but I am really glad I went.  It makes me feel good.  I want to start doing cardio for an hour instead of a half hour, I know I can do it.  I just always start thinking about everything I should be getting done and so I leave after a half hour. 

John and I went to Olive Garden last night... yum, yum!  I got the Parmesan Crusted Tilapia with wheat pasta and no sauce on it.  It was sooooo good.  I also had a bowl of soup and one, yes one breadstick!  I was proud of myself I did really good yesterday! 

Hopefully today goes even better!!!

I HATE TOM!!!

Enough said!!

I've got a case of the Mondays

Weekends are never long enough...  I ate pretty good over the weekend.  We only went out to eat once, although we ordered pizza twice.  I did pretty good when we went out, I think only because I wasn't feeling very good.  I think I also did good with the pizza.  I only ate one slice of each pizza.  Considering my husband and I used to be able to put away an entire pizza by ourselves in one sitting, I think that's pretty damn good!  We even went to the gym on Saturday, which we never do.  So, all in all, a pretty good weekend. 

I started the countdown towards Thanksgiving, only because I need a vacation from work!!  I am mailing in the last of our adoption paperwork today..  Hooray!!  I even got our profiles done to mail in... they turned out amazing!  So, now we start to cross our fingers and don't stop until we get our baby!  I really want to start decorating the baby's room, but John says I have to wait until we are matched with a baby.  He is probably right, I always get ahead of myself and then wonder why I am disappointed.

Sorry for the long blog today...  Is anyone else having a hard time losing inches off their boobs???  I want my boobs gone and they sure aren't going anywhere!!

Yesterday went from bad to worse... eating wise

Well, I had that horrible lunch and then proceeded to get a cookie dough sundae and then had a slice of pizza for dinner.  ARGH!  The good part is that John & I did go to the gym, it was a good workout too.  I think I figured out my problem this week.  I didn't plan my meals out!  I have learned this week that I MUST plan everything I plan on putting in my mouth.  I have been so good, but I just slipped this week.  This is probably the point that I usually get to and quit the diet, but I AM NOT GONNA DO IT!!!  I have lost 5 pounds and I AM GOING TO KEEP GOING!!!!!