I so don't know what's up with me.. A. I'm either getting "too comfortable" with my boyfriend or B. I have lost total control again ! LOL....I've gained weight instead of loosing...lol...about 5 lbs to be exact! God! What's up with that?? What's up with you Jackki?? Anyhow I need to start again ...it's just soo hard...and what really sucks is that I cannot find a partner to work-out with...I've been stressed lately as well though because my boyfriend has been very ill and has been in the hospital for about 3 weeks yesterday exaclty! Anyway he's going to be there for about another 2 weeks and so just pray for him. My son turned 8 and we had a small gathering B-day for him! It was great...cake! there was cake! LOL...ok I'll stop..anyway I don't know what's up with me..I've neglected my extrapounds.com site, My blog..almost everything except my son and loved ones lol...I know I need to get back into the right "frame of mind" it's just hard for me this time..I have no idea why...anyway I thought I would share some things with you guys since I haven't been on here like in a month!! My apologies truly!
Just wanted to touch base and let everybody know I am still watching what I eat...just not eating as much ....let's see I have not taken the pills at all this week....I am kinda giving myself a break...and I know I soooooooo can't do that but I am...LMAO I am afraid my doctor isn' t going to perscribe again after this month LOL...anyway I posted some new pics...Gosh I looked at my face and hadn't realized just how much thinner it looks...I look sick! LMAO it's fine though I am doing this for myself and for my health and after I have lost the weight I am going to start working on not smoking anymore
Hello all and well once again I'm back from being away for about 2 or 3 days..I've been busy. Sorry...my son is very demanding !! LOL....Anyway I want to start off and tell you guys that in June of 2005 I weighed about 260 lbs...and I am 5'5...when I met my boyfriend..I made some major eating changes and started excercing more and well right when I hit 215 is when I noticed it was getting harder for me to loose weight...so that is one of the reasons for phentermine. So I am now on the phentermine and down to 205 and starting to get so much more active...thank God!! HOnestly because I HATE to excercise...and well my live in boyfriend I've decided has to got to move out because our constant "fighting" and "arguing" because of his issues is something he has to do himself and it's not my problem...My problems right now should only consist of anything or whatever my son needs and myself..I am not longer going to worry about his needs..he's a grown ass man and can do it on his own!!! I just noticed that everytime we argued or fought about something, because I'm an emotional eater well I had started eating so much more!!! So not anymore I told him to move out and he's going to and so if he loves me he can change some things and help and support me if not then guess what? NEXT...LOL Anyway this is all I am going to write for today because I am extremely busy...thank you so much everybody for your wonderful comments..they are helping me so much to stay motivated!!
Well I am so thankful and glad to know I am soo loved here ...thank you everybody for all the wonderful & inspiring comments...this is what we need to keep going every single day of our lives. So Thank you. I am sorry I have not posted in a few days, but I've been extremley busy here at work and at home with my son..(Spring Break!) Let's see....I am not sure if you guys know but on Monday night I was feeling very down and depressed because these pills ( and I have no idea why) are not killing my appetite anymore!! I take the highest dosage of phentermine with the exception that my doctor told me to start taking it only once daily in the AM before I eat...why is it that other users are able to take 2 pills during the day? I have no idea but I do know that because I was hungier than usual and with the fact that when I weighed myself on Monday I had not lost NOTHING! ( I have this terrible habbit of weighing myself everyday that I am trying to stop but it's like I have to know and I swear that is going to determine my day! I'll either be sad and depressed if I have not lost anything or I'll be cheerful and giddy if I have lost something) I so need to start getting into the habbit of excersie as well...( I hate it!) LOL..plus it's so hard to do it when I work 8-5:30 everyday and I have a child and things to do at home! I've tried to get up early in the morning but because of these pills, I have found that I cannot sleep as soundly as I had before therefore, it's hard for me to get up in the AM...LOL..but I have started walking and I will start building that up! Let's see....My guy and myself are doing great...he's taking care of my son during spring break so he dosen't have to go to daycare...he's just chillin and relaxing at home....We did have a small fight last night, because he says he thinks because of the changes I am trying to make in my life that I have something planned or that I am going to leave him for another man! Geez....I love this man....but I am sure he was just giving me a hard time....Well I guess this is all for today because I have work to do here at work!
Wow the day has really started out fresh and chilly! We are supposed to have some rain all weekend...that's a relief!! I woke up great this morning...Yesterday I kind of messed up and took my pill AFTER I ate and I forgot to of course. Anyway I did not excercise yesterday at all!!! I got too busy and could not...that sucks...so tonight I have to do some extra walking. My boyfriend and myself are having some issues right now. We constantly argue and I feel he's not really helping me through this...especially when he says things like " I know you are going to leave me after you loose all this weight and things like are you going to leave me ..for another man?" NO...how about all them sorry ass men didn't want me when I was chubby and now if I loose weight and they want me? NO ! Screw them...anyway...I have to work this morning..
I had an awful start this morning. I had the nightmare from hell!! I dreamed that my boyfriend of now 8 months and my sister decided they were going to be together and tell me. I was devestated even when I awoke!! I cried for about fifteen minutes until he woke up and realized I was crying and asked me what was wrong. He is so good and comforted me while I cried a bit and got over it. I then got out of bed and took my phentermine pill and smoked a cigarette. I excercied with Denise Austin for about 20 minutes, got in the shower and started to get ready for work. I woke my son up at about 10 after 7. My Nathan woke up as well. Sean had a rough start but once he got going he got going!! Took Nathan to work and had some coffee when I got back. Took the kids to school and went to work and here I am now.
Today was the first day I started taking my phentermine. I took it this morning at 7A.M. After about an hour of taking it..I ate some breakfast and got my son ready for school as well as myself. My Nathan did not go to work today, he's working on trying to get his license back. At about 7:30 I could feel the pill starting to work..It makes me very nervous and a little shaky but it's a good feeling. I love that rushing feeling. I got ready to go to work and My Nathan came along with me. I stopped at Rita's so My Nathan could grab something to drink and I saw my crush Jason and his friend. He did look.
Today is the first day I offically have started dieting. I have not started the Phentermine just yet. I will take some after my lunch break today. I 100% endulged this weekend. Including a nice dinner at Johnny Carino's. Totally enjoyed everything I put in my mouth up until this morning. I had coffee about 2 cups black no sugar..but that is how I like my coffee. My son Sean awoke just fine this morning from this slumber. He got dressed himself like big boys do and got himself ready for school. My Nathan is sicker than a dog at home with the stomache bug...poor guy but he will be just fine. Well this is all for now.
