I didn't forget to post today...it is just that I'm saving up my quotes and ideas and terrific mood for tomorrow's WI.
My mom saw me last night and was amazed at how different I look...(in less than a week). The ladies at the gym are all commenting on how different I am looking these days. So my mood is very high...I'm feeling great. Finally today I ate a decent lunch and drank most of my water...so I'm a positive and energized person today.
There's nothing like seeing the sun shine even when it has been raining all day.
I'm so proud of myself for pulling out of the mood and analyzing why I fell again. I just need to work harder not to fall into those ditches. Guess all in time...but caring and loving is such a huge part of who I am...I don't know that I would ever change that aspect of myself. I just need to know how to rescue myself from the ditch before I so willingly throw myself in.
Feeling great about tomorrow's WI....(but I do have my fingers and toes crossed so not to dissapoint myself!)
Everyone have a great evening and I'll post tomorrow as soon as I finish WI and get to the office.
Little Ms Sunshine was bummed out yesterday because of things she cannot control. It was turning into a fast and furious downward spiral but luckily I stopped myself before I hit bottom. This is all new to me....I've never ever had such emotional downs like I'm experiencing these days. Since its new...it is unknown...since it is unknown it throws me into a loop and actually scares me. A loop and a mood that I don't like and I don't want to be a part of. A loop which creates very negative and distructive feelings...feelings which I cannot hide even from my children and DH. So I decided...ENOUGH....I ALONE AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY LIFE, MY DAY, MY MOOD AND I ALONE NEED TO CORRECT THIS SITUATION. Not an easy task I might add...but I NEED TO DO THIS BECAUSE NO ONE LIKES TO BE WITH A NEGATIVE HUMAN BEING...NOT EVEN ONESELF!
I had an enormous headache from thinking way too much...my imagination and feelings where getting the best of me and I was having no more of this ... so I decided I needed to refocus and distract myself with something positive. So I went back to the gym. Mind you I have not been back to the gym since the summer. SO REAL BIG MOVE. The reason I left the gym and never went back was because I was bored. Simple...I was bored I had other things which made me feel better, motivated me more and I found no use for the gym. That was then and this is now... Yesterday called for drastic measures....I needed to find a new distraction, a new motivation, a NEW ANYTHING to snap me out of my mood ASAP.
Well the workout at Curves worked it eliminated my headache. After which I went walking at the park. I did a lot of self-analyzing and a reality check. I realized that I had moved my schedule around to create all this free time for myself...but realized that I'm sitting around being idle during all this new free time of mine. The worst thing for me is being idle, feeling negative about things and being unmotivated. I don't do well with uncertainities and with insecurities. And that was yesterday's realization. I alone am responsible for being what I want of myself. Can't look beyond the Me, Myself, and I. If I'm waisting my time...it is my fault, if I'm not being productive...again only me to blame and the best thing is that only I can change my life...only I can become as productive as I used to feel. My strong character and personality do not allow me to be the doormat waiting for shoes to come and wipe themselves on me...I need to be out there getting dirty and being productive, useful and appreciated. So today is a much brighter day...A New Spring has Arrived bringing with it new and exciting lessons. I'm ready...bring it on!
And the icing on the cake....I had my trainer at Curves measure me...and the great news is that I've lost the weight but also have lost an amazing 15.25 inches overall. THAT'S AMAZING.
I'm extremely proud of myself for my realizations...my new appreciation for whom and what I need(notice I didn't say wish...the word wish is a cop-out-people use "wish" when they really dont "want" it and take no effort to achieve it) ...my ability and power to bring myself back to where I want to be...I'm Back on Track...Spring arrived just in time to see this TULIP blossom.
So my hopes for all of you is that you lose the weight, lose the inches, but re-gain yourself along the way. IT TRULY IS A FANTASTIC FEELING!
YOU ARE THE PERSON WHO HAS TO DECIDE WHETHER YOU'LL DO IT OR TOSS IT ASIDE; YOU ARE THE PERSON WHO MAKES UP YOUR MIND. WHETHER YOU'LL LEAD OR WILL LINGER BEHIND. WHETHER YOU'LL TRY FOR THE GOAL THAT'S AFAR OR JUST BE CONTENT TO STAY WHERE YOU ARE.
-Author Edgar A Guest
We each have the power to make our lifes that which we truly wish it to be. The difficult part of it is deciding what you truly want...some say and some do. Which will you be today?
Ralph Marston-
YOUR GOALS, MINUS YOUR DOUBTS, EQUALS YOUR REALITY!
Hope everyone enjoyed their St Patrick's Day...I had the best ever. Tried the Ruben Sandwich and the corn beef and cabbage...both very good although I believe I have a new favorite sandwich...so I guess that was my favorite new dish. Had the best of all worlds...tried something new, enjoyed the time eating it...but didn't gorge so felt really proud of myself. The sun was shinning so beautifully here in Miami, the breeze blowing....just a perfect day.
Yesterday took my daughter to the movies to see the new Chris Rock...I think I love my Wife movie. It was good...laughted my tushy off but not because of the movie, my mood and the guy behind me had me in stitches...so I enjoyed the movie so much more. Ate my small popcorn with my bottled water...so again I didnt overstuff myself. Ate fish for dinner with salad and french onion soup....ice tea and a cup of coffee. We ate out at Outback...so again very pleased with my choice. Goes to prove you can enjoy life so much more when you are proud of the choices and decisions one makes on a moment by moment basis. No need to stop doing anything you enjoy...truly enjoy...just keep everything in balance, make wise choices and keep those options open.
The news of the day was that late last night I ordered my Ironman Achiever Elliptical Machine. Sad news is that it will take 4-6 weeks...have no idea why, but I guess they are rolling down from where ever it is produced. But I'll be ready for the rainy season once it starts...I don't want to give up my walking self-therapy time, but again I love having OPTIONS...and I think this will be a great one not only for myself but for my fitness buddy. Hopefully he will stop by and use it as often as he cans....It will be great to see him using it as well. That will totally make it all worth while...the wait and the expense of it. I've already decided to place it in my family room....a great conversation piece for anyone who stops by.
I hope the machine really makes a difference in my thighs, hips and butt area. Everyone tells me that my face looks so much thinner...well I love that statement but I look forward to having my pants fall down as well.
Always setting new goals, new dreams...and then enjoying this journey of seeing it all develop into reality.
Here are 3 very motivational quotes by Les Brown:
YOUR GOALS ARE THE ROAD MAPS THAT GUIDE YOU AND SHOW YOU WHAT IS POSSIBLE FOR YOUR LIFE.
YOU ARE NEVER TOO OLD TO SET ANOTHER GOAL OR TO DREAM A NEW DREAM.
YOU CANNOT EXPECT TO ACHEIVE NEW GOALS OR MOVE BEYOND YOUR PRESENT CIRCUMSTANCES UNLESS YOU CHANGE.
Stay Strong, Stay Focused and let's make the most of this new beginning Monday has brought our way.
Okay here is the update which I forgot to do this morning...
MY WI this morning I showed 228 which brought me to 14 pounds...but I was waiting for mother nature to kick in...and I guess she over slept cause she didn't come into play until 3pm. So at 3pm I re-weighted myself and my scale showed 227...so I'm of course going to go with the later number of 227...which brings me to 15 POUNDS LOST TO DATE.....
OH MY GOODNESS...this is great. What a difference that 1 pound makes!
I went to Costco to check out their Elliptical machines. I go want to get to MY FIRST 20 POUNDS....so I figure I better kick the program up a notch...I am trying to eat...I keep forgetting and when I do my son says I don't eat enough...wow...a non-eater with a weight problem.....now that's funny! I've been really good with my water, although not perfect...and my fruits....but my veggies fell behind this week. Need to do a week of greens to see how much more I can lose.
Now I'm waiting for my fitness buddy to arrive. Tonight's menu is Fish....will tell you all about it later on or tomorrow. In the meantime, everyone enjoy your Friday night...
Stay Focus...Stay Strong....RELAX we've made it through another week with great success!
IT IS TIME FOR US TO STAND AND CHEER FOR THE DOER, THE ACHIEVER, THE ONE WHO RECOGNIZES THE CHALLENGE AND DOES SOMETHING ABOUT IT-
Author: Vince Lombardi
Today's blog is dedicated to my fitness buddy K-9MasterFl. K-9 reached his first 20 pounds at this morning's WI. The fact that he has reached his first 20 pounds is reason alone to celebrate, but what has truly amazed me in not only that single accomplishment but the manner is which he achieves and inspires all those around him to achieve far beyond what any one of us had ever dreamt possible.
Dictionary's definition of HERO- A man distinguished by exceptional courage, nobility and strength. I dare to take it a little further- A hero to me not only shows exceptional courage, but gives others the same level of encouragement with honest and truthful actions and support. A hero not only accomplishes incredible deeds, but inspires those around him to perform and achieve extraordinary goals.
Although I know K-9 will not like me placing a "title" on him I must say that to know my fitness buddy is to picture his face after reading these words. This incredible and honest soul is a teacher of life. He is a born motivator, yet he is a no non-sense type of guy. His knowlege of how the mind works, his ability to see the world and events for what they are, and the extraordinary way he connects the two is so enlightening.
Many of you have noticed how much I've grown during this past month that I have joined EP. Well I have, but not without the guidance and encouragement of my fitness buddy. To be able to grow ... truly acknowledge oneself and be able to see what one needs to improve on while still seeing the positive side of our lives and oneself ... that is acheived soley with a great support system. I have found this unique support system in my buddy. An honest view, an encouraging and supportive buddy...and to boot a funny and incredible deep soul. Okay ..I need to include an AMAZING CHEF!
So today I celebrate his accomplishment. I thank God for the blessing of having him in my life and I thank him for not only leading me into this path, but accompanying me on this wonderful journey. I know we can all achieve our goals if we set our minds to it, we all have the power to make our dreams reality...but WOW, the blessing of having someone like K-9 to push, pull, kick or uplift you along the way is just the best thing ever.
Wishing everyone a happy St Patrick's Day....May the Luck of the Irish bless each of you the way God has blessed me.
TO "ME" WHOM I RECENTLY DISCOVERED AND ACKNOWLEDGED... I GIVE "ME" ALL THE TIME, EFFORT, ATTENTION BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY THE SPACE TO CONTINUE THIS GROWTH, THIS JOURNEY SO I CAN EXPERIENCE ALL THAT "I" CAN BE.
GOOD MORNING EVERYONE...Yep I'm back....STRONGER, HAPPIER, MORE ALERT, AND 2 POUNDS THINNER. OH YES....I DID SAY 2 POUNDS LIGHTER, THINNER, HEALTHIER!
This week has been one of those weeks one does not easily forget. It has been a very difficult week (now you know how positive I am when what I should of said it was a Hell of A Week)..and Hell being an understatement!
But I am so grateful to this pass week...dont want to re-live it but glad I experienced it and grew from it. It gave me a lot of insight into who I am, what I want....TRULY WANT for myself...and the best part of it all ... ready... for this big news...NOW I CAN ACKNOWLEDGE TO MYSELF THAT I AM THE VERY BEST....I ACKNOWLEDGE THAT WHAT I TRULY WANT FOR MYSELF I SO TRULY DESERVE BECAUSE I AM A LOVING AND VERY CARING HUMAN BEING. IT IS NOT BAD TO LOVE WITH THE INTENSITY THAT I DO, I NEED NOT FEEL GUILTY. I WILL ALLOW MYSELF TO SHINE WITHOUT TRYING TO HIDE MY TRUE SELF. WHEN I SPEAK FROM THE HEART I WILL NOT WORRY THAT IT GIVES AWAY ALL MY FEELINGS AND THAT THE PERSON RECEIVING IT WILL FEEL OVERWHELMED. I ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THOSE I LOVE SO DEEPLY WILL NEVER HURT ME OR ABUSE ME IN ANY WAY. I NEED TO LET MYSELF LOVE WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT HOW IT IS RECEIVED. LUCKY ARE THOSE WHO KNOW ME TRULY AND LUCKIER ARE THOSE WHO REACH MY HEART AND BECOME PART OF IT. MY HEART LIKE MY SOUL IS LIMITLESS...JUST LIKE THE HEAVENS...NO BEGINNING - NO END. THE MORE I LOVE THE MORE LOVE I HAVE TO GIVE AND IT ALL STARTED WITH THIS JOURNEY OF MINE...MY YEAR...MY LIFE!
SO FAR I HAVE LOST 13 POUNDS AND HAVE GAINED MYSELF THE TRUE MEANING OF "ME". WHAT A MAGNIFICANT VIEW I HAVE TODAY OF WHO I AM. I LOVE THE PERSON I HAVE ACKNOWLEDGED, I AM TRULY PROUD OF WHO I AM AND LOOK FORWARD TO IMPROVING MYSELF EVEN FURTHER.
THANK YOU ALL FOR EMAILING ME THIS PAST WEEK. YOUR CONSTANT EMAILS AND COMMENTS HELPED ME REACH THIS LEVEL OF CLARITY. HOT MOM WANNA BE...YOUR BLOG ON SOUL SEARCHING STARTED THIS EXPERIENCE THIS WEEK...SO THANK YOU. AGAIN IT PROVES THAT TOGETHER, AND EVEN THOUGH WE DONT REALLY KNOW EACH OTHER, TOGETHER WE GROW, TOGETHER WE WILL SUCCEED.
TO MY FITNESS BUDDY, K-9, YOU ARE ALWAYS AN INSPIRATION AND MY MOTIVATOR. THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME REACH THIS INSIGHT...LOVED THE MAGNIFICANT MEAL YOU CREATED WITH SO MUCH LOVE FOR MY FAMILY AND I LAST NIGHT....YOU ARE A TRUE MASTER AT EACH OF THOSE TASKS YOU TAKE ON...BLESSED ARE WE TO HAVE YOU IN OUR LIVES.
EVERYONE HAVE A MAGNIFICANT WEEKEND....MAKE IT COUNT, MAKE IT THE VERY BEST IT CAN BE...AND REMEMBER TO LOVE YOURSELVES -WE ARE WORTH EVERY EFFORT AND EVERY DREAM.
..and Hell being an understatement!