02/11/2010 13:26
Old Friends, New Motivation
New Motivation. Not the New years resolution, though. Been a while since I've been on, but I've been doing well. I've been lingering around 146# and feel pretty good. Eating got a wee bit out of control around the holidays, chocolate, cookies, etc.
Started a new job in November that keeps me running several hours a day.
Reconnected with some old friends from HS and looking forward to seeing them again in early May. Hence, Old Friends, New Motivation. Funny how we try to look our best for people who can't remember the last time they saw you, but I plan on knocking their socks off!. Started another round of phentermine to kick start my quest. Doctor seemed impressed I've kept most of the weight off, and no issues with starting again.
Day #3 of Phen, working well, no headaches, back to cotton mouth. Starting drinking protein shakes for meal supplement and introduced weights to the gym routine. Been tanning to improve my outlook and motivation.
07/27/2009 17:09
Back in the game
Vacation came and went. What a lovely time. The past month has been a vacation. Been out of the exercise routine in the past 4 weeks and have done pretty well with food choices, although, I have indulged a few times in some ice cream.
Today, I climbed back on the horse and I am focused from now until at least school starts for the kids....baby steps.
142.5 today.....I feel pretty good about this considering the time off. Actually, I am pretty damn proud! I realized how easy it is to lose focus of goals. Blogging and tracking really do help.
Off to a river boat cruise for the day...company in town.
06/24/2009 14:02
Happy Anniversary to me!
Been quite the week already. So much going on. I've been running around so much with sports, errands, kids etc, that I've taken a break from logging food and exercise. I am leaving in a couple of days to go to Canada for 2 weeks. When I return, I will pick up where I left off.
I'm not slacking though. Sunday, we went canoeing with the kids. 5 hours of row row row your boat. I was sunburnt and sore (hence no workout). Today, we are going to the waterpark with the neighbor for her birthday.
I haven't taken my phen for 4 days. Hunger control not so bad, but I am so tired when I wake up - I have no energy. I wanted to take a break for a couple of days now that I hit goal to see how it would affect me. Now I know.
Today should be the most relaxing day of the week. The only kids I have to deal with today are mine. By the way, it's my anniversary, 14 yrs. Been together almost 17. I wish I could report exciting things like I got a new piece of jewlery or a surprise gift, but not gonna happen. My husband is a schmuck in that dept. Ruined "special" occasions early on in the relationship, so I have low expectations. One year, I sent myself flowers for our anniversary. Another time, we sold our house and our daughter was getting baptized on the same weekend, and he forgot my birthday. He ran out to the grocery store and came back with a rose and card at 10P - SOOOOO NOT THE RIGHT THING TO DO!. I hate roses by the way! Next year for 15, I am gonna treat myself.
Lots to do, Lots to do......
06/19/2009 16:34
GOAL!
HELLO 138, it's been such a long time. How have you been? I haven't seen you since I was 16 yrs old and working at Kings Island. It's so nice to see you again, but I hope the visit will be short as I would like to continue on into unchartered territory and see a more desirable friend, called 130. I still think it's too soon to celebrate our reunion until we have been friends again for a couple of days. Stay away from my buddies, salt and water - they like to hang around until I force them out with exercise.
Feels good to see that number.
Really justifies all those times I had to refrain from eating all the foods that contributed to my misery. A friend asked me yesterday if it was "easy"? HELL NO IT WASN'T EASY!
The exercise was no problem, that just took determination and dedication. It was my food choices that were the hardest. If weight loss was easy, nobody would be overweight. It's taken me almost 3 months to lose 19#. Not a lot of weight for many on this site, but when you're only 5'2" it feels like 40#. I begin this quest in April already being physically active, and eating a healthy diet. I have to constantly remind myself this when I read the blog of others who have substantially more weight to lose and are coming off a diet of junk and processed foods. Their bodies are dropping lbs faster because the calorie restriction and shock of healthy foods that they are not used to.
It's been a good past couple of days. I earned some serious karma points by helping out a friend. After too many hours of batting practice, my son finally jacked the ball 3 times last night in his game. When we got home, he gave me a big hug and told me he loved me. He didn't want to let go. I knew it was the best baseball game he ever played, and it was the best one I ever watched
. Then today I hit goal.
I would like to see 130. I don't know what timeline I will give it. I am thinking by the time school starts after Labor Day. It's only 8#, but those 8 will be slow. Next Saturday, we are heading out for vacation for 2 weeks and I will miss my workouts in the gym. June 24 was my goal date and I will take body measurements and new photos to post. It's also my anniversary.
06/16/2009 14:00
Brownie Bites
My weekend "celebration" has cost me a couple of pounds. My daughter and I made brownies for the family and well, you know how that goes. Today I cut them up and put them out of site. Yesterday, I had a bowl of stir-fry around 3P and a greek salad with chicken at 9P. Should have never eaten that late in the day! I am a week away from goal date and what the hell am I doing putting a brownie in my mouth? Well, I am not going to beat myself up over a couple of pounds. I am still happy with my success. Even though the scale says I am up, my stomach is flat and I feel great! This next couple of days, I will drink water like a maniac and zig zag the calories back down. Again, I hesitated in posting my weight but the numbers don't lie and I need to hear/see the truth.
Schools out the for the kids and my husband and I have been working hard with my son on his batting. Everyday this week, there is something going on with him and his sports: baseball, soccer, swimming lessons, etc. A friend of his spent the night the other day and it was an all out snack fest for 2 days. Damn those pizza rolls.
In other news, I began lifting weights. I told myself when I dropped some of this weight I would tone up. I am working on my mid section. My abs and back need some work. I have fabulous legs (my best feature) and my arms are looking good, I am just a bit soft in the middle. Still doing an hour of eliptical everyday, and melting in the sauna when I can.
Gotta stay focused!
06/14/2009 01:57
Happy Dance
Been feeling like Sunday all day to me, but it's only Saturday. Woke up nice and early and let the family sleep in. I had every intention of going to the gym this AM, but got side tracked on this site and another. I downloaded a free copy of:
BURN THE FAT, FEED THE MUSCLE
I kept reading and couldn't stop. Loads of information, almost too much to absorb. It was really helpful to learn about how much and what kind of cardio to be doing for fat loss, calorie zig zagging and setting goals. Seems mental preparation is more important than physical. The more I began thinking about what was said, the more I began to realize why so many of us are failing or falling off the wagon. Subconscious programming is where it is at. Setting realistic goals and doing what it takes to get there. I have a lot of this going for me, I just need some fine tuning. Especially the zig zag. Don't want the body to get stuck in starvation mode.
I went shopping today for some shorts and tank tops. At the start of spring, my shorts were a snug 12 and XL on the tops. Today, I picked up size 8 and L on the tops.
Happy Dance. I am almost there to my goal. I have 10 days to lose a couple more lbs.
Went fishing with the family and then spent 2 hours with my son practicing his hitting for baseball. Talk about frustration!
We went to a new restaurant, American Pie, that serves pizza. Yeah, I enjoyed it, no lie. I started to feel guilty, but then I remembered that I hadn't eaten much for the day. That was my reward for getting into the size 8!
06/10/2009 13:46
Finally noticed
Quite the week. Monday was a great day! Worked out in the AM and then met my son's 1st grade class and walked for ice cream. Diet Pepsi for me please. Made dinner for the family (beef tenderloin...yum!) and watched a ridiculous movie that was more entertaining to make fun of. Debbie Gibson and Lorenzo Llamas were the two headlining stars......Debbie Gibson? Come on!
Tuesday, I got shortchanged on my workout because daughter had a panic attack in the child care area. Her best buddy wasn't there and the center was way too busy, so we left. Spent the day doing some yard work. In the afternoon, I gave blood. Normally this is no big deal. This time, when I was finished and sat up, I was overwhelmed with a hot flash and sweat was pouring out of me. Felt a little sick, too. Didn't want to freak out my daughter (she's 4) so I had a couple of her cookies (oreos - she eats the cream, I get the cookie) and sipped on some apple juice. Felt better in about 10 mins. When I got home, my body went into "backflush" and if there is anything left in my colon today I would be surprised. I'm sure these events contribute to my lose. As of this AM, I was 139.5#
My neighbor came over last night to retrieve her mail and commented that I am shrinking and she is worried I am getting too small (she's a nurse). I just assured her that I am still too heavy for my height and I am losing weight safely thru diet and exercise and I am under medical supervision. She has always seen me on the heavy side. Told her I would ideally like to lose another 10# by the end of the summer and she looked horrified! I am 5'2" with a muscular build and big boobs. 130# would be a dream to me! Even though she showed a genuine concern for my health, it made me feel good that someone finally noticed! I've always worn shirts that are larger (to cover my chest) and it often makes me look bigger that what I am. Lately, I've been out in the yard in tank tops and wearing things that are a little more form fitting. I think this is why she was freaking out on me. Another neighbor of mine has been temp. living in Shanghai China since January and is due to return in 10 days. I am curious to see if she notices my changes.
Time to wake the kids and get Doodle off to school for his last full day.
06/08/2009 03:13
Busy Busy Busy
2 full days now without a migraine. Got the calories back up around 1000. Been quite a busy weekend. Saturday started off with sending my husband and son to a fishing derby for kids, while I took my daughter to swimming lessons. After swimming, joined the boys at the pond. My son won 3rd place with a 12" Trout (about 150 kids competing). He was cheesed that he won. Later in the day, while shopping, I get a call from the real estate office for a showing on my home - PANIC! Bolt out of the mall for a quick cleaning and tidying of the home (this time making the family help). And 2 hours later, gorgeous spotless house. While the house showed, we went to dinner and went shopping. My son got some golf clubs, hubby got a golf bag and new shoes for Father's Day, I got a headache.
Today, we went to see Pixar's new movie, UP. So good. Watched in 3D. Managed to get a walk in, while the men played golf this evening. Period has come and gone and no significant weight gain.
This is the last week of school. I have a busy week. Monday after the gym, my daughter and I are joining the 1st graders to walk for ice cream. Diet Coke for me, please. Tuesday, gym and then I am donated blood. I donate as often as I can. I am also an organ donor (you can have those when I am done with them!). Tues and Thurs PM is my son's baseball, and Thurs is the last day of school - going to enjoy the picnic with the 1st graders! Thurs should be the only day I don't make it to the gym -unless I go late in the day.
I didn't eat very well today. Banana for breakfast, some cereal for lunch and some chicken for dinner -barely hit 600 cals today. Just not hungry. I am ready for some alone time - no kids, no neighbor friends , just me and the tv for an hour. Goodnight!
06/05/2009 15:18
Pain Killers
Well, here we are day 2 of migraine central. Not sure if it's the weather, the meds, or the lack of calories triggering this nightmare. Yesterday, again under 500 calories. Thinking it's the calories. I haven't had a migraine in 6 months and now I've had 2 in a row. Had breakfast today, 3 scrambled eggs and a cup of strawberries. Hit a new low on the scale 141.5. Still not interested in eating. Head hurts like hell, abdomen sore from period (no cramps, lucky me), no appetite.
Had high hopes of a visit to the gym, but my son decides to get sick. So, he's off of school today. Can't bring a sick kid to the gym.
As I sit here holding my head, I am trying to decide if I should medicate with codeine, or just go for the shot? The house is quiet now. When it "wakes up" I will decide. A nice hot shower sounds pretty good regardless.
I just spent the last 30 mins catching up on some of the blogs. Lots of pain and feelings of failure out there. To anyone out there in this boat, and needing some inspiration/motivation, I suggest you search the blog by READY2BME and read the entire blog from start to present. Look at the pictures. This is where I go when I am feeling defeated. Then ask yourself how badly do you want success and what are your obstacles? This lady is my hero!
One day at a time, one meal at a time.
06/04/2009 21:48
Migraine
Last night, my hub takes my son to see a couple of movies. Good for me because now I don't have to cook dinner. Instead, I keep busy by doing yardwork. By 8pm, twinkie and I are watching cartoons and having some air popped popcorn (no dinner). Looking at my food journal - I had less than 500 calories yesterday: a banana for breakfast, a few bites of rotisserie chicken for lunch, and popcorn for a snack. Just kept busy and out of the kitchen.
Went to bed with a headache, and up almost every hour to P. By the way, period on time like clockwork. Wednesday 5P. Can set my watch by it if I had to. At 5A, took a Tylenol 3 with Codeine, still had the damn headache. 8A, a couple more Tylenol 3's. 11A couldn't take it anymore, busted out the imitrex shots and jabbed my thigh. Ahhhh, a quick 5 mins to total relief! I use the shots as a last resort. I hate shots. So I gotta hurt pretty bad to do it.
Skipped the gym today for obvious reasons. Went grocery shopping and got some housework done. Doodle has a baseball game tonight, so I will be exercising my lungs cheering on the team (I am the most obnoxious mother, probably because I come from a baseball family and I played too!).
Haven't eaten much today. A banana this morning and some steak just now. Probably all the pain meds I've fed my body today, I just am not interested in eating.
